Hello sushi!! I've been wanting to eat at sushi Z for so long. The place was always full and i could see a long queue everytime i passed by. I went there with ibu. I have already eaten so i cant try ALL! I am going again..that time i will make sure i go there with an empty stomach.

I'm not missing you...

Every words of this song are so meaningful to me... try to listen to her live performance.. superb! even better than her studio version..

I'm not missing you...
(Stacie Oricco)

Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiosity
Now that its over
What else could it be he just had to cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

But.. I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time its different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
'Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when its right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

Amat bosan hari ni. Aku rasa aku tak buat apa2 pun. Aku turun lunch. Ingat nak pegi kotak merah.. tapi Dauz pula tak der. Pas kfc, aku tersinggah dekat kedai OTO.. nampak basikal senaman. Aku dah mula dah nak stat membeli belah. Tengah aku terai berbasikal dengan gumbiranya.. lalu la sekumpulan geng yang one of them pernah pegi induksi dengan aku. Aku ingat dorang lalu jek, siap masuk dalam kedai pulak. Tapi aku dengan selamba tetap mengayuh basikal yang tak bergerak kemana pun tu walaupun aku berbaju kurung. Tak la tak seneyeh pun.. aku jenis yang sentiasa pakai seluar panjang aper walopun aku pakai baju kurung. Sebab? Senang nak lari kalau anjing kejar.

Pastu aku g AIBI pula. Kat situ pun aku mengayuh juga. Kedai tu lagi dekat amat dengan pintu entrance opis aku, tapi aku nak juga kayuh! Esok la baru aku decide.. so aku naik opis. Buka2 komputer, ader 2 sms dari 2 nombor yang nama penghantarnya tak keluar. Aku pakai simkad tu tuk online, even orang boleh call tapi aku tak akan dengar or tahu yang ader call masuk, boleh terima sms je. Cek2.. laa.. fasi2 aku time induksi rupanya ajak g kotak merah. Laaa.. patut pun aku ada rasa2 macam nak masuk kotak tadi. Jauh dorang ni merantau sampai ker midvali...

Since time tu da pukul 1 lebih, aku tak la join. Da tu dorang kater nak p panjat opis aku melawat. Bila aku tanya, dorang ader program ker sampai datang ke midvali.. dorang kater buat lawatan susualan budak2 induksi ari tu. Bila aku macam tak caya, incik tu kater.. tu la.. bebudak lain yang kena lawat tu pon samer gak tak perchaiya cam ngko.. ahahah..

This is a story of a friend of mine yang aku kenal time2 keje ni la... Dipendekkan cerita, mamat ni selalu sms, call.. aku layan je la as kawan time2 aku rajin & bila time aku malas which is most of the time, aku masuk la nombor tepon dia dia dalam senarai blacklist aku (opps!), esp bila dia stat nak ala2 sayang menyayang kunun. & bila dia ajak keluar, ada2 je alasan aku. Kalau takat budak-budak dekat opis ni aku tak de hal nak lepak sama dorang, tapi kalau keluar dengan someone yang aku pun kenal gitu-gitu je.. memang rasa tak selesa so aku tak pernah kuar dengan dia langsung. Lagipun dia ni jenis yang macam too good to be true.. which is satu attitude ‘kurang real’ yang aku cukup tak gemar especially pada lelaki. Be yourself and act normal kay guys!

Story of the day.. I arrived safely at Nilai, thanks to gps. Unlike yesterday, I am 'well prepared' today and a good weather is also helping me. It took me less than 30 minutes to reach my friend's house after Sg Besi tol. Ibu and I were visiting our long lost friend, 12 years to be exact, and thanks to facebook.

After spending almost 2 hours at her beautiful house, I went to Nilai 3. I only stop at 4 shops but ended up buying 3 items, which include a very large mirror, wooden mat and partition for the price of less than RM200 alltogether.

I really love the mirror, height about six or seven feet I guess. RM70 only! Can't I believe it! See.. it kinda made the so-called sofa looked smaller. I am a big fan of mirror, except the time when I look plump. Yeah.. fact is a bitter thing. And here.. the partition, also RM70. A simple one but ok loh!

