Sambut raya aidul adha with no rendang.. spaghetti sajork! wahahaha.. Petang tu ada juga terfikir nak masak rendang, tapi bila mengenangkan tukang makan sikit jek.. Elok la beli jek yang da masak kann. Sudahnya aku p kedai dan beli bekalan makanan dalam tin jek la bertin-tin. Setiba dekat umah, adik aku sms kater malam ni dia sampai. Chet! Kalau bagitau awal bule gak la aku prepare something. Mengenangkan adik aku ni gemor amat makan spagheti, aku p lah hypermarket depan umah ni tuk cari barang masak. Punya ramai la orang. Kalau tak kerana kecian, tak kuasa aku nak beratur panjang sepanjang-panjangnya. Kira first time sepanjang idop aku sanggup beratur kat kaunter kedai yang ada lebih 5 orang yang beli barang dua tiga bakul sorang.

Aktiviti layan sport anime da stat balik dah. Kalo dengar aku gelak sorang-sorang tu bukanlah bermakna aku da gilos. Best amattt! Tiga hari lepas layan soccer anime, now tengah layan football plak. 145 episodes to go! Tiada yang lebih best melainkan rilex sambil tv tengok aku..yeaay!!

"I can forgive, but I cannot forget is only another way of saying I will not forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a canceled note- torn in two, and burn up, so that it never can be shown against one"  - Henry Ward Beecher

Aku terbaca quotation kat atas nih yang mengatakan memberitahu seseorang bahawa dia telah dimaafkan namun tetap tidak dapat untuk melupakan semua yang terjadi adalah cara lain untuk memberitahu seseorang tadi bahawa dia sebenarnya tidak akan pernah dimaafkan?

Mungkin ada benarnya tapi aku kurang setuju! Memaafkan dan melupakan perkara yang berlaku merupakan dua hal yang tak sama. Pada aku, memaafkan seseorang bererti aku sudah tidak marah dengan apa yang terjadi dan telah menerima semuanya dengan fikiran yang terbuka, malah tidak akan mengungkit mahupun menyebut tentang perkara tersebut pada masa depan untuk kebaikan bersama. Melupakan memori pahit pula umpama keadaan sebatang paku yang pernah tertanam ke dinding, walaupun paku tersebut telah dicabut namun lubang yang ditinggalkan tetap meninggalkan bekas. Walaupun ditampal, dinding tadi tidak akan sama seperti asal.

Namun sebenarnya yang telah hilang atau berkurang akibat dari sebuah kesilapan adalah kepercayaan.Dan kepercayaan yang telah hilang adalah sesuatu yang bukan mudah untuk dibina semula. Pada aku, tidak pernah ada perkara yang tidak dapat dimaafkan melainkan bila hilangnya kepercayaan.

Would you fight for the one you love if that someone were in love with someone else, or considering someone else on their mind? Don't bother to ask me again because I will tell you to just walk away. Again and again. Please have respect for yourself. What is it that you have done wrong to make that unworthy person think you deserve to be treated like crap? Oh pelizzzz help me to help you.

Watching Ramona and Beezus kinda remind me of my all time favorite movie, The Game Plan. Only the girl Ramona played by Joey King is more natural and cuter. The move was an adaptation from a book written by Beverly Clearly. But Ramona.. is soooooo cuteeee!!! This movie surely became my second all times favorite after The Game Plan. ::Thumbs up::

Hari ni aku jadik si chomot sebab debus debus kota dari site penuh melekat kat baju. And gara-gara kelam kabut lunch tadi, perut aku still senak sampai sekarang. And..and.. aku ader pantun seswaiiii untuk tu..

"gendang gendut tali kecapi..
senak perut sakit ati!!"

Lepak tengok movie.. The Other Guy.. bosan ah! Mula-mula dah excited sebab ader bofren aku Mr The Rock, skali dia mati terjun bangunan daaa...

One thing yang aku realize recently, driving buat aku jadi bad mood! Wahah.. Macam tak de tempat lain jek aku nak hangen kan. Tak pe la..aku bukan kacau or langgar orang pon kat jalan, apakan lagi jadik pembuli jalan..ops.. Ada la sket2 especially bila aku intentionally potong keta kat depan aku yang drive macam kura-kura and drive kat depan keta dia dengan penuh tenang lagi mengalahkan keslow'an pemandu kura-kura tadi. Drive slow tu bule gak lagi aku terima sometimes, tapi driver spesis terhegeh-hegeh dan makan jalan memang aku pangkah. Menyampah betol. P naik bas jek la!

Colmar Tropicale Visit

Do :
Make a daily trip to Colmar Tropicale on cloudy days (NOT RAINY DAYS!) to experience French architectural and summer.

Do but Do Not :
Visit the Japanese Botanical and Tea Garden. Not recommended for non-nature lovers or those who are not a fan of steep roads.

Suggestion :
Bring enough money or else, bring your own food but be smart when choosing eating ports because 'picnic' is not allowed.

The best thing about being home is being home. What?? Haha. Thy who understand would understand. Ok..Enough with that crappy confusing words.

I am 'enjoying' home. I kinda went to bed early last night. I was under the control of 'sleepy spell' due to migraine, and the fact that today is an off day. It became routines that i isolate myself from peoples and sunlight, which to be exact once a week. The one day that i would be at home 24 hours. Am I getting weirder or what! And, i received an sms wishing me Happy Deepavali. Hahaha.. I never pick up calls or bother about smses sent by unknown but i did reply the sms today. Wrong number indeed..

I am at the airport since 7, waiting for my 9.20 pm flight! My head kinda pusing while my full stomach caused me feel bloat. There is a handsome guy besides me..wahah. Selingan.

I am so sleepy at the moment. Due to over eating this past few days, i'm kinda gastric duh.

Belum.. Aku belum p melenchong lagi. Tengah sambut pre depavali dekat land of keropok lekor.

..woke up as early as 3.30 in the morning, clean up, have a light breakfast.. Dalam kol 4.30 driver sampai. Now dah kol 8 setengah. Ngantuk nih. Apa taknya..dari kol 8 lebey sampai dekat kol 7 malam dekat site. Besok pun macam ni la juga. Apa yang pasti aku amat kantouqx.. Since ngantuk amat sangat.. aku oder room servis jek. Kopok lekor + Nasik Goweng .. Nyammm.. zzzzzz

Tak tercapai akal aku tengok orang yang mampu menipu tanpa ada rasa bersalah sikit pun. Dengan muka yang maha selamba, seolah-olah tak de apa yang happen. Tak faham langsung dengan orang macam ni. Will avoid answering questions, secretive,mysterious..they even hide their handphone! Kenapa la wujud orang macam ni. Dorang ni tak letih ke. Best sangat ke apa yang dorang buat tu eak..

Tapi yang aku sure, dorang ni adalah manusia-manusia berhati kering dan selfish tahap gaban. Kesian gaban kan.. Tak pasal-pasal pula nama dia naik.

I bought a mini sewing machine for RM10 je and really love it! Tima kasih le saper yang invent sebab korang dah memudahkan aku menjahit. It looked like a stapler kan.. bila nak jahit kena tekan cam stapler. Dulu saiz benda ni agak besar sket.. now nih makin lama dah makin kocik. Kalo dulu bersusah payah nak jahit tangan.. now stapler jek. Stapler ni produce jahitan kuku kambing. Wah! aku still ingat lagi nama jahitan ni. Biasa kalo aku jahit tangan, aku jahit kia jek. Keburukan jahit kia ni, even kat depan jahitan dia cam jahitan machine tapi kat belakang compang camping. Tapi kalo jahitan kuku kambing, jahitan yang belah belakang tu pun cantik cuma kerja dia leceh and perlu patience.

Setelah sekian lama mengidam..akhirnya aku berjaya juga membeli dril. Yeay! Sebenarnya, aku pon tak paham apa yang aku mengidam sangat ada drill..ahah. Time jalan-jalan dekat Jusco tadi, tak de pun plan nak beli asalnya. Terintai cordless drill brand Black&Decker.. Aku dah seronot sebab murah..60 hengget je. Biasa kalo brand tu, rega drill dia mau dua ratus ke atas gak. Time tu aku fikir takpe la dulu.. Lain kali bule beli sebab barang tu standard price. Aku singgah carefour lepas dari Jusco, aku tengok rega benda tu kat carefour 80 hengget. Whatt! 20 hengget differ tu, lepas dah minyak keta aku tuk seminggu. Pas tu.. Aku g Jusco balik and terus je la beli. Nanti-nanti la aku fikir nak drill apa.. Huhu.

Layan anime ni memang asyik. Orang jepun memang terer bab melebih-lebih & imaginasi melampau yang tak logik langsung. Tapi since aku layan anime ni, terasa cam kartun omputeh da kureng best. At the moment aku tengah layan anime pasal chef.

Tadi aku jalan-jalan cari pasal dekat bawah opis. Tetiba rasa macam nak beli iphone. Nasibla aku muhasabah diri bakwasanya aku nak kena simpan duit tuk pegi melenchong & sambung master maybe. Ibu kater dia nak amek master dalam Safety.. Time keja kontraktor dulu, aku memang selalu intai website NIOSH sebab aku memang intersted nak further dalam safety. Tapi sejak-sejak joint gomen, aku dah tak minat dah. Kalau dulu aku rasa macam berkobar-kobar jek, tapi now ni rasa cam lembab..even gelaran ir tu pon dah jadi jokes among us.

