Study Time

Hari ni sambung lagi sesi study sebelum exam lagi 2 hari. Bedebau la juga nak exam.. kang fail exam kang malu oke! Ini le muka geng geng group aku.. ada 3 orang lagi ilang tah kemana, termasuk si botak aka paly.

Today is my worst nightmare.. I was appointed as the MC for evening session and.. also for the public speaking session. Darng! I never have a  single experience hosting an event my whole life nor did i love to talk in front of public.

Maybe what I should do now is to congratulate myself for being brave and overcome something I feared  duh!

Today we all learned  about communication skills. Darng! I was one of the person  listed in the first group to  present our speech at the evening. You know, I was known as bad at public. But I think I managed to have my courage during public speaking session. Of course I was nervous to death but thank god..all end well :)

We were given 5 minutes to prepare our speech. At this rate, everyone were equal. Maybe they were good at Bahasa speech but when it come to public speaking in English.. some might sound funny on stage, or even lost their words.

Today.. we played games and enjoy being in a group. There were 12 peoples in my group, 5 girls and 8 boys. I was the only unmarried girls while for the boys, there was only one guy who is married. Hahaha.. what a nice combination.

We were doing treasure hunt activities. Each group is required to finish a riddles at every station. The saddest part was during playing water in the pail. We made a little mistake that caused us 250 marks.

My course started at 8.30 am. Since I was so lazy to drive so i took the LRT. But, having to walk and climbing stairs here and there caused me to experience an extreme tiredness,especially during this fasting month.

Today, we were required to make a big circle and play some games before being divided into groups. Then, we were all given a piece of paper, which written there our clue for the group that we will be joining. It was funny when the clue started with the same animals doing a different things and the rules was, all of us were not allowed to talk at all. In order to find our group, we will have to communicate using sign language. If you use a different sign language or failed to understand what your friends 'said'.. then you will be left group less!

Lucky that my clue was easy to express and understand. Can you imagine, 104 peoples and 8 groups! How are you gonna find everyone when some of the clue were totally difficult to be translated into sign language.. for example like "the camel was being chased by robbers, broke its leg and being put to jail!"  hahaha.. I sure will remember this day forever.

I started my induction course today.. on Friday 13th. 104 peoples.. architects, engineers.. surveyors.. but just 3 or 4 familiar faces. The only girl friend that I recognized was IBU. She will be attending this two weeks course with me. Actually,  I was not scheduled to attend the course because my name was not listed. Maybe this is my luck. Although fasting month is the main challenge, but we were lucky that we could go home and doesn't require to sleep at unfamiliar places.

Our program started with introduction and games. I was voted as one of the worst 'player', twice.. for different games. Hahaha.. One because I was thinking way ahead, and one I was thinking way behind. Not liking the middle eh!

What I knew was, at the end of the day.. I was totally exhausted! We all were I guess.

Melampau betul orang yang jual produk kecantikan ni. Aku taw la pompuan memang suka emas tapi takyah la sampai make up pun ko claim ko bubuh campuran emas 24k. Takat eye shadow tu aku ble tahan lagi.. ini kek moisturizer, cream mato & serum bagai semuo ado 'serpihan' emas 24k kononnya. Apalah objektif yang cubo di capai, aku pun tak taw.

I am accidentally 'mastering' quite a number of sports and their rules like American football for watching EYESHIELD 21, basketball for SLAM DUNK, soccer for WHISTLE, tennis for PRINCE OF TENNIS.. baseball for CROSS GAME.. mmmm.. boxing and shogi are next..

But, what I want to say is that I never thought watching anime could made me rain a tears..darg! It was not that i got emotional (ok, may be a lil bittt) but.. the CROSS GAME anime kinda brought alive a mixed feelings and touch the right spot in this heart of mine. (sou desu ka?) I read at wikipedia saying that this anime is certainly something and I understand how good it is after watching 50 episodes countinuosly .

Just to say, although i was not a big fan of sport but i am a die-hard-fan of sport movies, dramas and anime.

I got excited and unable to stop myself from watching eyeshield 21 (Hiruma kun! yee haa i lap u), slam dunk, whistle and prince of tennis but the CROSS GAME is kinda different. It was about baseball.. well, no need to remind me about how crazy i was about ROOKIES drama back then coz i am currently back to watching it now.. ahaha.

I love EYESHIELD 21 because of Hiruma kun..

Sendoh San

Rokawa Kaede

Sendoh san and Rukawa for Slam dunk..and Tezuka for Prince of Tennis. Oh how i wish they were real..haha. For an almost 30 but still liking children stuffs.. I am sure a childish. But.. It was not my fault for they were so darg irresistable!

Tezuka San

What am I busy with lately?

A.N.I.M.E line up!

Slam dunk
GTO
Shion No Oh
Basquash
Master of Epic
Ring ni Kakero
Amatsuki
Eyeshield 21
Whistle
Yu Yu Hakusho
God Save Our King
Prince of Tennis
Detective School Q
Cross game
Top Secret

Ahaaaaa...

But the best is EYESHIELD 21!

I guess I am still trying, hard, to catch up with my old pace. Being betrayed to the core is sure an extremely bad thing for one to have to experience. It is my bad to see everything in this life in the form of YES or No but it is who i am. Because I always predicted how things are gonna turn out, so I ended up trying so hard to make a divert and opted for a way out. And since I hated so much to be caught in a situation that I could not handle, I am shielding my heart to the best.

But I failed, once.

It was not I was not ready for that. Frankly,  I already knew long before it happened but I never thought one person  I deeply trusted and looked up so highly could hold on to self-centering to the point where hurting people who deeply care about them means nothing at all. How was that hurt feeling like? The way I experienced it,  it was like someone stabbing me with a sharp  knife,  right trough the heart.. hold it there for a moment, pushing it down, slowly and patiently before tearing it apart.. I'd rather be shot than to have to experience that feeling again.

Why i hated wall clock? Yah yah yah I am always this weird. Truth is, I hated the sound of the motor. For being small, of course it was not not-quiet but it just not up to my acceptable not-annoying range because it disturb my good night sleep. Can you imagine that! And.. more.. I hated lizard because I cant stand the sound, and the sound of crazy drivers roaring their cars at night that entering my wide-open-for-fresh-air window.

Keep quiet and peace Y!

Åku meroyan ke apa hari ni.. Aku nek hangen ngan pokcik yang aku rasa tak lulus pun undang-undang jalan raya sebab motor buruk dia hampir2 dah nak dilanggar oleh aku. Siap menjerit pokcik tu sambil geleng2 paler.

Bukan salah aku pun dia temper tak pasal2.. dia ingat dia lori agaknya nak duk kat tengah2 jalan. Pastu ader plak keta nak himpit2 keta aku yang tak laju ni and cross2 da line.. walaopun ko lihat aku a driver dengan tudung aku yang kilat2 macam mak datin ni mister, haruss ko lihat skill membuli-jalan aku yang ekselen. High heel aku ni walopun 3" and aku mungkin kelihatan softly lady like itu time.. jangan ko kompius sebab aku bukan la like lady yang biasa ko jumpa bersepah di jalanan.. ahahaha.

I am freeing my mind from work matters this week. so here i am..attending a 4 days course on airconditioning design.

So, was my mind free? Not at all!

I was so excited to learn and it cause me to study at home. Please anyone tell me what was I thinking!

I can't stand to be mad at anyone and it is known to be my nature. I am always full of positive auras but i recently experienced the I-HATE-U feeling. I hated someone. Wait! You know what.. actually, i loathed that person. I am glad i said this.

I used to work at an island and now, at shopping complex.. Where doest that get me? Yah.. HOME SWEET HOME.

I am so lazy to spend my weekend anywhere.. And two days were never enough for a weekend..how i wish everyday is weekend.

Orang awam 1      : bla..bla..bla... Drive keta apa?
Engineer J             : Tak drive.
Orang awam 1      : Driver ambil la ye?