I promised my friend to go to Nilai today.. so around 4 pm I left home. It is shown on gps the distance of my destination will be 40 km from house. I forgot to change the gps setting and unchecked the tollway avoidance so instead of using highway, I was 'instructed' to use an unfamiliar non-toll route. Due to highly trusting the gps, I saved money BUT i got lost! Darnggg!! Still, I kept driving and 'made' the gps choose tollway at last because there were no other non-toll route available at that time. I claimed it as victory against gps, BUT, again.. I got lost!

It was about 25 km from my destination when it happened. First, I showed my silliness to the toll gate girl by trying to pay the fare which is not required because they only distribute tolls tickets there!! Then.. instead of going right, I turned left and 'all the sudden' I was on my way back to KL again, + about 39 km from my destination! So, I just drove home + pay the unnecessary toll fare. End of story.

What a day!

I am watching TV news for the first time after almost 3 months! I am doing it while mob-blogging. Thanks to NO-interesting-watchable-program on tv at the moment. Chotto! I switched off my laptop to access internet from mobile phone? What was I thinking again.Yeah.. although my nokia 5800 phone is not as intelligent as i-phone, I am very much comfortable using it for 'interneting' compare to accessing from laptop.

I am the type who can live with NO-calls and NO-sms but not without NO-internet on the phone. Internet line is a MUST-HAVE to me. Not because of facebook, ym, email or social networking activities.. It just because of wikipedia and tons of usefull info that i can read + songs download of course ;) Though i have an account like facebook, just like anybody else but i am not really a big fan of social networking. I still remember, it was on my time the mirc whatsoeva online chat became popular but I only tried it once. I have ym but I only have a small group of very close friends on my list and..I rarely on line. And now with fb phenomena.. let see.. mmm.. most of the time the chat is off; often ignored friend request from 'strangers' (wanna use this word??really???!!); only less than 10 of 2++ fb friends of mine were new friends via friend request..while the others were schoolmates or someone that I personally knew. Yeah.. I think I sounded like 0.L.D.

Head ache every day and my eyes are killing me!

Nothing interesting happened today except for the part that I ate sate. I've been wanting to eat sate since last week. What else am I thinking about eh? chicken wings!!!! I could never be separated with chicken but still, shrimps and prawns are my 'true love'.

Kinda head ache at the moment. Is it because I have nothing to do or am I just being lazy today. I am thinking about KFC shrimps. Nyummmm... 

Yesterday.. my favorite stall reopened for business. Because they were busy holidaying, I ate cekodok for the previous four days!!! Can't imagine what will I be eating at the food court if the stall is no longer in operation. My favorite foods are fish tempura+mayonnaise with green vege. I never change my menu since ibu left almost a year ago. It is not that I am on a diet or anything.. it just I didn't have any appetite for other foods.

The good thing at that smelly food court besides my favorite foods was this beverage stall. The boys remembered my favorite drink so whenever I came,  they asked me, 'coffee sis?'. All I have to do is nod my head then my order will be 'kopi kaww kurang maness satu!'. Sometimes i could get my order faster than those ordering before me..sometimes of course la I dont.. hahaha. Adding to the fact, their coffee suited my taste and they understand when people said 'kurang manis', then it shall be less sugar unlike at mamak stall, no matter how many times you told them  'kurang manis' still ada manisss jugaaa!

"Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself...
Love is selfless not selfish...
Love is when you lay down your life for another...
Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking...
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.."

This is a part of a song lyrics actually and the melody is good + Bruno Mars is there.. except for the part where  the whole lyrics is kinda 'non universal'. I  happened to hear some of Bruno Mars songs on 4shared and ended up falling for his music, especially the 'Just The Way You  Are'

To those poor guys who are gonna be singing this song... 

I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road...
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement...
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement...
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby...
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think...
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring...
Cuz I can still feel it in the air...
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair...
 


My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife...
She left me, I'm tied...
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right...

I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road...
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn...
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn....
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for...
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback...
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby...
Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough...

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone...
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone...
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one...
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road...
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything...
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up...
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything..

I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

And I was thinking about her, thinking about me...
Thinking about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream...
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows...
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream...

Nelly  - Just A Dream 

I want to write something today but I don't do any interesting activity to share, so, maybe I'll  just write about things that people didn't  know about me..