Before kol 7 aku dah tercongok dekat opis macam biasa. Tengah aku menyanyi gumbira, aku nampak my bos dengan lajunya menuju ke cubicle aku, lalu konversasi ini pon terjadik..

Boss : Hang kena p kursus kan?...
Aku : Aaaa?
Boss : Hari ni, dekat HQ..
Aku : Aaaaaaaa?
Boss : Kol 8 start.. sempat lagi kot
Aku : Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?

Saper la yang bijak laksana bulan suh orang pegi kursus tapi hari kurus baru nak inform nih. Aihhh...Gigit kang baru tau.

Tapi thanks la to orang yang arrange aku pegi kursus tu sebab aku sempat shopping sakan dekat muaz textile kat jalan TAR. Aku da beli tudung yang banyak. Kira lah kalau lebih 10 helai.. tak banyak aper. Kalau bawak mak aku g kedai tu mesti sakan. Murah amat. Aku beli tudung lycra yang ader anak tudung skali tu baru 7 hengget jek. Kat luar mau 10 - 15 hengget kot. Cumanya aku tak berkenan dengan anak tudung dia. Aku tak kira la fesen, tapi nimang huduh aku nengok orang pakai. So, aku pakai tudung dia jek. Senang sebab tak yah pakai anak tudung & tak yah iron. I Sarung and jalan jek.. thanks la pader saper yang design tudung tu. One day kot2 ader lagi yang creative, buat la tudung pattern cenggitu tapi tepi tudung tu tanak ader jahit lipat.. aper ntah orang panggil.. kelim kot.

So.. next month aku akan bizi amat la nampaknya. Tadi AF1 call, tanya aku nak pegi Melaka tak 8-10 hb.. kursus risk assesment.. wahah.. dah le 2 sampai 4hb aku kat Terengganu.. 10 pai 12 hb kena audit stor cawangan lain. Pastu boss aku da calon my name tuk audit projek belah selatan sometimes middle November.. Merantau jek la kerja aku.. Tapi yang betulnya aku malas sebab tempat kursus tu Melaka... tempat jatuh lagi aku tak maw kenang. Hahaha..

Tadi g miting dekat site. Next week seminggu la jawabnya aku tak lekat dekat ofis sebab aku bakal meraikan pre-depavali dekat Ganu.

Tadi buat lawak kereta. Orang da elok-elok arrange aku naik dengan keta lain, aku g hijack keta team lain. Kompiden je duduk dalam keta tuk orang lain gara-gara berat mulut nak tanya sapa nama dreba tu. Wahaha. Wakaranai!

One of the gang nak resign, nak pindah kat kementerian perikanan. Aku gemor la joke dengan dia, usik dia nanti skop kerja dia jaga ikan je la. Marah dia.. heheh. Tapi bila sebut bab ikan, nama aku tatap naik sebab dorang suka kaitkan aku dengan 'anak ikan'. Sabar jak la! Aku tak selera la dengan anak-anak ikan ni. Haha.. Jahat la dorang nih.

Aku memang selesa mix dengan bebudak lelaki yang muda dari aku, aku seronok sebab aku takder adik lelaki. Especially sebab aku bule buli dorang dan aku memang suka buli budak.. ahaha. Nak buli budak pompuan, kang menangis plak. Nak buli adik-adik aku yang semuanya pompuan tu memang tak dapek sebab dorang pun kaki buli. Aku tak favor abang muda ni sebab dorang muda. Some guy mungkin prefer pompuan lebih tua sebab dorang ni matang & stabil tapi pada pompuan yang lebih tua ni pula, dalam story ni merujuk kepada aku la specifically.. A younger boyfriend could be 'kawai' and entertaining sebab dorang tak matang or else they could be a 'liability' sebab dorang less matang than aku. Aku memang tak pernah le bercita-cita jadik second mak or kakak pada boyfriend or asben aku, nor did i want to be leader dalam relationship. Never! Kalo lelaki yang lebih tua pula, walaupun matang tapi aku  tak favor sebab i am not looking for another father. Cukup la my dad tu je my ayah. Besides, they came with liabilities... certainly not interested nor interesting! Haha..

Hari ni dah gaji. Since aku betul-betul berazam nak pegi melancong, aku rasa eloklah aku start ikat perut. Kalau tak, berenang la aku balik malaysia nanti. Yang paling tak seronok kerja dengan kerajaan ni, tang ujung bulan dan ujung taun. Hanya orang gomen sajok yang tahu.

Dan hari ni, termaktub la as hari paling miskin dalam sejarah hidup semenjak aku bergelar gomen officer. I was left with 3 ringgit jek, sampai nak beli eskrem kat mcD kat bawah opis ni pun tak mampu! Gila miskin.. hahahaha. Soma ni gara-gara sebab aku yaklah seorang yang amat la tak suka nak beratur dekat atm. Benchi amats! Bila macam tu, ni la jadiknya. Umah aku ngan atm tu berapa langkah la sangat, kat bawah opis ni hah, belambak atm machine tapi aku M.A.L.A.S punya pasal.. toksah cakap le.

Semalam aku dah shopping sakan. Berbotol-botol aku beli sauce speghetti tapi nak masaknya ntah le bila. Peti ais aku yang cenonet tu macam da tak muat dah nak sumbat.

Single Why?

Tengahari tadi keluar jalan-jalan dengan member pegi area sogo. Happened to have face the same fate on love life with her.. We made a joke out of it every time we saw wedding dress and bridal shops. She loved to say "Pelamin anganku musnah".. Hahaha. Even listening to that said pun rasa cam geli pusat.

My friend, she is a very beautiful and attractive woman. Stability.. career.. She have it. Guys chasing her is nothing unusual but why is she still single? And why am i? Both of us agreed, we choose to stay single bukan sebab masih in love and sayangkan orang yang dah tak de. Personally pada aku, it is not the case at all. Dalam kehidupan ni, things and peoples come and go. Whether nak terima kenyataan or cling to pasts, it is up to diri sendiri. Pada aku, there are a big life ahead of me so no point wasting times untuk hal-hal yang tak reasonable dan tak berbaloi pun. Without being selfish, aku perlu jaga hati sendiri lebih sedikit dari jaga hati orang sebab at the end of the day, kalau hati sendiri aku tak jaga, macamana aku nak jaga hati orang kan!

My aunt and her family datang tadi. Pas lunch, lepak dekat kedai DIY, maw dekat seratus abis kat situ jek. Everytime pegi, mesti beli something sebab selain facts yang barang-barang dalam kedai tu semuanya menarik & unik, price pun murah. Besides jusco ngan carefour yang dah dimasyur jadi kedai angkat merangkap taman permainan, kedai DIY ni pon salah satu dari kedai angkat aku gak.

Aku ngan my boss telah berjaya dipeningkan oleh konsaltan since perbincangan hangat kitaorang semalam. Aku ingat aku jek yang curious, boss aku pon sama gak rupanya. Tadi before 7.30 dia da cari aku pasal calculation. Nasib boss aku memang ader background design.. aper2 hal bule refer jek kat dia. Cuba kalo kena boss yang tak pernah buat design & tak der technical background yang strong.. hancuss.

Hari ni hari yang sibuk. Since semalam aku macam banyak keje plak. Besok sabtu.. rilek day! Bule la manja-manja dengan Oranje Bear. Semalam aku da peluk sambil cekik-cekik dia. Sian Oranje..

The one and only that could melt a heart in mere seconds are children. When they flashed a smile,  worries, anger and unhappiness was being wiped out from me. Now, I am happy again...

I was busy the whole day. I also succeed in making my peers life miserable, especially the new guy ZH alias Mr Integriti. Hahaha.. sorry friend. It was so funny! Besides, I also managed to make my contractor's day turned into bad-question days. Opted for quality not quantity, I am not the kind who will simply asked a question without studying or knowing what am I questioning. That is why you people rarely hear me asking questions. But when I did, you could expect something that is out of expectancy. Kecian tengok muka depa... I used to be a contractor, not as a contractor but you know...  I learn a lot back at the days, so I understand lots too. Luckily my current boss is a good person. He always reminded me to look things from a fair point of view.

Saket gigi la pulaa.. jahattt gigi nih!

Ari ni J-card day.. berduyun la orang mengunjungi Jusco yang menjadi tempat persinggahan aku hari-hari. Tadi aku singgah jugak kat Jusco, kot-kot ader offer baju. Currently aku gila dekat baju kurung ngan tudung yang ala-ala lycra. Sebab? Sebab aku benci amat iron baju. Aku ingat da beli steam iron, mudah le keja-keja mengiron baju.. tambah leceh ader! Before iron nak kena isi air.. da abes iron nak kena buang air dalam iron. Dah la kena berdiri time mengiron, bukan kaki yang lenguh, tapi si lengan yang tak der muscle tapi banyak lemak ni.. lenguh oke.