Engineer J             : Tak.
Orang awam 1      : Dah tu?
Engineer J             : Naik komuter.
Orang awam 1      : Oh. Tapi keta tinggal kat stesen komuter la ea?

Engineer J             : Tak.
Orang awam 1      : Dah tu?
Engineer J             : Motor.
Orang awam 1      : Oooooooooooooooooooooo

I am fat again!

Well.. this has always been a problem with me. I was never able to bear sadness or to involving myself in a miserable phase that could make me lost interest in food. Losing one or two kg always means doubling up the amount of kgs after that. Why is this happening to me? Why cant I be in a sad-state for such a long period till it make my appetite disappear? Why!!! Why like tis...

I am soooo wanna buy the 42" tv..

Tapi bila memikirkan  tv lama ni nak letak mana.. kuncup skejap semangat membuak nak  beli tv baru. Nak jual sayang.. pakai pon baru setaon lebey jek.. balance warranty ader lagi dekat 4 taon. Time beli dulu reganya 2 raban lebey, tu pon da kira murah.. skarang bawah seraban to seraban lebey da boleh dapat 32". Tapi temptation  tv 42" tu sangat la kuat.. macamana ni?!!!!!

Masuk ari ni , aku da survey banyak kali dah. Aku ni spesis yang whatever jer yang pernah terlintas dalam kepala.. lambat atau cepat, biasanya aku akan dapatkan jua. Tu yang aku takut tu! Tapi tv lama nak letak mana?  nak buat monitor or tv game macam melampau. Nak jual, aku memang tanak sebab rugi. Lagi pon it's just tv.. macamana rapid skalipon kemajuan teknologi, function tv tu tatap tak berubah like bertambah function as toaster ker, rice cooker ker..  kannnn.

Masalahnya...  aku nak beli jugak!!

Tv skarang LCD, aku ingat nak beli plasma. Story pasal plasma.. aku ingat welding jek guna plasma as gas. Plasma tv ni gambor memang chantek tapi antara kekurengan dia, karan consumption tinggi sket berbanding LCD, dalam 25%. Tapi aku nengok Samsung kater tv dia enery saving.

Aku teringat time nak beli tv dulu.. tukang jual slalu gembar gembur pasal contrast. Sebenarnya kalo nak beli tv, 1st yang kena pk.. tv tu nak letak dekat mana.  Kalo dalam bilik jek.. tak  kan nak pasang tv dengan backlight terang seterang2nya. Well, kalo tak sayang mata, boleh je pun.

Kesimpulannya.. aku tak  kira.. nak tv! nak tv!

I sure know how to disobey a boss! Well.. I like it here. Being the only girl and be filled with 'love'.. darng! hahaha.. but I miss my old days,  my old boss, my old house, my old friends.. and my old LA! I looked at the picture of them.. and I missed them even more!

As I  was relaxing at my cubicle, saw someone that I adore entered the office ; my idol. As I was walking out of my relaxing zone, my idol was just about to come to my place. Speaking of nervousness, I pretended I was doing something. Cheh! And the stories goes on...

Well.. I don't really enjoy today. Someone scared me and I don't like to be left alone with that person.

I watched The Karate Kids  and loove it! The story was a bit slow but it was kinda forgivable because of Jaden Smith. God, the boy is so cute. He surely will become one handsome playboy one day.

Why I became mechanical engineer?

Here is the one fact that I myself is so darg clear of.. I HATED MATHEMATICS and don't ask me why. I was History's subject lover and I excelled at that, but what involving calculations I loathed.

It all started when I was 15. I qualified to be in a science stream class. So, I have a talk with my dad where I voice out my opinion of taking a non-science class. My dad, as usual will let me make the decision, BUT.. as smart as he always is.. he said.. "I have no objection towards whatever you likes,  and you know the decision is all yours, but bear in mind, science's stream definitely offer big market for jobs" With that... I ended up choosing science's stream ya'll. But truth is.. I never knew what I wanted to be since I was a naive-little girl but I knew best where I wanted to be.

I went to boarding school at peninsular because I wanted to meet my favorite boy band, 4U2C back then and I applied engineering because I wanted to study at UTM, well.. I entered ITTHO but ITTHO and UTM is related back then.  So, the kesimpulan is, I became a mechanical engineer because of the place!

How do I describe a perfect life?

Well.. in my humble mumble mind..

1st.. be one successful career woman; a technical-guru, sporting & sempoi boss!  Well.. speaking of current, i'm kinda on the right track because I loved what I am doing now. So, everything that start from a good beginning is a bless, rite?..

2ndly, Family..  2 be married to someone smart and always making sure he is on top of his game like Dr Mahathir; which look as handsome as Grey's Anatomy Eric Dane..  being a mother to one complete-soccer-team of sons who look like the twin, Cole and Dylan Sprouse.. also Nick &  Joe Jonas.. Then completed with two daughters who look exactly like Miley Cyrus and Selena Gomez.. that is the definition of PERFECT! Ok, at the moment I kinda miss the boat coz I have not find someone I wanted yet. Heart  matters is not something simple. I was asked few times why don't I just attach myself to someone. To choose a guy is like buying a property to me, like a land or house.. i don't want to waste my time on something I end up regretting having it or to have to stay with someone  I dont really wanted to be with. I'd rather be alone then making myself doing that. I am girl full of love and i am committed to it. But, never mind.. things will work out itself.. I  believe that.

3rd, to own tons of long sexy dress! a TONS!
i am a fan of it, and jackets too.

Well.. i think that just it. I am not all about big house or being rich or powerful what ever... I am just a girl with a simple wish, desiring to enjoy a simple life with lots of sons and two daughters. I loved boys, I am gonna be making lots of them.. twins preferably..hahaha. I loved Miley Cyrus.. she is one beautiful daughter and Selene Gomez is sooo cute!  Wait.. maybe it is not one simple life, is it? Yeah..blame it to Disney Channel.But.. way to go girl!

Guess my dreams isn't simple :)

Men were the architect  of their own fate..  I agreed.. as Muslim,  I believed everything happened if it were granted by god. We could plan, we could do whatever we want but if god did not permit it, then that just it. Everything happened for a reason but we need to remember, God will never change our fate unless we do it first. I am  changing mine of course :)

Why am i being ustazah today? douh!

Shakira - wherever whenever Cover

It was funny when Af1 asked me.. Which country did this singer came from coz she didn't sound English.. Hahaha..

I'm walking away

I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realize
some people don't wanna compromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live a lie, too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say....

A long and tiring day indeed. da dekat kol 11 mlm, still mengadap kerja. Today is "My home my office" day.  Dah la ari ni ari malas nak layan orang. Ader konsaltan seruper takder. Sengal! Nak marah  pun, buang tenaga aku jek. Aku dahla memang x mampu nak marah orang.. kang aku termarah kang..haa.. Elok le aku p mandi manda jap.

Sambung balek.. Segar le sikit pas dah mandi ni. Sok ramai yg takde.. Skarang aku dah ada nama baru, kalo dulu RSenora panggil aku matahari..skarang ade plak yg panggil aku Yang kat opis tu. Nasib le aku ni jenis yang memang malas nak ambik kesah. Sukati la, as long korang bahagia.. Jangan over, sudah. Aku ni pemarah orangnya, tapi aku tak reti nak marah. Kalo aku cakap aku marah kat orang, maknanya aku marah2 ayam jek tapi kalo aku tak bercakap langsung pasal orang tu or avoid any conversation yang melibatkan that person, means aku memang dah letak orang2 tu dalam recycle bin memori aku. Ikut ati nk delete terus, tapi benda 2 di luar kawalan aku plak.

Tapi smpai today aku still berterima kasih dalam diam2 pada someone yang ajar aku how to be someone yang pemarah tapi tak payah le nak buang karan marah orang. Aku juga berterima kasih dalam diam pada someone yang pemarah tahap gaban yang telah mengajar aku bahawa muka orang yang sedang marah amat huduh & kalah buldog sampai aku taknak contohi. Juga a big thank you to someone yang grumpy, yang mengajar aku grumpy woman is worse than nenek kebayan. Moga aku tak kelihatan seperti bulldog @ nenek kebayan.. Ahahah.