1. I play musical  instrument like keyboard, flute, recorder but I didn't know how to read music notes.
2. I loved to stay at home. I hate lizard because 'they' were noisy!
3. Every month, I spent money on books but never read them.
4. I collect dvds and will go madly crazy if  I lost even a single piece.
5. I hand-sew and really good at it.  I (used to) designed clothes and 100% hand sewed some of my dress, baju kurong etc
6. It was not my nature to speak face to face and say-it-out-loud if I were sad, mad or frustrated about something or someone,  I'd rather express it in writing.
7. I  hated waiting and loathed people who do not respect time.
8. I believe life is all about yes or no. I cannot deal with fickle minded person and those who do not know what they want in life.
9. I am very particular about kitchen and bathroom cleanliness if compare to any other spaces in my house.
10. Though I am not soft spoken & ladylike type, I hated rude people, especially rude women. Using rough and rude words is 100% unacceptable to me ears.

That's  too many information...

What  I do today.. i felt like  going to Bukit Tinggi but after reading the news that there will be around 1.2 mills of car heading back to KL this weekend, I decided home is the best place. My friend asked me to go somewhere..  when  I asked  him what is the best thing about the place.. nothing actually,  just  his family  house he said. I rarely visited my own family's house  and he is asking me to his.. naahh.. Such a good boy..

So, all I do today is sleep and watch tv.. lucky that I already did all my laundry earlier. One thing I really love about my house is the shop lot in front of it.  Bank, JPJ, hyper  market.. even the car wash shop is there. All i need to do is just  open the door, push the lift button down, walk to the gate.. cross the road.. tadaaa.. I am there already. The lrt is also there.. I only drive my car to go and back from work, never on weekend  because the lrt and annoying commuter is very near.

"is that what you really feel, or, is it what you think you  should feel?"...

This question made me think for a while.. Of course i am familiar with it because i happened to always caught in a situation where I am thinking about something else but my mouth saying something different. Maybe it was because our mind and heart is not always in sync, that it always left us caught in the middle...

There were boundary between what the heart wanted and what the mind is thinking. Wanting something or someone so badly but we can't do or have it because it is wrong or not right for us..  that often occurred in life. Like when you were madly mad at someone, you thought that person deserved punishment severely but you can't do that because it was not right. But I wonder what will happen if every time our mind will agree to what the heart is desiring and vice versa....

I started working today but my heart is not there yet. My mind is still thinking about R.E.S.T, adding to the fact that tomorrow is also an off day. Well.. I guess I am just lazy. Ok.. I admit I am lazy!

I am not ready to go to work yet.. How i wish everyday were holidays. Maybe i could find one super duper rich husband to support me as full time housewife.. If only logic part of my brain agree to that, wouldn't it be like 'heavennn' that i don't have to think about work anymore. But i am not a simple person..that is the problem!

Meeting friends and families during Raya, I was being asked the same question for a countless time about boyfriend and jodoh. Well.. As usual.. I prepared a standard answer for each and every questions asked. Kacauu eh!! To be frank, I sooo mmmuchh lo~ve to be friend with boys and prefer male friends rather than girls @ 98 to 2% ratio translated in math, but always.. i am not fond of the idea of making them special someone, except when the person were like magnet and I am unable to make myself not thinking about him all the time, which, rarely happened of course!

As a girl, I am the kind who is always making sure all questions were answerable. I won't easily agree to something that I doubt and I hated to lose to boys the most. I never gave any chance to boy to show off their 'smartness' on something i knew. I won't entertained their rubbish and sweet talk because my ear can't stand it and I think I am too smart to fall for it. See.. no wonder I am single..haha. Despite that, maybe one day I'll meet a guy who could lead me, someone who is smart enough to deal with me. I hate to lose but I don't like winning if I don't deserve it.. I just want to be right when it is right for me to be right, not just because I think i am right. I am a good follower, and I never wanted to be a leader. Well, it can be said the conclusion is.. I loved smart guy, not necessarily romantic, a great leader but certainly not bossy and selfish kay... So, if you are the one.. you've got to hurry ;p

I am at the airport at the moment. What a bore. I hated flying since forever and don't ask me why. Maybe because i loathed the idea of waiting.