Time raya ari tu aku ada cakap la kat my mom.. aku nak amik amah sorang tuk jaga makan pakai aku. Next raya aku kater kalau aku bawak balik bibik, nanti mak ader assistant time raya. Belum sempat aku habiskan story angan-angan mat jenin, mom da fire & ceramah aku kaw-kaw. Mak aku nih.. dengki la tuh! Malas amat bab iron baju. So, sekarang ni aku pakai semua yang 'bergetah', lengan tak lenguh, bil letrik pon kurang. Giler mahal bil letrik ngan air kat umah ni. Dulu time kat umah lama, air dalam 12 hengget jek sebulan & api dalam 30-40 tapi dekat sini.. aku rasa api dalam 40-50.. air pon samer. Tak paham lah aku.

I am having a light migraine. I didn't overuse my head but I wonder why migraine still loves me? I love you both eyes, but you are killing me. And you, my back, I also love you but you, too, is killing me. The three of you, please don't be bad...

Hari ni aku berjalan-jalan cari hal dekat putrajaya dan cheras dengan ZA & my boss. Boss nak tengok projek saket aku ngan ZA. Nasib mood dia baik, kalau tak, maw aku kena maki sebab tak ingat jalan nak g site! Berapa kali pusing kat Precint2 tu.. nasib le kitaorang jumpa site yang-aku-jaga tu akhirnya. Tengahari boss belanja makan dekat Pantai Dalam.. a good place to enjoy good lunch tapi aku tak taw nama kedai tu. Takper.. sok2 aku tanya inchik dreba. Sedap lagi selesa.

Ibu bagitau dia nak sambung master.. dia ajak aku sambung skali. Huhu.. yang dia tak taw, aku memang da kena call tuk interview for enrollment dekat UPM tuk sem ni, tapi aku tak pegi. Kebetulan time tu bizi amat, at the same time tengah try tuk figure out a plan, the one plan that is going no where, which I knew it now. So for next year aku plan lagi. Aku sure amat next year tiada lagi anasir-anasir yang menganggu fikiran.

Well.. When you are single and you don't think much nor did you let others take control of your thoughts, life became easy. Bukan hanya sebab tu, maybe sebab personaliti dan pembawaan diri kot. I always have a  reason to smile.. though life is hard but I never sabotage myself. Tak yah story banyak, semua pon bule nampak dari muka, except for the part time2 light migraine datang melawat, itu time sah muka aku asam sket.. and kedegilan aku untuk tidak berada di opis lepas 4.30 pun menyumbang kepada less stress. I definitely enjoy life to the fullest what.. tapi M.A.L.A.S is the right words la tuk explain what happened to me.

Miting memang amat bosan. Bikin shepital ni bukan macam bikin otel..tak bule suka suki nak ubah interior arrangement. Before nak letak barang, which is before building naik.. da kena plan awal-awal. Planning process tu, kalau story berapa kali meeting and interaction..boleh muntah! Kalau kena CON-trak/tant and planner tak cemerlang...menangess! Tensih ke aku nih? eh??...

Bangun-bangun pagi tadi tengok ada miskal dari RSenora. Buang tebiat kal aku kol 12 pagi. Then tadi kol 7 lebey dia sms, suh punch kad sebab takut dia lambat. Aku belek-belek phonebook, aku salah simpan no ke. Bila masa pula dia ni pindah sini balik. Kal dia.. Laa.. Rupanya dia ader taklimat exam hari ni. Hahaha.. Petang lepak ramai-ramai dekat kedai mamak. RMD merangkap boypren RSenora pun ada. Ada kesah menarik tapi biarlah rahsia..temporarily ;)

What I do? Well.. as usual.. enjoying a breezy Sunday with movies and books.. though I only open them for pictures :) I watched Knight and Day, it really is a good movie and  totally worthwhile waiting for the Blue Ray edition. I also watched Avatar - The Last Air Bender. Though the graphic is good, it failed on the action part. Luckily I did not go to watch it at cinema.

I experienced bad back pain the whole day. I am kinda like an old woman with restricted movement. Blamed it on monthly cycle that I am fragile from top to toe! Since I already settle everything before weekend, I have nothing else to do other than relaxing. So I just sat and enjoyed the day. My friend invited me to zoo. Frankly speaking, I have never been to national zoo, not even once.. ahahah.

Honn.. maybe there were times you doubted your decisions. In fact, your decisions were indeed wrong. But what is the point thinking about wrong? Past is past and meant to be forgotten. If you don't want to live a miserable life, don't ever regret anything in life especially when making an option or deciding something. All you have to do is tell yourself to do better in future and promise not to repeat anything you don't like doing. You could weep silently or cry out loud, but don't ever regret nor blame others for your decisions. Always remind yourself... you are fully responsible for your own self. You be brave, trusts your good soul!

Semalam aku ada cerita lawak kat tol. Queue nak bayar tol, ada la 4 or 5 buah kereta depan aku. Traffic smooth jek. Lepas kereta depan aku chow, aku pon ready huluq duit 5 posen. Aik! Tak der orang dalam kaunter tu. Aku pandang member, member pandang aku.. kita da salah masuk q ker? Few second pas tu tetiba muncul kepala putih dari bawah tingkap kaunter tu. Tekejutnya aku! Laa.. rupa-rupanya minah tol tu tadinya tunduk, nak amik benda kat bawah kerusi dia kot. Nasib la siang.. kalau tengah malam.. saspen jugak.

Besok Sabtu.. member nak ajak p bejalan tapi aku rasa aku malas nak kuar. Insaf sekejap.. ahahah.. Lagipun kat umah ni, apa lagi yang tak der.. Sate jek kot yang tak der. Tetiba teringin nak makan sate lagi. Sayap ayam lagi.. spaghetti ngan pizza kat Little Italy lagi.. sadaaaappp nyeeeee... lapauuuuuuuuu!!!

Quotations fevret terkini aku "Not in a million years". Kena baca with British accent. Aku dengar satu song ni, singer dia English. Tapi every time nak sing along je, part yang paling lancar aku sebut cuma tang "Nout ien a mill-yeon yea- rss" ni jek. Balik-balik pon aku rewind, still part ini jek yang aku cemerlang. Mungkin memori dan sebutan aku da degenerated kot. Tau la da tua ni.. kann..

Subuh-subuh aku da kena gelak bos.

Boss : Hang nak p miting ni, semalam ke hari ni?
Aku : Eh! Hari ni boss
Boss : hang tulis 13 Oktober?
Aku : Alaa.. silap tulis la pula boss.
Boss : Hahaha.. aku ingat aku yang salah date..

Time tu belomm pun pukul 7. Boss aku bukan apa. Dia saspen sebab dia pun ada miting. Sah la aku memang dah tua.. hahaha. Sama la kita bos!

Hari ni aku seharian dekat site. Tiada yang lagi mengujakan selain berada dekat site. Rindu pula jaman-jaman aku jadi kontraktur. Especially bila ada memori daun pisang. Ahahaha..

Lepas makan banyak & kenyang amat.. Rasa bersalah pula pada perut. Ahaha.. Sorry mr perut.

Aku da tukar biji mata baru.. Kaler grey lagi. Tapi aku tak faham. Aku tengok orang lain pakai contact lense ok je tapi aku berair-air mata & hidung sepanjang hari. Kali ni aku amik yang kaler, bukan le sebab makcik nak bergaya. Kalo kaler punya,tak lah susah-susah nak fikir betul or terbalik contact lense tu. Kalau transparent..acik kompius mana depan mana blakang bah.

Adik aku buang tebiat dua tiga menjak ni. Pantang nampak aku buka kasut mamat ni.. Dia mesti nak cuba kasut aku. Aku tak paham sunggoh. Aku taw la kasut aku shantek & tempted untuk dicuba. Pastu tadi dia dianugerahkan nama baru, AF1 bagi nama B.O.B.o.I.. Hahahaha.

Sleep sleepy eyes..am so sleepy. Inside a dark room of mine.. I am counting times before bed time.. I could not think.. All i want is sleep. I hate meetings! I am out of topics, i know..

Perut aku mogok pagi tadi. Aku kena turun site dekat putrajaya awal-awal pagi..bila da banyak kali pegi toilet, saspen la juga.. Sampai ke aku ke site tu. Tapi perut aku memang behave amat lah time dekat site. Aku da siap-siap sound kontraktor sepaya hantar aku cari bilik termenung kalau perut meragam. Bilik termenung dekat site tu jenis portable.. Ngeri ok! Anyway, thanks mr perut kerana kamu sangat memahami.

Letih juga meneman kanak-kanak sepetang hari ni. Itu pun tak ke mana sangat. Rindu plak time kecik-kecik dulu. Walaupun aku tak cakap, aku memang sangat berterima kasih to both my parents. Aku sensitif kalau tengok orang buat naya kat orang tua. Tengok drama sedih sket, mula la meleleh. Apo aku merapu ni.. Homesick la ni.. Tapi aku memang tak akan tengok cerita sedih sebab confirm tangkap leleh. Menangis itu satu terapi apa... Tapi memang relive amat la pas nangis. Rasa macam terlepas semua aura negatif.

This is just a friendly advice...

"If you ever want to try to lie to my face, please do it properly with 100% commitment. If you are not smart enough, please do not attempt to try at all. If you think you are clever enough to lie, trust me, i am twice more clever to find out all your lies. Perhaps I do not say a thing but I am laughing at you and your stupidity, silently"

Peace y'all!