 "Pa.. aku try call bapa tapi nda dapat pula. Saja mau ucap Selamat Hari Bapa. Sayang bapa"

Tell  your parents that you love them while you still can. Well.. walopun setahun lagi nak masuk 30, a daughter remain as a little children inside their parents heart.

 So, I reached Rompin..finally, for the first time.. What a day. So sleepy at the moment.. Goodnight world!

Happy Father's Day to all fathers in the world..
Epecially to my one and only beloved father.....

A daughter could get another boyfriends.. another husbands.. another sons.. but always only one DAD. For everything that you and mom sacrificed for us, Thank-You is beyond word

Well.. straight to today's story.. As I was about to leave for during lunch, someone asked me why i went down alone and where are my groups. The question came with statement that my unit members ,THE MECHANICAL which is from the boss to the last one on the hierarchy were always seen together2. This is the second time i heard this statement this week.. I heard people mention about that few times before but this is the first time, twice in a week.

Well.. In my unit, i can tell you that there were no one is playing bosses, groupie or what so ever. Of course there was a bad seed but, it was not bad gila pun, maybe just a defect..hahaha. Besides eating and joking, we normally discuss about work at the table. We update each other and share whatever we encountered on our daily job. Breakfast or lunch was the best time to do all that coz when we were at the office.. We will not have enough time to bother about each other. I remembered Aboss once suggested us to have a coffee corner.. Besides having some time to spent together talking about work and life, the idea was best to prevent us from going out for breakfast..ahahah. Clever!

... as far as i could remember, we have been doing the together2 from my first day at the office... We talked, we laughed, we kutuk people but never kutuk  the gang (kutuk depan2 sudaa), that definitely is a rules to maintained ;p

I was asked by someone today, was he annoying?
He asked me, kalau orang perempuan ni if laki di khawin 2 dia dapat apa ye?

I am as clever as you la brader and easily understand what are u trying to imply

Rightnow, since i am so sleepy..
I better zzzzz...and just forget
EVERYTHING

Do I want to go back to LA again?
I don't know...

I mean.. I love the place..

Today.. my deary AF1 said I don't have to go to Gua Musang with adik. Happy me. R Senora came from LA to receive his excellent service award here.  The six of us celebrated it at kotak merah during lunch. As usual, I was forced to sing his favorite song.. hahaha. And RMD is there too. We went to PJ on the evening.. last I know I was only home at 10 pm. Well, thanks to a lousy traffic jam that spare us times to catch up on our stories.

And I miss home.. I miss mum.. and dad.. and home..

Chop! Did i just made someone had a crush on me till he behave oddly towards me? OH NO.. No V.0 on the guy-matter at the moment! I already have one left for me to deal-out.

Enough about that.. Well.. The first thing i did after i reached home this evening was cooking. Yes, COOKING and yes, the i-cooked statement is kinda overrated, i know.

So.. I fried minced chicken, add some herbs, pour a tomato-garlic-selasih sauce and cheese.. Wallah..there goes my bolognese sauce...i boiled water, add in salt and pasta, then i go to take a bath. I always hate this pasta boiling part because it took much longer then preparing the sauce.. why can't pasta be as simple as preparing mee.

I ate and ate and ate.. Ow..heaven! Best bolognese speghetti awarded to Little Italy at KK, 2nd is mine and 3rd is pizza hut. I am sorry, I can't hide the fact here ;p I did try Dominos, Italianese, The Spaghetti Farm, Delifrance, Chillies and some but still, Pizza Hut is the 3rd best.. 2nd of course it  is mine.. Hahahaha x100 megazillions.

So, tomorrow i will be at putrajaya.. The next day maybe at gua musang and how i wish the day after i were in my bed. Nothing is more relaxing other than spending my time in my own room watching movies, cartoon & series or playing a video game or strumming guitar or playing a keyboard..or reading a books while enjoying a cup of hot coffea and, forcing the TV to watch me instead of me watching it. Poor tv!

How to say NO to people without hurting them? I learn it the hardest way, which is from own experience that there was no way to do that without hurting them or getting yourself hurt.

Just recently, i turned down a proposal.. then someone turned me down. Well, who said life is NOT fair? Then.. I am about to do that again to someone, soon or, am i? Yeah, why do i kept shutting-off my heart? Should i just wait till my heart recover or give it a chance? Everything happened for a reason, rite? So..is this the reason?

Demam dah kebah tapi badan still lemah. Makanan still la rasa pahit. Minggu ni terasa berakhir dengan pantas sebab aku keje 1.5 days je. Sedih + demam or sedih sampai demam..yang mana satu aku pun x sure.. Huhu.

Aku cuti lagi hari ni. Walaupun aku hampir nak demam..tp hati aku dah beransur-ansur pulih. Walaupun ada saatnya dada tiba-tiba terasa sesak. Bayangkanlah time tidur, tiba2 boleh terjaga sebab dada rasa sesak & air mata dah bercucuran. It happened during sleep! Kalau skala sedih tu 10, 10 it is for my sadness.

Saat2 macam ni..masih ada rupanya rakan yang ambil berat, yang tiap hari sms tanya aku ok ke tidak walaupun hujung pangkal kesedihan aku ni tak diketahui. Masih ada yang rajin menghibur aku dengan panggilan telefon. Though sadness remain, maybe in 2 or 3 years, or maybe forever.. But i believe that i'm gonna heal and be ok. Walaupun sedih sampai rasa macam nak mati, i owed my sorrow a big time for bringing back something that almost forgotten in this few years. I really hope this feeling inside will last forever, exception for my sadness of course.

One week, i lost 2 or 3 kgs. I still unable to eat properly till now. For a girl who never stop smiling and showing her happy face, the one who seem to not get along well with problems or stresses, guess her saddness and sorrow was unimaginable this time..even for herself.

At the moment ni tgh bersidai kat kedai mamak kat midvali ni. Ari keje midvali..ujung minggu midvali..haru! Lg sejam stengah baru wayang stat..alamat tetido la aku dalam tu karang.

Masalah makan aku da belanjutan ampir seminggu. Abis la. Takat kurus xpe.. Kering jangan. Kang jadik cam osmate lama aku..kurus sebab makan ati. Aku ati memang tak makan..pedal..limpa..smua aku x makan..ahahah.

Lenguh jugak kaki aku meneman adik ni shopping barang umah kat cafo. Kalo terserempak ngan member yang kenal kitaorg ni, silap2 ingat kitaorg asben wef yang tengah beli barang dapur..ahahah. Apa taknya..setroli penuh member tu borong. Aku plak pasrah je membontot dia. Apakah lelaki zaman skarang ni lebih terer soping dari pompuan? Hahaha.

Yeaaa.. audit da berakhir. Next week audit kat melaka plak kot. Kol 5 dari shah alam.. dkt kol 7 baru sampai opis. Aku da setengah mabuk dah tadi.. rakan ZA ngan driver tu da cuak. Siap suh bukak tingkap & bagi aku plastik takut2 aku muntah. Ahahah.. Sampai umah, da maghrib da. Asar qada' jek.. nak wat camaner. Jalan jem teruk ari ni. Da la aku buat lawak.. orang isi form lain, aku plak isi form lain. Melu i! Rakan ZA lagi teruk, baru ari ni dia realize apa yang dia buat.. after 5 ari dik oi! punya la lambat dia stat engin

Program tengok wayang aku banyak rupanya.. adik ajak tengok wayang malam ni, rakan ZA ajak tengok ari ahad.. & konsultan aku pun ajak g tengok wayang sabtu. Tp aku rasa..last2 aku tgk wayang kat bilik jek ni nanti. Aku kena la restkan otak aku yg da letih ni.

How should you feel when someone you looked up at, so highly turned to be nothing more than a nobody? The one man who always talked about how no-good and how uncivilized other peoples are while the truth is, he was no better than them? The one who seemed so wise, but he was not at all? Why say much, he was just a nobody!