It was a bit late but luckily i didn't miss my flight. My sis and i did experienced that few times, so every time i fly from sabah to kl..i will have to lie to my dad by adding 15 or 30 minutes to my departure time. And of course..i did it again today. Sorry dad..ahahah..

But... Now i am stuck here for an extra hour. Flight delay!! Waaaaaaaaa..

I am lying on my bed while writing this entry at the moment. Just want to kill minutes before i close my eyes.

...am soooo tired. As usual..we have photo shoot session today which we did every year. Lucky that i still have both granda pa and ma on my mother's side. Every year..there was never a day where one of my mom's siblings and their families wont be there during first day of Hari Raya. And now, with all the grand kids growing kakoi and kawai.. Today is one happy day and i am really in best mood =)

Barulah dapat membaringkan diri. Tadi da siap-siap masak rendang.. Masak half cook pastu besok baru masak lagi. Bukan sebab malas atau gas abis la.. Sengaja je nak perap..bagi masuk rasa dalam daging nan liat tu..sok barula masyuk nak melantak.

Pinggang aku yang tak ramping ni ada la juga terasa-rasa macam nak tercabut. Umah kitaorang nak kat besar..tak la juga tapi barang banyak gila. My dad jenis yang pantang bab dispose barang, so menimbun le kat umah ni. Nak kemas pun tak bule sembarang..kang kena fire dek my dad sebab alihkan barang-barang dia. Normally kitaorang adik beradik kemas bodo-bodo jek la..janji bersih. Pas ni bila umah kat bawah da siap..aku kompiden lah tak lama pas tu menimbun le barang juga. My mom pula ada hobi pelik..takat kalo kusyen kaler merah, langsir kaler oren & kapet kaler biru tu kitaorang adik-beradik memang no komen. Memang ketahuan la my mom ni fail bab color selection. Bila kena komplen..jawapan standard dia 'Biar lah..asalkan selesa'.. Well..nak kate apa lagi kan.

Elok la aku bawak tido mata yang tak ngantuk ni..karang jadi mata panda la esok. Selamat Hari Raya to all...

Hari ni malas sangat rasanya.. Rasa nak tido je. Malas nak fikir banyak walaupun ada rasa terkilan yang amat sangat dalam hati ni. Cuma mampu berdoa pada tuhan agar aku punya kekuatan untuk hadapi semua ni..tambah-tambah bulan puasa ni. Sekali sekala pulang ke kampung, tunjuk muka serabut depan family bukanlah satu perkara yang boleh dimaafkan.

Moga dengan izin tuhan, segala-galanya akan berakhir di sini..

Sampai-sampai dekat airport kk smalam, hujan lebat. Tunggu my dad pick me up.. more then one hour la juga..sampai mengantuk. Sepanjang jalan nak balik rumah rasa mual semacam jek.. Terpaksa la tekan perut oke.

I am at the airport. Bowwwinkk! My flight scheduled at 12.50 pm.. But here i am..since 8 am to be exact. I am flying air asia while my sister who is still a student opted for MAS. Children now days are unbelievable! Since she took morning flight..so i have to accompany her to erl and end up sleep-in-my-walking here. I slept at 1.30 last night just to fulfill my desire of playing my dusty keyboard. Blame it to my dad's casio that sound ahug-leyh =(

Fwens : (Puzzled) You are still single???
Me : Ya
Fwens : Ala.. Of course u have boyfriend rite?
Me : No
Fwens : Whyyyy? You r ok, cute, nice.. U have everything  whattt (whateveh).. But whyyy? (Emotional duh??)
Me : (smiling brightly ;D)

Friends.. I am not done trying, i am far from giving up.. It just i don't have desire to love and to be loved again. I am sorry to those who think i am definitely one interesting person.. Maybe i am but i could only bring warmth feeling to your heart and an endless smile to brighten your day.. That is all that i can do.

Remind me why I loved God, Save our King @ Kyo Kara Maoh!!! I used to be one of the fan-die-hard  of this anime during its aired on Animax few years back. The sound of its soundtrack kept ringing inside my head till the day I 'accidentally' bought a dvd box contained of 117 episodes.There goes my money....

But... with such an excellent graphic, handsome Conrad   & kakoiiii Yuri.. who cares if I spent RM50.. (darng! i care..)