I am not feeling well and kinda exhausted. This always happen to me, blame pms! And mom, she called me and talk about something that long forgotten.

Maybe my mood is not at it's best but care to run a checklist, just to remind my self that i am..

Not becoming one grumpy young lady. CHECKED.
Not doing anything not-right. CHECKED.
Not complaining about every things. CHECKED.
Not feeling any needs to be attached to someone. CHECKED.
Laugh as much as crying. CHECKED.
Buy any thing i like. CHECKED.
Do plan but not making any specific one. CHECKED.
Not thinking too much and just enjoying life to the fullest. CHECKED.

...and i feel good, again.

I went looking for flower and kinda willing to pay up to hundred bucks for sakura-look alike? Was i out of my mind! Who knows what had happened to my brain. No wonder laa.. It is day 8th of the month today..hear this - I hated 8.

I am tired.. My two days course ended today. I went to Jalan TAR and Sogo. I don't know what has gotten into me lately but i became a fan of dining sets and stuffs for home. Maybe i am ready to own a house? Is it? If that's the case, i might able to make it happen after one or two years. But..buying a house is not as simple as buying cars. I could still dream, plan and think about it till the day it happen.

I am thinking about MAGGI mee.. The yumm yummy delicious mee. Again, thanks to MAGGI for creating something that i always can think of when my stomach 'calls' or when i dont have idea on what to eat.

I called my mom while having breakfast at old town white coffee, while waiting for AF1 and mr B to pick me up and 'moblogging' at the same time. And my stomch.. Ermm.. Toil-et maybe!

Bukan takat rambut aku je yang gugur.. Bulu mata aku ni pun, within this week tiap-tiap hari gugur. Aku pun tak paham. Orang kata mungkin ada orang rindu kalau bulu mata jatuh.. Apa-apa la pun orang nak kata.. janji mata aku tak botak.

Letih betul hari ni.. Letih makan banyak.. Hehe. Floor aku ada buat jamuan raya..seronot! Ada makna aku seronot tu sebenarnya.. Ngehehe.. Biarla rahsia ;)

Home alone the whole day.. Heaven! Nothing is more relaxing other than spending my precious time at home, as always. I am watching world cafe Asia on Travel&Living Channel at the moment. Watching peoples all around Asia preparing their dishes kinda moved me. Cooking is art. Just add in whatever i like, as long as the proportions are right. The goal ; 1st goes to aesthetic. I wouldn't want to try something that look 'ugly' kay. Love always starts from the eye, remember ;)

I am planning a trip to Japan or Europe next year, which i have not decided yet. I couldn't make it this year and hoping i could make it next year. I talked with ibu about Japan. Well.. I don't want to say much.. Just wait till it happen loh.

..trying to recall what i did today.. Mmm.. Nothing much.

Yesterday my bos gave us something to think about. How to design a 14 degrees room @ 50% relative humidity. Hua hua hua.. Come again?! He even handed me a book.."read this during weekend" he said. Hahaha.. Did i read it yet? Naah..

Hello sushi!! I've been wanting to eat at sushi Z for so long. The place was always full and i could see a long queue everytime i passed by. I went there with ibu. I have already eaten so i cant try ALL! I am going again..that time i will make sure i go there with an empty stomach.

I'm not missing you...

Every words of this song are so meaningful to me... try to listen to her live performance.. superb! even better than her studio version..

I'm not missing you...
(Stacie Oricco)

Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

But.. I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

Amat bosan hari ni. Aku rasa aku tak buat apa2 pun. Aku turun lunch. Ingat nak pegi kotak merah.. tapi Dauz pula tak der. Pas kfc, aku tersinggah dekat kedai OTO.. nampak basikal senaman. Aku dah mula dah nak stat membeli belah. Tengah aku terai berbasikal dengan gumbiranya.. lalu la sekumpulan geng yang one of them pernah pegi induksi dengan aku. Aku ingat dorang lalu jek, siap masuk dalam kedai pulak. Tapi aku dengan selamba tetap mengayuh basikal yang tak bergerak kemana pun tu walaupun aku berbaju kurung. Tak la tak seneyeh pun.. aku jenis yang sentiasa pakai seluar panjang aper walopun aku pakai baju kurung. Sebab? Senang nak lari kalau anjing kejar.

Pastu aku g AIBI pula. Kat situ pun aku mengayuh juga. Kedai tu lagi dekat amat dengan pintu entrance opis aku, tapi aku nak juga kayuh! Esok la baru aku decide.. so aku naik opis. Buka2 komputer, ader 2 sms dari 2 nombor yang nama penghantarnya tak keluar. Aku pakai simkad tu tuk online, even orang boleh call tapi aku tak akan dengar or tahu yang ader call masuk, boleh terima sms je. Cek2.. laa.. fasi2 aku time induksi rupanya ajak g kotak merah. Laaa.. patut pun aku ada rasa2 macam nak masuk kotak tadi. Jauh dorang ni merantau sampai ker midvali...

Since time tu da pukul 1 lebih, aku tak la join. Da tu dorang kater nak p panjat opis aku melawat. Bila aku tanya, dorang ader program ker sampai datang ke midvali.. dorang kater buat lawatan susualan budak2 induksi ari tu. Bila aku macam tak caya, incik tu kater.. tu la.. bebudak lain yang kena lawat tu pon samer gak tak perchaiya cam ngko.. ahahah..

This is a story of a friend of mine yang aku kenal time2 keje ni la... Dipendekkan cerita, mamat ni selalu sms, call.. aku layan je la as kawan time2 aku rajin & bila time aku malas which is most of the time, aku masuk la nombor tepon dia dia dalam senarai blacklist aku (opps!), esp bila dia stat nak ala2 sayang menyayang kunun. & bila dia ajak keluar, ada2 je alasan aku. Kalau takat budak-budak dekat opis ni aku tak de hal nak lepak sama dorang, tapi kalau keluar dengan someone yang aku pun kenal gitu-gitu je.. memang rasa tak selesa so aku tak pernah kuar dengan dia langsung. Lagipun dia ni jenis yang macam too good to be true.. which is satu attitude ‘kurang real’ yang aku cukup tak gemar especially pada lelaki. Be yourself and act normal kay guys!

Story of the day.. I arrived safely at Nilai, thanks to gps. Unlike yesterday, I am 'well prepared' today and a good weather is also helping me. It took me less than 30 minutes to reach my friend's house after Sg Besi tol. Ibu and I were visiting our long lost friend, 12 years to be exact, and thanks to facebook.

After spending almost 2 hours at her beautiful house, I went to Nilai 3. I only stop at 4 shops but ended up buying 3 items, which include a very large mirror, wooden mat and partition for the price of less than RM200 alltogether.

I really love the mirror, height about six or seven feet I guess. RM70 only! Can't I believe it! See.. it kinda made the so-called sofa looked smaller. I am a big fan of mirror, except the time when I look plump. Yeah.. fact is a bitter thing. And here.. the partition, also RM70. A simple one but ok loh!

I promised my friend to go to Nilai today.. so around 4 pm I left home. It is shown on gps the distance of my destination will be 40 km from house. I forgot to change the gps setting and unchecked the tollway avoidance so instead of using highway, I was 'instructed' to use an unfamiliar non-toll route. Due to highly trusting the gps, I saved money BUT i got lost! Darnggg!! Still, I kept driving and 'made' the gps choose tollway at last because there were no other non-toll route available at that time. I claimed it as victory against gps, BUT, again.. I got lost!

It was about 25 km from my destination when it happened. First, I showed my silliness to the toll gate girl by trying to pay the fare which is not required because they only distribute tolls tickets there!! Then.. instead of going right, I turned left and 'all the sudden' I was on my way back to KL again, + about 39 km from my destination! So, I just drove home + pay the unnecessary toll fare. End of story.

What a day!

I am watching TV news for the first time after almost 3 months! I am doing it while mob-blogging. Thanks to NO-interesting-watchable-program on tv at the moment. Chotto! I switched off my laptop to access internet from mobile phone? What was I thinking again.Yeah.. although my nokia 5800 phone is not as intelligent as i-phone, I am very much comfortable using it for 'interneting' compare to accessing from laptop.

I am the type who can live with NO-calls and NO-sms but not without NO-internet on the phone. Internet line is a MUST-HAVE to me. Not because of facebook, ym, email or social networking activities.. It just because of wikipedia and tons of usefull info that i can read + songs download of course ;) Though i have an account like facebook, just like anybody else but i am not really a big fan of social networking. I still remember, it was on my time the mirc whatsoeva online chat became popular but I only tried it once. I have ym but I only have a small group of very close friends on my list and..I rarely on line. And now with fb phenomena.. let see.. mmm.. most of the time the chat is off; often ignored friend request from 'strangers' (wanna use this word??really???!!); only less than 10 of 2++ fb friends of mine were new friends via friend request..while the others were schoolmates or someone that I personally knew. Yeah.. I think I sounded like 0.L.D.

Head ache every day and my eyes are killing me!

Nothing interesting happened today except for the part that I ate sate. I've been wanting to eat sate since last week. What else am I thinking about eh? chicken wings!!!! I could never be separated with chicken but still, shrimps and prawns are my 'true love'.

Kinda head ache at the moment. Is it because I have nothing to do or am I just being lazy today. I am thinking about KFC shrimps. Nyummmm... 