Well.. skarang ni aku dah tak payah curik koneksi wifi kedai mamak kat bawah 2. Aku da tukau prepaid aku g post paid+data @ 68 hengget je sebulan. At the moment, aku stuck ngan report ni. Tadi bos ajak turun shah alam.. nak lari dari miting la tuh.. Ahaha. Banyak benor audit. Audit dalaman, audit perolehan,audit pembinaan, audit sirim.. audit projek kawan.. kawan audit projek kawan dan bermacam2 lah lagi jenis audit yang merapu meraban. Next week aku kena audit projek kawan. Time kawan tu audit projek aku, time tu la padan muka aku.

Bos aku tu orang yang paling tak rajin la nak ronda2 site. Imagine la.. baru pegi 3 or 4 tempat jek.. bersusun report non-compliance boleh kuar. Orang experience, macam tu la. Kalo yang muda2 ni, round 40 kali pon still tak nampak2 gak apa yang silap. Dahla aku buat gempak kat kontraktor. Tapi sebab aku buat gempak tu la aku dapat tangkap teet.. eheh..

Dalam keta borak2 la ngan bos& rakan ZA. Bos aku kutuk rakan ZA, nama jer budak mekanikal.. tapi minyak itam keta tu pun tak reti tukar..ahahaha.. Bos aku kalo ngutuk.. kaw2! Tapi bukan nak cakap la.. lelaki skarang ni da banyak yang lembik & da tak reliable. Kalo bapak aku.. cakap je.. hal2 repair keta, benda2 mekanikal & letrik.. bertukang.. menjahit.. memasak.. berkebun.. sumer dia terer. Yang aku tak pasti cuma bab toreh getah sebab aku tak pernah nampak dia join mak aku mengisi masa lapang menoreh pohon2 getah dia. Still, bapak is the best! Walopun dia garang, lagi tak romantik.. he is the best guy ever. Boyfren.. asben.. wife.. gepren.. sumer bule di tukar, tapi your parents ader satu tu je. Sobs.. homesick la nih!

Aku sangat berterimakasih pada Allah sebab masih sayangkan aku. Teringat kater2 bos aku tadi, tuhan tak akan duga seseorang yang sememangnya Dia tahu tak mampu nak hadapi dugaan yang diberikanNya. Means, setiap dugaan tu hanya diturunkan pada orang2 yang sememangnya mampu la nak hadapi dugaan tu walau macamana payah pun... walo pun orang tu rasa dia tak mampu tapi sebenarnya orang2 tu lebih kuat dari apa yang mereka sendiri sangkakan. Mungkinkah aku ni tergolong dalam golongan yang kurang mampu menghadapi dugaan?

Diam bukanlah bererti aku mengiyakan apa yang kamu buat. Diam tidak pernah bererti aku suka. Tidakkah kamu terfikir aku hanya cuba mengelakkan konflik? Sedarkah kamu bahawa aku berdiam untuk menjaga air muka dan hati kamu? Pernahkah kamu terfikir yang kamu agak keterlaluan dan perilaku kamu sebenarnya menjengkelkan?

Apakah kamu mahu menguji tahap kesabarana aku? Kerana aku rasional dan berfikir panjang, aku tidak pernah kehilangan sabar walaupun aku sebenarnya kurang sabar. Aku juga mampu jadi seperti kamu, tapi aku tidak memilih untuk berperilaku seperti kamu kerana aku tahu berfikir. Dan aku kasihankan kamu kerana kamu cuma nampak diri kamu.

I am at mamak restaurant at the moment and a lil pissed off. I have to go to merlimau this morning so i woke up as early as 5.45 just to ensure i wouldn't be late for my 7.20 expected pick up time. I waited from 7.20 to 8.20 to 9.20 till now and the car is no where to be seen. God know how i hated waiting!

Af1 smsed.. The driver had a late-wake-up this morning. Maybe he was more pissed off than i am. Aboss is also coming with us. Speaking of him, Aboss was not very fond of the 'taking care of any of the company's car' part because he had a bad experience previously. Well..it kinda made our unit 'car-less' and we will have to everytime to politely ask other units 'is your car still empty?' question. So, back to my story.. I believe Aboss wouldn't be impressed with the 'oh-i-woke-up-late-this-morning'.

Man fighting god in clash of the titan? Man trying to save his family from world wreckage as in 2012 whatsoeva movie? I dont care if you call it box office, creativity or what eveh.. I only see it as stu u pi id ity. What about this? Naah.. Irrelevant!

This week is gonna turn to next week quickly. I am off to melaka tomorrow, attending a 2 days course the next day.. Then come fri-hol-i-day.. Yeahuuu. I didnt realize there is gonna be a holiday this friday until today.

I blog via my mob-phone while watching csi at the moment. The csi new york is getting 'hotter' but am i getting 'dumber' or what? Maybe i am just testing my spelling skill or my sms typing skill or challenging my brain logic for why-didnt-i-just-switch-on-my-laptop? Daa..

Among those series aired on tv , Glee was listed THE UGLIEST SERIES AIRED ON MY TV! Listening to Rachel (i guess this was the main girl character's name ) is a pain in the ass. I am sorry to have to say this but I really can't stand it. It was like listening to Vanessa Hudgens whatsoever in High School Musical. Maybe Miley Cyrus was not the most talented girl but at least she didn't mess with my ear and she is pretty too.

I hate Sex in The Cities too!

26 Kb/sec was the highest download speed I can get from digi data, but of course it happened rarely. Despite that, it was still way better than my office Internet connection. When everything you clicked was being restricted by stupid  i-prism, then only you learn to appreciate the not-so-fast-connection-but-i-can-still-download-anything-i-like-by-being-patience.

Something happened at my office. All our supporting staffs, except two were being transferred to po-li-ce. Come on, from health care to 'policing'?  I don't get it. As far as i remembered, we were asking for additional staffs to cover our unit but were given the 'staff reducing' instead? Where can you get an engineer, the so called professional do the filing job, take care of stationaries or make report on punch and what-so-evah-stuff? It happened at govern-office people! With lots of meetings and meetings and meetings to attend, the stuff came out during meeting that needed to be taken care of, contractual part that require attention, drawings checking, contractor's submission that require fast action, monthly site evaluation that needed to be done, work quality monitoring and the claim that needed to be recommended for payment, who have time to care if all the letters or memos were being nicely recorded in a file as per ISO requirement or stationeries supply down or to report someone was having his card punched red this month whatsoever. Don't get me started with the numbers of project, location, lacked of staff and budget restriction.

Above all.. maybe I hated the way everything goes in government but I loathed those stupid peoples who didn't know how to be thankful  to live in such a peaceful country.

Why Dont Women Have Beards?

I happened to read about this from one of my books. Why? What crossed over my mind to made me ever think about talking 'bout beards?! But imagine a girl with beards.. wouldn't it be so iyuck?

Talking about man consideration, during lunch today... one of my koncho asked me :: awak tak takut ker tak kawen2 lagi ?:: He even said, kalau khawin dapat banyak pahala tau. It didn't took me long to answer. As easy it could be to own pahalas, it would be way more easier to own dosas.

Who doesn't want to have family?  But, spare me for rejecting the idea of marrying someone for a wrong reasons  such - afraid of what people might think - afraid of becoming a source of threat to community esp for married women - afraid of being alone, esp the dying alone part  - afraid of loneliness - afraid of so many things which is not possible for my brain to reach those ridiculous kind of thinking.

Same answer I always gave to myself when came to rejecting a guy :: He is Not up To my Standard  :: But what is my standard actually? What is the bench marked i set for myself? The whole STANDARD idea is crap because the truth was, I never really liked them. I didn't felt the connection because the chemistry was not right. As easy it is for me to fall-in-like with a guy, it is way more easier to UN-LIKE them.