Yesterday.. my favorite stall reopened for business. Because they were busy holidaying, I ate cekodok for the previous four days!!! Can't imagine what will I be eating at the food court if the stall is no longer in operation. My favorite foods are fish tempura+mayonnaise with green vege. I never change my menu since ibu left almost a year ago. It is not that I am on a diet or anything.. it just I didn't have any appetite for other foods.

The good thing at that smelly food court besides my favorite foods was this beverage stall. The boys remembered my favorite drink so whenever I came,  they asked me, 'coffee sis?'. All I have to do is nod my head then my order will be 'kopi kaww kurang maness satu!'. Sometimes i could get my order faster than those ordering before me..sometimes of course la I dont.. hahaha. Adding to the fact, their coffee suited my taste and they understand when people said 'kurang manis', then it shall be less sugar unlike at mamak stall, no matter how many times you told them  'kurang manis' still ada manisss jugaaa!

"Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself...
Love is selfless not selfish...
Love is when you lay down your life for another...
Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking...
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.."

This is a part of a song lyrics actually and the melody is good + Bruno Mars is there.. except for the part where  the whole lyrics is kinda 'non universal'. I  happened to hear some of Bruno Mars songs on 4shared and ended up falling for his music, especially the 'Just The Way You  Are'

To those poor guys who are gonna be singing this song... 

I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road...
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement...
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement...
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby...
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think...
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring...
Cuz I can still feel it in the air...
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair...
 


My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife...
She left me, I'm tied...
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right...

I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road...
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn...
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn....
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for...
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback...
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby...
Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough...

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone...
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone...
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one...
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road...
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything...
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything..

I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

And I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

Nelly  - Just A Dream 

I want to write something today but I don't do any interesting activity to share, so, maybe I'll  just write about things that people didn't  know about me..

1. I play musical  instrument like keyboard, flute, recorder but I didn't know how to read music notes.
2. I loved to stay at home. I hate lizard because 'they' were noisy!
3. Every month, I spent money on books but never read them.
4. I collect dvds and will go madly crazy if  I lost even a single piece.
5. I hand-sew and really good at it.  I (used to) designed clothes and 100% hand sewed some of my dress, baju kurong etc
6. It was not my nature to speak face to face and say-it-out-loud if I were sad, mad or frustrated about something or someone,  I'd rather express it in writing.
7. I  hated waiting and loathed people who do not respect time.
8. I believe life is all about yes or no. I cannot deal with fickle minded person and those who do not know what they want in life.
9. I am very particular about kitchen and bathroom cleanliness if compare to any other spaces in my house.
10. Though I am not soft spoken & ladylike type, I hated rude people, especially rude women. Using rough and rude words is 100% unacceptable to me ears.

That's  too many information...

What  I do today.. i felt like  going to Bukit Tinggi but after reading the news that there will be around 1.2 mills of car heading back to KL this weekend, I decided home is the best place. My friend asked me to go somewhere..  when  I asked  him what is the best thing about the place.. nothing actually,  just  his family  house he said. I rarely visited my own family's house  and he is asking me to his.. naahh.. Such a good boy..

So, all I do today is sleep and watch tv.. lucky that I already did all my laundry earlier. One thing I really love about my house is the shop lot in front of it.  Bank, JPJ, hyper  market.. even the car wash shop is there. All i need to do is just  open the door, push the lift button down, walk to the gate.. cross the road.. tadaaa.. I am there already. The lrt is also there.. I only drive my car to go and back from work, never on weekend  because the lrt and annoying commuter is very near.

"is that what you really feel, or, is it what you think you  should feel?"...

This question made me think for a while.. Of course i am familiar with it because i happened to always caught in a situation where I am thinking about something else but my mouth saying something different. Maybe it was because our mind and heart is not always in sync, that it always left us caught in the middle...

There were boundary between what the heart wanted and what the mind is thinking. Wanting something or someone so badly but we can't do or have it because it is wrong or not right for us..  that often occurred in life. Like when you were madly mad at someone, you thought that person deserved punishment severely but you can't do that because it was not right. But I wonder what will happen if every time our mind will agree to what the heart is desiring and vice versa....

I started working today but my heart is not there yet. My mind is still thinking about R.E.S.T, adding to the fact that tomorrow is also an off day. Well.. I guess I am just lazy. Ok.. I admit I am lazy!

I am not ready to go to work yet.. How i wish everyday were holidays. Maybe i could find one super duper rich husband to support me as full time housewife.. If only logic part of my brain agree to that, wouldn't it be like 'heavennn' that i don't have to think about work anymore. But i am not a simple person..that is the problem!

Meeting friends and families during Raya, I was being asked the same question for a countless time about boyfriend and jodoh. Well.. As usual.. I prepared a standard answer for each and every questions asked. Kacauu eh!! To be frank, I sooo mmmuchh lo~ve to be friend with boys and prefer male friends rather than girls @ 98 to 2% ratio translated in math, but always.. i am not fond of the idea of making them special someone, except when the person were like magnet and I am unable to make myself not thinking about him all the time, which, rarely happened of course!

As a girl, I am the kind who is always making sure all questions were answerable. I won't easily agree to something that I doubt and I hated to lose to boys the most. I never gave any chance to boy to show off their 'smartness' on something i knew. I won't entertained their rubbish and sweet talk because my ear can't stand it and I think I am too smart to fall for it. See.. no wonder I am single..haha. Despite that, maybe one day I'll meet a guy who could lead me, someone who is smart enough to deal with me. I hate to lose but I don't like winning if I don't deserve it.. I just want to be right when it is right for me to be right, not just because I think i am right. I am a good follower, and I never wanted to be a leader. Well, it can be said the conclusion is.. I loved smart guy, not necessarily romantic, a great leader but certainly not bossy and selfish kay... So, if you are the one.. you've got to hurry ;p

I am at the airport at the moment. What a bore. I hated flying since forever and don't ask me why. Maybe because i loathed the idea of waiting.

It was a bit late but luckily i didn't miss my flight. My sis and i did experienced that few times, so every time i fly from sabah to kl..i will have to lie to my dad by adding 15 or 30 minutes to my departure time. And of course..i did it again today. Sorry dad..ahahah..

But... Now i am stuck here for an extra hour. Flight delay!! Waaaaaaaaa..

I am lying on my bed while writing this entry at the moment. Just want to kill minutes before i close my eyes.

...am soooo tired. As usual..we have photo shoot session today which we did every year. Lucky that i still have both granda pa and ma on my mother's side. Every year..there was never a day where one of my mom's siblings and their families wont be there during first day of Hari Raya. And now, with all the grand kids growing kakoi and kawai.. Today is one happy day and i am really in best mood =)

Barulah dapat membaringkan diri. Tadi da siap-siap masak rendang.. Masak half cook pastu besok baru masak lagi. Bukan sebab malas atau gas abis la.. Sengaja je nak perap..bagi masuk rasa dalam daging nan liat tu..sok barula masyuk nak melantak.

Pinggang aku yang tak ramping ni ada la juga terasa-rasa macam nak tercabut. Umah kitaorang nak kat besar..tak la juga tapi barang banyak gila. My dad jenis yang pantang bab dispose barang, so menimbun le kat umah ni. Nak kemas pun tak bule sembarang..kang kena fire dek my dad sebab alihkan barang-barang dia. Normally kitaorang adik beradik kemas bodo-bodo jek la..janji bersih. Pas ni bila umah kat bawah da siap..aku kompiden lah tak lama pas tu menimbun le barang juga. My mom pula ada hobi pelik..takat kalo kusyen kaler merah, langsir kaler oren & kapet kaler biru tu kitaorang adik-beradik memang no komen. Memang ketahuan la my mom ni fail bab color selection. Bila kena komplen..jawapan standard dia 'Biar lah..asalkan selesa'.. Well..nak kate apa lagi kan.

Elok la aku bawak tido mata yang tak ngantuk ni..karang jadi mata panda la esok. Selamat Hari Raya to all...

Hari ni malas sangat rasanya.. Rasa nak tido je. Malas nak fikir banyak walaupun ada rasa terkilan yang amat sangat dalam hati ni. Cuma mampu berdoa pada tuhan agar aku punya kekuatan untuk hadapi semua ni..tambah-tambah bulan puasa ni. Sekali sekala pulang ke kampung, tunjuk muka serabut depan family bukanlah satu perkara yang boleh dimaafkan.

Moga dengan izin tuhan, segala-galanya akan berakhir di sini..

Sampai-sampai dekat airport kk smalam, hujan lebat. Tunggu my dad pick me up.. more then one hour la juga..sampai mengantuk. Sepanjang jalan nak balik rumah rasa mual semacam jek.. Terpaksa la tekan perut oke.