I went to proton service center to check on my power window. Darng I miss-interpreted the GPS so instead of turning left, I turned right which causing me to waste 15 minutes on the road just to find my way back to the right place. If it wasn't for the turn-right-is-not-right,  the service center was just less then a km away.

Despite that, I managed to reach the service center at 9.35 am which is 5 minutes late from my appointment. I waited there for 3 HOURS people! How I wish I were in LA at that moment. God knew how I hated waiting so much. I can deal with almost everything but do not ever try to play waiting with me because I am never a patience when come to that.

 TOP HATE LIST AT THE MOMENT
1. Waiting
2. Grumpy young lady. You are YOUNG ladiezzz!
3. Pushy people
4. Smelly guy.. yuck! Deodorant cost lest then RM10!
5. Cupid wannabe.. we were born HUMAN people!


TOP HOT LIST
1. Bully budak!
2. Video Game
3. Crying... miss dad.
4. Watery gamez
5. Nasik kerang mokcik lori

Tengah aku bersenang lenang dalam bilek malam tu.. osmate aku ketuk tanyer napa washing machine dia tak maw kuar air...Since aku yang last guna smalam.. wah!

Dia cam tensi la.. machine tu baru lagi,mahal pulak kater dia. Slama ni tak pernah macam ni.. dia tak pernah langsung tekan2 tuk ubah apa2 setting kat board tu, ikut jek apa yang installer tu set masa mula2 pasang. Dia kater kalu tekan2, nanti setting dia berubah. Bunyiknya berbaur cam nak marah aku la sebab aku memandai tekan2..

Aku?

1st.. washing machine tu memang membolehkan manual setting.. which is boleh la pilih mana2 function yang kita suke which aku cuma suka function spin. Setahu aku kat umah aku, bule jek tekan tekan tekan tuk pilih function & takder plak la membolehkan kerosakan berlaku.

Tapi aku senyap je la sebab machine tu dia punya. Aku tak tahu la pulak pilih function spinning tu akan menyebabkan rinsing function tak fungsi. So dijadikan cerita, aku pon monitor la machine tu dalam sejam sampai lengoh kaki aku berdirik.. cycle machine tu jalan cam biasa je. Wash-->rinse-->Spin.. tapi time rinse air dia tak kuar banyak so tu la yang menyebabkan alarm buzzer menjerit error. Air dalam machine tu tak dapat drain abis, kena bukak & tutup cover machine tuk manually restart proses rinse dalam 2 kali sepaya next cycle ble start.

Kesimpulan story aku ni, aku tak taw kaitan antara button-tu-disediakan-untuk-ditekan-&pilih-function-tapi-kalo-ditekan-tuk-pilih-function-secara-manual-akan rosak? daaa!

My my.. 29th oredi

I am TODAY "29-singlebutunavailable-cuteofcourse-darghappydefinitely!" Ahahaha..

Pas bekfast.. aku ngan my sis da tataw nak wat apa. My sis kata bopren dia ader kat cc kat area kitaorang makan. Setahu aku, budak tu dok dekat Jalan Pahang yang aku baru jek tahu kat situ la ada projek aku + kat situ ader monorail rupoanya + hotel grand aper ntah pon kat citu rupanya. Oke.. berbalik pd story aku. Jauh la jugak dari sini.. elleh! orang berchenta.. jalan jem sangggup kome redah yer! So.. aku pon suh la adik aku pegi tengok2 boypren dia & aku balik umah.

Then my sis sms.. tanya aku nak tak ikut dorang g karaoke. Opkos la nakkk!! Ahahaha.. 3 jam bertapa kat KotakMerah. Before tu dapat sms dari makcik aku, kononz nak datang bawak member asben dia yang dorang nak kenalkan dekat aku.

Minggu ni minggu makan sushi... serasa aku.. 2 or 3 kali jugaklah muka aku muncul dekat sushi king minggu ni. Makan apa lagi.. of course la kawa piri piri.. kulit ikan pevret aku..  sedappppppnyeeeehhhh.

Minggu ni berakhir dengan sekejap sebab aku kena pegi kursus 2 hari.. pastu the next day jadik eskot pm kat tapak sebab pok menteri nok melawat tapak projek. Bukan eskot pun.. istilah yang paling seswai ialah mak pacak. Ntah haper2 ntah. Gara2 tensih jadik mak pacak, aku x berjodoh nak berjumpa dengan best pren lama tem aku kanak2 ribena dulu.

Kelakar.. bebudak ni duk ingat aku ngan adik ader apa2. Bukan takat sorang dua.. ahaha... tak selera mak! Setahun beza pun aku da raser cam 10 taon, aper lagi yang beza bertaon2.

Tapi dak adik ni memang la cam dak pompuan. Kalo adik aku sorang tu, biar pun kalo kuar ngan dia, dia macam takder perasaan jek jadik tukang bawak beg tangan aku.. tapi tak la sejambu adik aku sorang ni. Yela.. dia pon baru jek masuk.. orang pon dia tak kenal lagi. Hahaha.. mokcik jugak yang tak der perasaan kena kater.. siap pheeewitt diri sendirik.

Ari ni aku g bertapa kat kotak merah. Berat aku da mencecah 66.7 kg. Gemuk! Gemuk! Gemuk!!! AF2 tegur aku.. kater diet tapi napa aku nampak macam bertambah gemuks. Ah! tensihnya. Aku jawab la.. bukan salah aku.. salah baju le. Hahaha.

Baru ari ni aku taw yang stereng keta aku tu bule retain balik shape dia. Kelam kabut aku letak cover sebab stereng lock yang aku pasang tu agak ketat sampai luka luki stereng tu dibuatnya. Skali tadi.. elok je pun. Tak der langsung kesan stereng lock tu. Waah! Aku ketinggalan jaman ke aper ke.

Since dak adik takot peristiwa tak berdarah semalam berulang..  awal2 lagi dia sound, ari ni naik keta dia. Hahahaha. Memang betul la orang cakap "woman like peoples, men like things". Dak adik ni.. keta dia ni pun ada nama oke. Da la biru.. ini kaler pon de dan ni dik oii..

Who dare question my driving skill haaa???

Hahaha... peristiwa ngeri + kelakar happen hari ni.

Kol 3 pagi aku dapat sms dak adik tuk confirm kursus ari ni. Katernya kol 7.30 dia akan sampai umah aku. Pechaya sangat laa aku akan kater2 dusta dak ini. As expected, kol 8 lebey baru dia sampai umah pagi tadi. Pegi ngan keta aku, op kos la aku yang drive kann..

Nak dijadikan cerita.. kursus sangat bosan. Pagi tadi pun terkial2 nak cari otel kat putra jaya tu. Dekat2 kol 5 la jugak kursus abes. Dalam perjalanan balik, ujan renyai2 kat luar. Tengah aku nak wat corner kat jalan tu.. tetiba ader keta ni over-corner! Oitt! ko amik lesen terbang ker?!!! So, aku pun tekan brek.. apa lagi.. keta aku pon swing la ke kiri & kanan banyak kali... skettt lagi nak terbabas. Keta belakang da ler dekat. Tetiba aku dengar suara panik menjerit

Lepas brek!

Lepas brek!

Lepas brek!

Patut aku panik sebab kereta dah out control tapi aku cam blur dengar jeritan panik dak adik.  Hahaha.. Da cool down sumer.. dak adik pon ngaku akan betapa pada hari ini jatoh macho dia as mat rempit selama ini. Dia kater, slama dia merempit kat jalanz..xpernah ler dia setakut ari ni. Apakah driving skill aku amat terukz?

Kelakar giler time dia jerit tu. Tapi dak adik ni jerit pun ala2 garang tak garang.. ahahaha. Nasib jugak ler aku tak gabra & x lepas stereng.. kalo x, confirm la kitaorang langgar divider. Mujur jugak le keta blakang x langgar aku & hentam my car to divider.. arwah jugak aku ari ni kalo idak. Giler lah! Spanjang jalan sampai ler ke umah aku gelakkan dak adik gara2 dia menjerit aww tadi. Patut aku yang cuak, tapi dia yang lebey.. dak adik! dak adik!

This is a very good book that came with a very not-good-price. There was this brain wiring quiz in this book to determine what type of brain we have. It said that 

Fifteen to 20 percent of men have feminine brains.
About 10 percent of women have masulinized brains.

And.. my score showed that I have a man brain. Dangg!! No wonder I am so handsome.. hahaha. I kinda agree because I am the type of person who like to choose something in between. For example if i were to choose a clothes, I would go for something that look smart but still has a feminine touch. I dont go pinky & flowery all over me like walking carpet (Yahhh..  I recently bought a pink twinkle2 little star baju kurong. Does that count? ahahah) nor did I chose something that made me look like a man.. yuck! I am soooo not lady like but of course I am like a lady. What? You don't spot the different? ahah.

Maybe I am 70% woman and 30% man I guess. Well.. to be proud and annoying ;p I excel at women tasks like cooking (not baking!), sewing, being sweet and annoying at the same time etc. I cried when I saw a sad movie and smiled every time I saw a baby. I can concentrate on doing 3 or 4 things at the same time like most women do but I my brain don't function the way most women do.. there goes my 20%.

 Enough about my proud-talking.. hahaha.. Try it here @http://www.widmaenner.de/brain/

The book also said that male and female has different range of eye vision.. Really??!

Sengsaranya la haii nak cari  parking dekat midvalley ujung2 minggu ni. Kalo tak kerana janjiku.. tak hengen gak la aku nak datang midvali. Cheeewaah! Ayat hangen jek ni padahal midvali tu kubu aku. Apa taknya.. ari keje kat sana..ujung minggu pun lepak sana. Tapi kalo nak ikot, 2 jerk place yang paling convenient tok aku. Dekat & yang penting aku familiar.                     

Tapi now, kalo aku kuar.. aku kena ada dekat uamh before kol 4 sebab citer No Limit start kol 4 then Down Wif Lav kol 6.30. Astro aku ni bila la nak pasang. Lemau! Dulu aku tunggu sehari jek & on the spot dapat tengok dah, tapi kat cni kena tunggu 2 minggu...

Pagi ni aku 'terhadir meeting dengan pengarah & ketua2 unit. Aku tensih betol kalo teraniya wakil bos aku g miting. Aku ni ikan bilis jek. Sampai2 bilik miting, aku tanya one of the bos.. bule ke aku wakil miting ni. Kena tanya oii.. karang kena halau dek pengarah.. malu mak!

Half of my day da ilang sebab g miting. Petang tu aku jadik pelarian.. ahaha.. bertapa kat toilet lama2 sambil2 pakai mask. Ini gara2 adik aku la ni smalam. Kitaorang g buat site evaluation tapi end up melancong kat putrajaya sampai sun burn muka aku dibuatnya.

Aku nak citer pasal sk11 nih. Ari 2 aku terai la trial pack dengan rega 98 hengget. Dalam 2 ada face wash, toner ngan essence. Pencuci muka dia memang la amat best.. Essence 2 pn bt muka i raser haluz giteww. Tp memang best!

Maka.. Aku pun terbeli la set yg besau. Face wash berega 150 & essence berega 3 ratus lebey. Pecah la rekod aku yg slma ini pakai pencuci muka berega 10 hengget paling mahal, which kadang2 aku pakai shower cream or sabun badan jek as pencuci muka. Mahalll oke!

Sbb aku spent dekat 500 henget, maka aku entitle la dapat 1 trial pack. Dalam 2 ada facewash, toner & mask. Mask dia mmg mahveles! Sangat.. amat le mahveles.. xpecaiya.. cuba teraii. Rega satu keping yekla 48 or 43 henget oke! Kalo nak beli 1 pack which contain 5 masks..2 atus lebey la jugak.

Aku pon tak paham napa aku nak pakai skII ni..eish! ni semua pengaruh iklan la nih.

Aku takder mood nak buat keje hari ni.. padahal kerja aku tu meraung2 mintak ditengok. Tapi, ada aku kesah? ahahah.. best plak cakap macam nih. So, tengahari tu aku merayau2 la dekat bawah. Tetiba aku terberhenti dekat kiosk promotion New York Skin aper ntah nama dia.. aku dengan tak sengaja tertanya kat minah kat kaunter tu "slimming tak der ke"? ahahah

Amoi tu pun tanya member dia.. "London you meiyou?" Aku dengar dengan jelas la jawapan "Meiyou" kawan dia tu so aku pun nak ngangkat kaki dah la. Alih2 amoi tu cakap..miss, try la skin treatment.. RM38 saja.. 3 hours! What? 3 hours tu da buat aku da start tertarik menarik.. so, konversasi berikut telah berlaku di depan pintu masuk Carrefour

Amoi : Miss..cubala.. 3 hours treatment + trial pack + bag .. blablablabla
Aku : Tak maw la.. saya punya kulit sudah cantik maaa (...mengusap2 pipi gebus aku yang baru jek dua 3 ari terai SKII)
Amoi : Memang u kulit cantik, tapi sini gelap sikit kann (sambel tunjuk kat misai aku)
Aku : Ayo.. u tak baik... kesian i taww
Amoi : Hahaha.. Alaaa.. Trai la.. ada mystery gift lagi kena bagi percuma (dengan nada merayu2.. aww)

Bla bla bla..

Aku : RM38 saja ini semua for 3 hours of treatment?
Amoi :Yaaa.. Ini offer time promtion maa..

Amoi ni da nampak da jarum dia start nak masuk.. pastu  tiba2 member dia datang &kata kat aku

Member Amoi : Miss.. tapi ini treatment kan, at least untuk yang age 22 years and above..
Aku : Aiyyaa.. you ingat sy berapa umur?
Member Amoi : blurr
Aku : Ayiyoo.. sy 30 tahun loh!

Baru amoi2 tu tersengih2 cam kerang busuk.. ahahaha.

Aku salah pakai baju kot sampai nampak muder giteww! ahahahah.. aktuali.. selekeh sangat kot pakaian aku.. wahaha

View umah lama dari bilik aku..

Aktiviti skodeng orang mandi dari tingkap bilik.. memang pool area umah lama aku lagi cantik laa compare tu umah baru ni.

Zoom kat luar pagar tu.. yerr.. itu lah tempat aku parking, kat jalan raya. Kalo dulu aku berebut2 nak balik kol 4.30 sebab tanak besesak2 kat dalam komuter.. tis time aku berebutz balik awal gara2 tak sanggup nak berebut2 parking kat jalan raya pula.

Katil aku.. saper tak nampak imaginary katil aku tu memang tinggal 2 kali jumaat jek la. Aku ni memang spesis tak suka katil sebab aku alergik kalo ader barang bawah katil.

Library.... living room and kitchen aku.. ahah. Kat belakang tu gitar.. music corner, laundry area ngan 'main library ader kat belah kanan. Aku sangat gumbira sebab bilik baru aku ni besar.. senang aku nak Beli! Beli! Beli! barangggg..ahaha

Aku upload gambar dulu.. nanti baru aku story mory okes

Aku budak bertuah.. bertuah banarrr!

Idop ku kucar kacir.. jiwa gulisah.. apakah?

Mana road yang perlu aku ambil nih? Mana direction yang patut aku pergi? Tariklah aku.. bawa la aku kesana.. dalam paksaan pon tak mengapa sebab aku sendiri tak boleh decide.

Mengapakah aku meroyan?

Entah la!

Satu hari bersama...

Macam ni la biler mayat nak kena mandikan.. sinki tu depa panggil dissecting sink. Kat sinki tu ader pengisar.. kot2 ader sisa which is daging or tulang temulang yang hancur.

Close up - Aper? korang ingat aku tak takuk ker amik gambar dia ni?

Tetiba yang nak mandi tu bukak  mata.. raser2 pengsan tak? ahahah. Tapi yang ni bukan mayatz sebenar.. dia tengah buat test jek pon!