I am at the airport. Bowwwinkk! My flight scheduled at 12.50 pm.. But here i am..since 8 am to be exact. I am flying air asia while my sister who is still a student opted for MAS. Children now days are unbelievable! Since she took morning flight..so i have to accompany her to erl and end up sleep-in-my-walking here. I slept at 1.30 last night just to fulfill my desire of playing my dusty keyboard. Blame it to my dad's casio that sound ahug-leyh =(

Fwens : (Puzzled) You are still single???
Me : Ya
Fwens : Ala.. Of course u have boyfriend rite?
Me : No
Fwens : Whyyyy? You r ok, cute, nice.. U have everything  whattt (whateveh).. But whyyy? (Emotional duh??)
Me : (smiling brightly ;D)

Friends.. I am not done trying, i am far from giving up.. It just i don't have desire to love and to be loved again. I am sorry to those who think i am definitely one interesting person.. Maybe i am but i could only bring warmth feeling to your heart and an endless smile to brighten your day.. That is all that i can do.

Remind me why I loved God, Save our King @ Kyo Kara Maoh!!! I used to be one of the fan-die-hard  of this anime during its aired on Animax few years back. The sound of its soundtrack kept ringing inside my head till the day I 'accidentally' bought a dvd box contained of 117 episodes.There goes my money....

But... with such an excellent graphic, handsome Conrad   & kakoiiii Yuri.. who cares if I spent RM50.. (darng! i care..)

Have you ever wished that you were no longer live in this world?

This might sound like I am suicidal.. but of course I am not. I am one of the most logical and rational  person, still.. It just, I did wished for that sometimes. I always prayed to God if breathing in this world bring no good for me and my peoples..I wished God could just take my life away, but if it were the other way around.. I prayed God will award me a strong heart to walk through a longer journey of life. 

It is no doubt that I am happy with my life, but deep inside my heart.. I could not hide the fact that I am extremely heartbroken. There were no right words to explain it. Love matter was just a small  portion of that "heartbroken".. there were lots of things and I dare not to think about it.

I laughed as much as I cried... This might sound like I am going crazy but everyone has their own way dealing with life and survive this world, rite.. I am just a normal person. I agreed when a counselor said that everyone in this world has mental problems. One could deny it out loud, and claim there were no defect on them.. truth is, it was not something for us to prove because it is not the matter of  right or wrong we are talking here.

Hari ni hari last induksi. Rasa lega amat sebab dah habis. Tadi dah pulun habis-habisan jawab soklan exam. Kol 10 sampai 12.30 exam esei. Dalam kol 12 tu aku dah siap la jawab soklan tapi saja tanak kuar dari  dewan. Fasi2 yang jaga tu dah balik-balik tanya aku, aku tanak hantar ker. Dengan degilnya aku kater tanak.. hahaha.. Dah la degil, pastu ingkar arahan plak. Orang suh jangan bercakap-cakap kalau paper tak dihantar lagi.. aku sebok borak dengan jiran sebla menyebla. Kedegilan  melampau aku telah menyebabkan fasi yang bakal cek paper kitaorang nanti amik kertas aku & baca kat situ gak.

Aku apa lagi.. op kos la saspen bila dia muka kerut-kerut sambil geleng-geleng pale. Gelak dia bila aku kater "encik jangan la tujuk muka gitu, nanti 3 bulan sy tak tidur lena". Mana tidak.. batch aku ni batch spesel.. dekat 600 orang skali intake. Kalau ekonomi tak yelok, mau kitaorang kena terminate kalau tak lulus dengan jayanya.

Smalam aku dapat sms wish good luck dari fasi-fasi penilai. Lagi la aku saspen nak exam ari ni. Last-last dekat pukul 10 aku dah tido gara-gara terteqan. Pagi tu dah gelabah sebab tak habis baca lagi. Tapi apa-apa pun.. kursus ni best. Lagi pulak budak-budak  group semua ok. Cuma ada la beberapa golongan dalam ramai-ramai 104 orang yang aku cukup tak berkenan, tau fikir pasal diri dia jek. Tak consider pun ramai lagi orang kat sekeliling tu. Tak paham aku.. nak kater budak.. da beranak pinak. Ni yang buat kurang pahala pose ni.. ahaha.

Kol 4 lebih aku dah sampai  umah.. basuh baju.. rilek2.. skali da kol 6.30 baru teringat yang aku belum beli lagi juadah berbuka tuk hari ni. Nasib tersedar...  kalau idak, mau aku berbuka minum air kosong jek.

Hari ni ada sesi persembahan daripada semua group.. kelakar ada nak marah pun ada sebab buat persembahan macam kanak-kanak ribena... hahaha

Study Time

Hari ni sambung lagi sesi study sebelum exam lagi 2 hari. Bedebau la juga nak exam.. kang fail exam kang malu oke! Ini le muka geng geng group aku.. ada 3 orang lagi ilang tah kemana, termasuk si botak aka paly.

Today is my worst nightmare.. I was appointed as the MC for evening session and.. also for the public speaking session. Darng! I never have a  single experience hosting an event my whole life nor did i love to talk in front of public.

Maybe what I should do now is to congratulate myself for being brave and overcome something I feared  duh!

Today we all learned  about communication skills. Darng! I was one of the person  listed in the first group to  present our speech at the evening. You know, I was known as bad at public. But I think I managed to have my courage during public speaking session. Of course I was nervous to death but thank god..all end well :)

We were given 5 minutes to prepare our speech. At this rate, everyone were equal. Maybe they were good at Bahasa speech but when it come to public speaking in English.. some might sound funny on stage, or even lost their words.

Today.. we played games and enjoy being in a group. There were 12 peoples in my group, 5 girls and 8 boys. I was the only unmarried girls while for the boys, there was only one guy who is married. Hahaha.. what a nice combination.

We were doing treasure hunt activities. Each group is required to finish a riddles at every station. The saddest part was during playing water in the pail. We made a little mistake that caused us 250 marks.

My course started at 8.30 am. Since I was so lazy to drive so i took the LRT. But, having to walk and climbing stairs here and there caused me to experience an extreme tiredness,especially during this fasting month.

Today, we were required to make a big circle and play some games before being divided into groups. Then, we were all given a piece of paper, which written there our clue for the group that we will be joining. It was funny when the clue started with the same animals doing a different things and the rules was, all of us were not allowed to talk at all. In order to find our group, we will have to communicate using sign language. If you use a different sign language or failed to understand what your friends 'said'.. then you will be left group less!

Lucky that my clue was easy to express and understand. Can you imagine, 104 peoples and 8 groups! How are you gonna find everyone when some of the clue were totally difficult to be translated into sign language.. for example like "the camel was being chased by robbers, broke its leg and being put to jail!"  hahaha.. I sure will remember this day forever.

I started my induction course today.. on Friday 13th. 104 peoples.. architects, engineers.. surveyors.. but just 3 or 4 familiar faces. The only girl friend that I recognized was IBU. She will be attending this two weeks course with me. Actually,  I was not scheduled to attend the course because my name was not listed. Maybe this is my luck. Although fasting month is the main challenge, but we were lucky that we could go home and doesn't require to sleep at unfamiliar places.

Our program started with introduction and games. I was voted as one of the worst 'player', twice.. for different games. Hahaha.. One because I was thinking way ahead, and one I was thinking way behind. Not liking the middle eh!

What I knew was, at the end of the day.. I was totally exhausted! We all were I guess.

Melampau betul orang yang jual produk kecantikan ni. Aku taw la pompuan memang suka emas tapi takyah la sampai make up pun ko claim ko bubuh campuran emas 24k. Takat eye shadow tu aku ble tahan lagi.. ini kek moisturizer, cream mato & serum bagai semuo ado 'serpihan' emas 24k kononnya. Apalah objektif yang cubo di capai, aku pun tak taw.

I am accidentally 'mastering' quite a number of sports and their rules like American football for watching EYESHIELD 21, basketball for SLAM DUNK, soccer for WHISTLE, tennis for PRINCE OF TENNIS.. baseball for CROSS GAME.. mmmm.. boxing and shogi are next..

But, what I want to say is that I never thought watching anime could made me rain a tears..darg! It was not that i got emotional (ok, may be a lil bittt) but.. the CROSS GAME anime kinda brought alive a mixed feelings and touch the right spot in this heart of mine. (sou desu ka?) I read at wikipedia saying that this anime is certainly something and I understand how good it is after watching 50 episodes countinuosly .

Just to say, although i was not a big fan of sport but i am a die-hard-fan of sport movies, dramas and anime.

I got excited and unable to stop myself from watching eyeshield 21 (Hiruma kun! yee haa i lap u), slam dunk, whistle and prince of tennis but the CROSS GAME is kinda different. It was about baseball.. well, no need to remind me about how crazy i was about ROOKIES drama back then coz i am currently back to watching it now.. ahaha.

I love EYESHIELD 21 because of Hiruma kun..

Sendoh San

Rokawa Kaede

Sendoh san and Rukawa for Slam dunk..and Tezuka for Prince of Tennis. Oh how i wish they were real..haha. For an almost 30 but still liking children stuffs.. I am sure a childish. But.. It was not my fault for they were so darg irresistable!

Tezuka San

What am I busy with lately?

A.N.I.M.E line up!

Slam dunk
GTO
Shion No Oh
Basquash
Master of Epic
Ring ni Kakero
Amatsuki
Eyeshield 21
Whistle
Yu Yu Hakusho
God Save Our King
Prince of Tennis
Detective School Q
Cross game
Top Secret

Ahaaaaa...

But the best is EYESHIELD 21!