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would’ve worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn’t want us to burn out
I didn’t come here to hold you, now I can’t stop
I want you to know that it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I’m already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you’ll find another
That doesn’t always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn’t keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
I want you to know that it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I’m already gone
I’m already gone, already gone
You can’t make it feel right when you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone, already gone
There’s no moving on so I’m already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they’re haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
I want you to know that it doesn’t matter
Where we take this road someone’s gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn’t have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I’m already gone
I’m already gone, already gone
You can’t make it feel right when you know that it’s wrong
I’m already gone, already gone
There’s no moving on so I’m already gone

Tadi crime partner bagtaw dia kat apot.. nak g kl.

Ingat kalo xder apa.. bule la p bertemu tema..dorang 2 pon sure da ada macam2 agendas.. Tapi otel yg dorang duk tu tah kat maner ntah.. silap2.. kalo otel kat area jalan pahang, KL.. aku tembusss p pahang plaks.. bukan bule caya sangat aku ni. Last2, sepetang aku tido sebab diserang sengut sengut. Kol brapa da baru aku terjaga. Bukan gak sengut2 yang buat tidur aku panjang..tapi aku lately memang letey. Napa ntah.

Senin aku is sure is bizi.. asal senin is bizi... asal is bizi jek,senin.. same goes tu asal malam jek ngantuk.. asal ngantuk jek malam.. apakah? apakah yang cuba aku sampaikan.. aku pon tak pahamm.

Jin tian.. wat i do? Aku bangun awal gila.. pk2, last2 aku mandi, siap2 & drive ke Carrefour. Kali ni aku tak guna gps dah.. ahah.. Aku tlah menolak ajakan beberapa orang tuk berhujung minggu together2 g ronda2 KL..g tengok wayang sebab aku nak berehat2. & ari tu aku dapat satu ajakan pelik.. aku tak paham orang yang mengajak aku tu tapi dia sangat la bersungguh2.

Pas carrefour... aku g Jusco. Baru jek nak melangkah masuk dalam Jusco, dapat call dari orang carrefour. 10 minit lagi nak sampai kat umah aku kononnya. Potong stim betul.. aku baru jek nak jalan2 cari hal dalam Jusco. Aku suh orang tu tunggu 15 minit. Aku kater jek 15 minit.. mau dekat stengah jam jugak ler baru aku sampai umah. Sempat plak beli carpet. Nasib ari tu aku hold thought aku tuk beli carpet kaler pink kat Jusco midvali..

Peti ais da sampai.. yeaaa.. bestnyerr.. bertaon dulu da aku bercita2 nak beli peti ais kici yang ala2 otel punya ni.. ahah. Gumbiranya la haii.. bilik da besar.. muat la tuk 3 4 orang tido. Kalo bilik dulu.. 2 orang dalam tu pun da tak ble move . 

Tengah tengok citer Down Wit Love kat 8tv ni.. apsal aku nengok Jerry Yan ni emsem amat la plak sekarang. Ish pokcik ni, makin ari makin ganteng.. Compare tu time dia berlakon Meteor Garden dulu..duii dogo! ahah.. Micheal Zhang ni pon emsem.. yang tak emsem dalam citer ni cumalah Ella. Minah ni cute tu memang la cute, cuma kadang2 over sangat buat muka. Kesimpulan citer aku, Jerry Yan.. i lap u. Aww!

Macamana kalo ko da jadik bos tapi ko kayu?
Macamana kalo ko da jadik bos tapi ko tak dapat menjawab soklan anak2 buah ko?
Macamana kalo ko jadik bos tapi anak2 buah ko tahu ko sebenarnya berpura2 cam terrer padahal dorang taw yang ko pon tak taw?
Macamana kalo ko da jadik bos,  da puluh taon ko keje tapi ko masih kayu?

Kesimpulannya?

Moga2 sok aku da tua aku tak kayu. Amiiiinn...

Letih giler smalam.. ari ni outcome dia ialah kaki ku yang bengkak dan saket. Smalam aku pindah sorang2. Kalo hujung  minggu.. bule la jugak mintak org tulung.. ini pindah ari orang keje. Kalo aku bayor gaji org tu tak per la jugak nak suh tulung kan. Cuti lagi ler aku ni.

Tido tak lena sebab kaki berdenyut2 spanjang malam tadi. Ader la 4 5 kali aku bangun tuk sapu yoko2. Aku buat 5 trip tuk ngangkat barang2 aku yang beratz tu.. kira banyak kali ler jugak. Tapi now kaki memang macam nak tercabut. Bayangkanlah pindah tingkat 11. Dari packing sampai ler mengemas balik..aku buat sendirik. Malam, aku da tak ble jalan. Stakat jalan ke toilet yang depan bilik ni pun aku raser macam nak menangis sebab kaki saket amat. Kaki aku ni da ler mmg problem..nasib da tua2 ni da kurang.. kalo dulu.. bukan rasa jek.. memang sampai tahap menangis la jugak kalau saket kaki aku datang.

Will i or will i not apply for leave tomorrow?

AF1 is sick. KBro is also on leave, his late mother passed away last week. I received a call from PM team informing about meeting tomorrow and the next day. And.. i also have one meeting to attend at Putrajaya tomorrow. Aboss's paperwork is not finish yet. I have to move out from tis house as late as tomorrow. Masamana ni?

Malam, aku ajak adik teman g hantar sket barang kat rumah baru. Adik ni yang aku sengal bukan apa.. awek spotcheck dia. Every x sampai 10 minit call. Dear pompuan2..tolooongggla! Toksah le korang nak memenat2kan paler spotcheck memanjang. Cuba2 la bawak relax. Lagi ko tau apa dibuatnya, lagi la ko sakit jiwa. Yang bodo nak p memeningkan paler buat apa. Xpahamm aku pompuan2 ni. Bukan takat adik.. rame la jugok kawan2 lelaki aku yang mengalami keadaan gitu. Yang jantan ni pon satu.. pompuan ni kalo x di tackle ngan baik.. x pening melayan ngada2 dorang, silap2 ko kena tinggal plak bang.

So, sok aku cuti jek la. Kang aku tak pindah.. melayang 340. Kalo gomen nak bayor tak pe la jugak aku nak bersungguh2 pk pasal keje time2 gini. Lantak ler korang. Tadi pun aku kena cover report orang sebab pengarah mintak. AF1 tadak, bos pon tadak.. elok sangat le. Aku pas summary sekeping jek..xder surat, xder apa. Nasib ok..kalo cerewet bagai.. aku suh jek korang buat sendirik.

Aku g Hq.. sms ibu. Kebetulan ayah pun tengah lepak kat opis ibu. Pas antor report, kitaorang kuar makan ikan bakar. Time nak balik..ibu nak ajak singgah the mall jap, skali jem laa.. so ayah kater elok anto aku p midvali terus. Skali jem jugak. Last2, hanto g KL Sentral.

I cant move to my new house this weekend since its current tenant is only moving out tomorrow. I have not yet start packing. With all those stuff packed in a little room of mine, I myself kinda wonder how i succeed in collecting them all.

It's my life.. it's now or never.. Well.. actually that song dont have anything to do with my post. But, I heard tis chinese guy sang Bon Jovi's song in Barbie Hsu show.. darn he was so good!

Wat I do today? Entoh ler.. since pagi da terasa  amat mengantuks. Pegi basuh keta.. mau sejam aku tunggu. Untuk keta aku yang mengada tuh, memang la kena simpan duit tabung. Antara butiran duit tabung tu iyalarh :

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Bateri replacement --> RM 240 tuk 2 taon means RM 12 sebulan
2
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Ansuran keta + road tax --> RM 40 sebulan.  Nasib ansuran keta aku da mura.
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Lesen memandu --> RM 2.50 sebulan tuk setaun
4
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Tukar m-oil --> RM 12.5 sebulan tuk setaun
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Tukar tayar --> RM 20 sebulan tuk 2.5 tahun.
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Cuci keta --> RM 10 sebulan
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Parking --> RM 174 sebulan. Sebab ari keje p midvali, ujung minggu punn p midvali.
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Minyak keta --> RM 100 sebulan kalo p midvali jek.
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Tukar timing belt, disc break, drive shaft, suspension bar, auto transmission oil, isi aircond, brek pump, cooling coil dan bermacam2 lah lagi perkara yang tak terpikir - estimate minima kena ada RM 50 sebulan tak termasuk saman oke!