I guess I am still trying, hard, to catch up with my old pace. Being betrayed to the core is sure an extremely bad thing for one to have to experience. It is my bad to see everything in this life in the form of YES or No but it is who i am. Because I always predicted how things are gonna turn out, so I ended up trying so hard to make a divert and opted for a way out. And since I hated so much to be caught in a situation that I could not handle, I am shielding my heart to the best.

But I failed, once.

It was not I was not ready for that. Frankly,  I already knew long before it happened but I never thought one person  I deeply trusted and looked up so highly could hold on to self-centering to the point where hurting people who deeply care about them means nothing at all. How was that hurt feeling like? The way I experienced it,  it was like someone stabbing me with a sharp  knife,  right trough the heart.. hold it there for a moment, pushing it down, slowly and patiently before tearing it apart.. I'd rather be shot than to have to experience that feeling again.

Why i hated wall clock? Yah yah yah I am always this weird. Truth is, I hated the sound of the motor. For being small, of course it was not not-quiet but it just not up to my acceptable not-annoying range because it disturb my good night sleep. Can you imagine that! And.. more.. I hated lizard because I cant stand the sound, and the sound of crazy drivers roaring their cars at night that entering my wide-open-for-fresh-air window.

Keep quiet and peace Y!

Åku meroyan ke apa hari ni.. Aku nek hangen ngan pokcik yang aku rasa tak lulus pun undang-undang jalan raya sebab motor buruk dia hampir2 dah nak dilanggar oleh aku. Siap menjerit pokcik tu sambil geleng2 paler.

Bukan salah aku pun dia temper tak pasal2.. dia ingat dia lori agaknya nak duk kat tengah2 jalan. Pastu ader plak keta nak himpit2 keta aku yang tak laju ni and cross2 da line.. walaopun ko lihat aku a driver dengan tudung aku yang kilat2 macam mak datin ni mister, haruss ko lihat skill membuli-jalan aku yang ekselen. High heel aku ni walopun 3" and aku mungkin kelihatan softly lady like itu time.. jangan ko kompius sebab aku bukan la like lady yang biasa ko jumpa bersepah di jalanan.. ahahaha.

I am freeing my mind from work matters this week. so here i am..attending a 4 days course on airconditioning design.

So, was my mind free? Not at all!

I was so excited to learn and it cause me to study at home. Please anyone tell me what was I thinking!

I can't stand to be mad at anyone and it is known to be my nature. I am always full of positive auras but i recently experienced the I-HATE-U feeling. I hated someone. Wait! You know what.. actually, i loathed that person. I am glad i said this.

I used to work at an island and now, at shopping complex.. Where doest that get me? Yah.. HOME SWEET HOME.

I am so lazy to spend my weekend anywhere.. And two days were never enough for a weekend..how i wish everyday is weekend.

Orang awam 1      : bla..bla..bla... Drive keta apa?
Engineer J             : Tak drive.
Orang awam 1      : Driver ambil la ye?

Engineer J             : Tak.
Orang awam 1      : Dah tu?
Engineer J             : Naik komuter.
Orang awam 1      : Oh. Tapi keta tinggal kat stesen komuter la ea?

Engineer J             : Tak.
Orang awam 1      : Dah tu?
Engineer J             : Motor.
Orang awam 1      : Oooooooooooooooooooooo

I am fat again!

Well.. this has always been a problem with me. I was never able to bear sadness or to involving myself in a miserable phase that could make me lost interest in food. Losing one or two kg always means doubling up the amount of kgs after that. Why is this happening to me? Why cant I be in a sad-state for such a long period till it make my appetite disappear? Why!!! Why like tis...

I am soooo wanna buy the 42" tv..

Tapi bila memikirkan  tv lama ni nak letak mana.. kuncup skejap semangat membuak nak  beli tv baru. Nak jual sayang.. pakai pon baru setaon lebey jek.. balance warranty ader lagi dekat 4 taon. Time beli dulu reganya 2 raban lebey, tu pon da kira murah.. skarang bawah seraban to seraban lebey da boleh dapat 32". Tapi temptation  tv 42" tu sangat la kuat.. macamana ni?!!!!!

Masuk ari ni , aku da survey banyak kali dah. Aku ni spesis yang whatever jer yang pernah terlintas dalam kepala.. lambat atau cepat, biasanya aku akan dapatkan jua. Tu yang aku takut tu! Tapi tv lama nak letak mana?  nak buat monitor or tv game macam melampau. Nak jual, aku memang tanak sebab rugi. Lagi pon it's just tv.. macamana rapid skalipon kemajuan teknologi, function tv tu tatap tak berubah like bertambah function as toaster ker, rice cooker ker..  kannnn.

Masalahnya...  aku nak beli jugak!!

Tv skarang LCD, aku ingat nak beli plasma. Story pasal plasma.. aku ingat welding jek guna plasma as gas. Plasma tv ni gambor memang chantek tapi antara kekurengan dia, karan consumption tinggi sket berbanding LCD, dalam 25%. Tapi aku nengok Samsung kater tv dia enery saving.

Aku teringat time nak beli tv dulu.. tukang jual slalu gembar gembur pasal contrast. Sebenarnya kalo nak beli tv, 1st yang kena pk.. tv tu nak letak dekat mana.  Kalo dalam bilik jek.. tak  kan nak pasang tv dengan backlight terang seterang2nya. Well, kalo tak sayang mata, boleh je pun.

Kesimpulannya.. aku tak  kira.. nak tv! nak tv!

I sure know how to disobey a boss! Well.. I like it here. Being the only girl and be filled with 'love'.. darng! hahaha.. but I miss my old days,  my old boss, my old house, my old friends.. and my old LA! I looked at the picture of them.. and I missed them even more!

As I  was relaxing at my cubicle, saw someone that I adore entered the office ; my idol. As I was walking out of my relaxing zone, my idol was just about to come to my place. Speaking of nervousness, I pretended I was doing something. Cheh! And the stories goes on...

Well.. I don't really enjoy today. Someone scared me and I don't like to be left alone with that person.

I watched The Karate Kids  and loove it! The story was a bit slow but it was kinda forgivable because of Jaden Smith. God, the boy is so cute. He surely will become one handsome playboy one day.

Why I became mechanical engineer?

Here is the one fact that I myself is so darg clear of.. I HATED MATHEMATICS and don't ask me why. I was History's subject lover and I excelled at that, but what involving calculations I loathed.

It all started when I was 15. I qualified to be in a science stream class. So, I have a talk with my dad where I voice out my opinion of taking a non-science class. My dad, as usual will let me make the decision, BUT.. as smart as he always is.. he said.. "I have no objection towards whatever you likes,  and you know the decision is all yours, but bear in mind, science's stream definitely offer big market for jobs" With that... I ended up choosing science's stream ya'll. But truth is.. I never knew what I wanted to be since I was a naive-little girl but I knew best where I wanted to be.

I went to boarding school at peninsular because I wanted to meet my favorite boy band, 4U2C back then and I applied engineering because I wanted to study at UTM, well.. I entered ITTHO but ITTHO and UTM is related back then.  So, the kesimpulan is, I became a mechanical engineer because of the place!

How do I describe a perfect life?

Well.. in my humble mumble mind..

1st.. be one successful career woman; a technical-guru, sporting & sempoi boss!  Well.. speaking of current, i'm kinda on the right track because I loved what I am doing now. So, everything that start from a good beginning is a bless, rite?..

2ndly, Family..  2 be married to someone smart and always making sure he is on top of his game like Dr Mahathir; which look as handsome as Grey's Anatomy Eric Dane..  being a mother to one complete-soccer-team of sons who look like the twin, Cole and Dylan Sprouse.. also Nick &  Joe Jonas.. Then completed with two daughters who look exactly like Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez.. that is the definition of PERFECT! Ok, at the moment I kinda miss the boat coz I have not find someone I wanted yet. Heart  matters is not something simple. I was asked few times why don't I just attach myself to someone. To choose a guy is like buying a property to me, like a land or house.. i don't want to waste my time on something I end up regretting having it or to have to stay with someone  I dont really wanted to be with. I'd rather be alone then making myself doing that. I am girl full of love and i am committed to it. But, never mind.. things will work out itself.. I  believe that.

3rd, to own tons of long sexy dress! a TONS!
i am a fan of it, and jackets too.

Well.. i think that just it. I am not all about big house or being rich or powerful what ever... I am just a girl with a simple wish, desiring to enjoy a simple life with lots of sons and two daughters. I loved boys, I am gonna be making lots of them.. twins preferably..hahaha. I loved Miley Cyrus.. she is one beautiful daughter and Selene Gomez is sooo cute!  Wait.. maybe it is not one simple life, is it? Yeah..blame it to Disney Channel.But.. way to go girl!

Guess my dreams isn't simple :)

Men were the architect  of their own fate..  I agreed.. as Muslim,  I believed everything happened if it were granted by god. We could plan, we could do whatever we want but if god did not permit it, then that just it. Everything happened for a reason but we need to remember, God will never change our fate unless we do it first. I am  changing mine of course :)

Why am i being ustazah today? douh!

Shakira - wherever whenever Cover

It was funny when Af1 asked me.. Which country did this singer came from coz she didn't sound English.. Hahaha..

I'm walking away

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realize
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say....

A long and tiring day indeed. da dekat kol 11 mlm, still mengadap kerja. Today is "My home my office" day.  Dah la ari ni ari malas nak layan orang. Ader konsaltan seruper takder. Sengal! Nak marah  pun, buang tenaga aku jek. Aku dahla memang x mampu nak marah orang.. kang aku termarah kang..haa.. Elok le aku p mandi manda jap.

Sambung balek.. Segar le sikit pas dah mandi ni. Sok ramai yg takde.. Skarang aku dah ada nama baru, kalo dulu RSenora panggil aku matahari..skarang ade plak yg panggil aku Yang kat opis tu. Nasib le aku ni jenis yang memang malas nak ambik kesah. Sukati la, as long korang bahagia.. Jangan over, sudah. Aku ni pemarah orangnya, tapi aku tak reti nak marah. Kalo aku cakap aku marah kat orang, maknanya aku marah2 ayam jek tapi kalo aku tak bercakap langsung pasal orang tu or avoid any conversation yang melibatkan that person, means aku memang dah letak orang2 tu dalam recycle bin memori aku. Ikut ati nk delete terus, tapi benda 2 di luar kawalan aku plak.

Tapi smpai today aku still berterima kasih dalam diam2 pada someone yang ajar aku how to be someone yang pemarah tapi tak payah le nak buang karan marah orang. Aku juga berterima kasih dalam diam pada someone yang pemarah tahap gaban yang telah mengajar aku bahawa muka orang yang sedang marah amat huduh & kalah buldog sampai aku taknak contohi. Juga a big thank you to someone yang grumpy, yang mengajar aku grumpy woman is worse than nenek kebayan. Moga aku tak kelihatan seperti bulldog @ nenek kebayan.. Ahahah.

 "Pa.. aku try call bapa tapi nda dapat pula. Saja mau ucap Selamat Hari Bapa. Sayang bapa"

Tell  your parents that you love them while you still can. Well.. walopun setahun lagi nak masuk 30, a daughter remain as a little children inside their parents heart.

 So, I reached Rompin..finally, for the first time.. What a day. So sleepy at the moment.. Goodnight world!

Happy Father's Day to all fathers in the world..
Epecially to my one and only beloved father.....

A daughter could get another boyfriends.. another husbands.. another sons.. but always only one DAD. For everything that you and mom sacrificed for us, Thank-You is beyond word

Well.. straight to today's story.. As I was about to leave for during lunch, someone asked me why i went down alone and where are my groups. The question came with statement that my unit members ,THE MECHANICAL which is from the boss to the last one on the hierarchy were always seen together2. This is the second time i heard this statement this week.. I heard people mention about that few times before but this is the first time, twice in a week.

Well.. In my unit, i can tell you that there were no one is playing bosses, groupie or what so ever. Of course there was a bad seed but, it was not bad gila pun, maybe just a defect..hahaha. Besides eating and joking, we normally discuss about work at the table. We update each other and share whatever we encountered on our daily job. Breakfast or lunch was the best time to do all that coz when we were at the office.. We will not have enough time to bother about each other. I remembered Aboss once suggested us to have a coffee corner.. Besides having some time to spent together talking about work and life, the idea was best to prevent us from going out for breakfast..ahahah. Clever!

... as far as i could remember, we have been doing the together2 from my first day at the office... We talked, we laughed, we kutuk people but never kutuk  the gang (kutuk depan2 sudaa), that definitely is a rules to maintained ;p

I was asked by someone today, was he annoying?
He asked me, kalau orang perempuan ni if laki di khawin 2 dia dapat apa ye?

I am as clever as you la brader and easily understand what are u trying to imply

Rightnow, since i am so sleepy..
I better zzzzz...and just forget
EVERYTHING

Do I want to go back to LA again?
I don't know...

I mean.. I love the place..

Today.. my deary AF1 said I don't have to go to Gua Musang with adik. Happy me. R Senora came from LA to receive his excellent service award here.  The six of us celebrated it at kotak merah during lunch. As usual, I was forced to sing his favorite song.. hahaha. And RMD is there too. We went to PJ on the evening.. last I know I was only home at 10 pm. Well, thanks to a lousy traffic jam that spare us times to catch up on our stories.

And I miss home.. I miss mum.. and dad.. and home..

Chop! Did i just made someone had a crush on me till he behave oddly towards me? OH NO.. No V.0 on the guy-matter at the moment! I already have one left for me to deal-out.

Enough about that.. Well.. The first thing i did after i reached home this evening was cooking. Yes, COOKING and yes, the i-cooked statement is kinda overrated, i know.

So.. I fried minced chicken, add some herbs, pour a tomato-garlic-selasih sauce and cheese.. Wallah..there goes my bolognese sauce...i boiled water, add in salt and pasta, then i go to take a bath. I always hate this pasta boiling part because it took much longer then preparing the sauce.. why can't pasta be as simple as preparing mee.

I ate and ate and ate.. Ow..heaven! Best bolognese speghetti awarded to Little Italy at KK, 2nd is mine and 3rd is pizza hut. I am sorry, I can't hide the fact here ;p I did try Dominos, Italianese, The Spaghetti Farm, Delifrance, Chillies and some but still, Pizza Hut is the 3rd best.. 2nd of course it  is mine.. Hahahaha x100 megazillions.

So, tomorrow i will be at putrajaya.. The next day maybe at gua musang and how i wish the day after i were in my bed. Nothing is more relaxing other than spending my time in my own room watching movies, cartoon & series or playing a video game or strumming guitar or playing a keyboard..or reading a books while enjoying a cup of hot coffea and, forcing the TV to watch me instead of me watching it. Poor tv!

How to say NO to people without hurting them? I learn it the hardest way, which is from own experience that there was no way to do that without hurting them or getting yourself hurt.

Just recently, i turned down a proposal.. then someone turned me down. Well, who said life is NOT fair? Then.. I am about to do that again to someone, soon or, am i? Yeah, why do i kept shutting-off my heart? Should i just wait till my heart recover or give it a chance? Everything happened for a reason, rite? So..is this the reason?

Demam dah kebah tapi badan still lemah. Makanan still la rasa pahit. Minggu ni terasa berakhir dengan pantas sebab aku keje 1.5 days je. Sedih + demam or sedih sampai demam..yang mana satu aku pun x sure.. Huhu.

Aku cuti lagi hari ni. Walaupun aku hampir nak demam..tp hati aku dah beransur-ansur pulih. Walaupun ada saatnya dada tiba-tiba terasa sesak. Bayangkanlah time tidur, tiba2 boleh terjaga sebab dada rasa sesak & air mata dah bercucuran. It happened during sleep! Kalau skala sedih tu 10, 10 it is for my sadness.

Saat2 macam ni..masih ada rupanya rakan yang ambil berat, yang tiap hari sms tanya aku ok ke tidak walaupun hujung pangkal kesedihan aku ni tak diketahui. Masih ada yang rajin menghibur aku dengan panggilan telefon. Though sadness remain, maybe in 2 or 3 years, or maybe forever.. But i believe that i'm gonna heal and be ok. Walaupun sedih sampai rasa macam nak mati, i owed my sorrow a big time for bringing back something that almost forgotten in this few years. I really hope this feeling inside will last forever, exception for my sadness of course.

One week, i lost 2 or 3 kgs. I still unable to eat properly till now. For a girl who never stop smiling and showing her happy face, the one who seem to not get along well with problems or stresses, guess her saddness and sorrow was unimaginable this time..even for herself.

At the moment ni tgh bersidai kat kedai mamak kat midvali ni. Ari keje midvali..ujung minggu midvali..haru! Lg sejam stengah baru wayang stat..alamat tetido la aku dalam tu karang.

Masalah makan aku da belanjutan ampir seminggu. Abis la. Takat kurus xpe.. Kering jangan. Kang jadik cam osmate lama aku..kurus sebab makan ati. Aku ati memang tak makan..pedal..limpa..smua aku x makan..ahahah.

Lenguh jugak kaki aku meneman adik ni shopping barang umah kat cafo. Kalo terserempak ngan member yang kenal kitaorg ni, silap2 ingat kitaorg asben wef yang tengah beli barang dapur..ahahah. Apa taknya..setroli penuh member tu borong. Aku plak pasrah je membontot dia. Apakah lelaki zaman skarang ni lebih terer soping dari pompuan? Hahaha.

Yeaaa.. audit da berakhir. Next week audit kat melaka plak kot. Kol 5 dari shah alam.. dkt kol 7 baru sampai opis. Aku da setengah mabuk dah tadi.. rakan ZA ngan driver tu da cuak. Siap suh bukak tingkap & bagi aku plastik takut2 aku muntah. Ahahah.. Sampai umah, da maghrib da. Asar qada' jek.. nak wat camaner. Jalan jem teruk ari ni. Da la aku buat lawak.. orang isi form lain, aku plak isi form lain. Melu i! Rakan ZA lagi teruk, baru ari ni dia realize apa yang dia buat.. after 5 ari dik oi! punya la lambat dia stat engin

Program tengok wayang aku banyak rupanya.. adik ajak tengok wayang malam ni, rakan ZA ajak tengok ari ahad.. & konsultan aku pun ajak g tengok wayang sabtu. Tp aku rasa..last2 aku tgk wayang kat bilik jek ni nanti. Aku kena la restkan otak aku yg da letih ni.