JUMLAH TOTAL  = RM421.00 tak masuk loan keta bulan2. Darng!!!

Ari ni aku is bizi and is unable to percaya yang aku tak turun p jalan2 cari hal kat bawah during lunch tadi. Aku sebok buat surat. So, petang ni aku malas nak bukak dokumen dalam fail kat bilik tu. Tunggula besok2 kalau aku rajin.

Tadi mati2 aku ingat da kol 7 sebab kat luar gelap. Kelam kabut aku semayang asar. Tunggu punya tunggu, aku pelik la apsal azan maghrib tak berkumandang lagi. Dah tu kat luar tetiba plaks cerah.. alalala.. rupa2nya tadi tu baru kol 6.. since ujan da tedoh, cerah dah ler.

Ngantuk gila. Smalam first time spanjang aku dok umah ni, aku tido pasang lampu. Napa ntah smalam. Bilik aku dah ler bersepah2 sebab aku nak pindah umah ujung minggu ni. Malasnya la aku nak pk pasal pindah umah ni.. esp tang kena berangkut barang2 aku yang menggunung kat bilik tu. Bakal osmate aku sms tadi.. tanya aku reti main bowling ker tak.. ahahah... aku? longkang adalah.

Aku carik umah pon kat mudah.com.. tak kenal langsung bakal osmate aku nih. Tapi nampak ari tu cam ok jek.  Time blajor aku duk seumah 8 orang, 3 taon setengah. Time kat LA.. aku dok berdua..  yang tu 4 taon setengah.. Umah skarang duk bertiga.. setaon lebey sikit.. ni yang paling kejap la. Pindah pon sebab keta aku yang bertuah tu da sampai. Ari tu aku try da tanya management, parking ada tak. Giler panjang waiting list. Umah baru nanti pon tak der parking.. tapi bilik besar sket.. sewa murah sket..ahah.

Ngada aku tengok c elly mazlien ni dalam Na O Mei.Aku bley layan citer ni.. aku pon tak paham.

So dang sleepy.. kol 4.30 aku da cabut, macam biasalah. Kol 4.45 sampai umah. Singgah beli nasi lemak depan gate umah --> beli ayer halia kegemaran --> tercongok depan komputer. Malas nak buat keje dekat opis sebab jiwa aku dah kat rumah. Lagi pun, tak kuasa nak  buang masa dekat jalanraya. Datang awal, balik awal. Dulu tem keje dekat LA pun sama juga. 4.52 otak aku da shut-off. Apa2 hal, aku buat kat umah je.

Bebudak ni pon ada gak yang keje sampai lewat malam, tapi kat unit aku takder la yang serajin tu. Masalah dia bukan rajin @ tak. Ada tu, time keje dia tak keje.. time orang tak keje barula dia sebok nak bekeje. Salah saper. Kalo tem keje curik tulang.. pandai2 la ganti. Style aku, 6.55 pagi aku da start keje sebab aku taw aku akan mencurik tulang tuk mengisi perut. 4.30 sharp aku mesti balik. Ada juga lah masa2nya aku tercurik lebey masa.. ahah. Tapi dua 3 ari ni aku memang ngantuk gara2 tido lewat. Nasib aku bujang, kalo da kawen.. mau asben aku suh aku buka opis je dekat umah. Oppss.. tak siap la aktiviti menyemak kalo aku tulis pepanjang nih.

Next week aku nak pindah umah... yaayy.. Barang2 tak pack pon lagi..

Hari ini dalam sejarah kereta aku mati. Silakus! 2nd time da ni. First time waktu electronic system dia shutdown. Kali ni sebab bateri dia. Kalo calculate balik, 4 kali la dia da buat hal kalo campor 2 kali time dia duk kat kampung.

4.30 aku punch card. Dalam beg aku terisi lah drawing sanitary system yang konon2nya nak di tengok kat umah setebal 3 inci. Yelah, kalo beberapa keping kertas A1 ko lipat2 jadik A4, sure la tebal apa! Lepas berebut2 dengan ABoss ngan KakakI kat mesin punch kad tadi, aku pon laju selaju2nya menuju kereta. Time nak start engine, alarm plak berbunyi. Panik aku! Pas aku dah sadapkan alarm, aku pon triggered la enjin. Skali tak maw backfire daa. Ah! Sudah.. apo la mokcik nak buek ni. Kalo keta lama, aku da suku terer da sbb da beberapa kali la jg aku bw keta aku jmpa doktor mekanik kat workshop. Keta yang ni.. aku bukak enjin, aper pon aku tak nampak. Bukanlah compartment enjin tu kosong tapi da aku tak familiar apa ke benda yang ada dalam tu, so aku buat la macam2 alasan kann. Nasiblah aku masih la kenal tangki m-oil ngan tangki screen washer... ahahah.

Dalam blur2 tu, aku bejalan pun da macam zombie.. yela.. otak da shutdown. Aku kalo ada hal or stuck dgn problem, pelik2 sikit. Kalo tak sengih memanjang, aku pucat & senyap. Kes tadi, aku sengih2 & ada la jugak sikit terasa cam orang kat wad psikiatri yang aku g lawat kat Hospital Temerloh ngan ibu dulu. Aku naik opis, g carik koncho2.

Mr W orang first jadik tempat aku ngadu domba. 2nd RSenora.. 3rd.. AF1. AF1 ni attending aku sekarang.. so, dia nilah tempat aku ngadu domba selalunya. So tadi, AF1 nilah yang mengepalai rombongan beramai2 ker ACE Hardware tok beli batery setelah bersetuju dengan diagnosis bateri kereta aku da arwah. Sampai2 kat kedai hardware, bateri yang ader cuma jenis yang kena isi air. Bateri tu kosong & kena isik asid sendirik. Pastu kena tunggu plak 30 minit before bule diguna.

Bla bla bla. Dorang decide lagi. Kali ni g Carrefour. Kalo tadi AF1 yang mengepalai, kali ni turn aku. Carrefour tu kan taman permainan aku. Every lunch aku lawat oke! Ader la battery free maintenance.. rega yang tertulis RM450. Wah! Bule beli da L_shape sofa yang aku idamkan sebijik. Tapi rega yang aku bayor cumalah RM239.. ahahah. Aku prefer yang air type. Bukan lah susah nak jaga pon. Tapi sebab kena tunggu 30 minit tu yang aku malas. Last2, angkut la yang maintenance free punya.

Dari rack ker kaunter bayar, AF1 dengan baik atinya tolong aku usung bateri yang berat tu. Tengah aku tunggu resit lepas buat payment, aku nampak yang tiga orang ni dah jauh blah tinggalkan aku. kali ni turn RSenora plak menolak trolley yang berisi bateri tu. Alahaii! Maka cepat2 la aku kejar dorang & offer tuk tolak trolley. Tak baik la kalo aku lebey2 menyusahkan orang kannn. Sampai2 kat kereta.. yang aku buat cumalah berdiri sambil tengok 3 orang ni bertungkus lumus menukar bateri kereta aku yang mengada2 tu. Bukan takat tukar jek, dorang tolong tanda plak kat bateri tu date aku tukar bateri.

Da settle semua, AF1 soh aku start kereta. Aku dengan mengada-ngada  jugaklah menyuruh AF1 tolong startkan sebab aku takot MELETUP! Aaaa... elok sangat lah tu. Mekanikal sangat lah aku. Skali start jek.. da idoppp..yeaaaa... Gumbiranya c chomot.. iya iya yoh! Pas hantar RSenora, aku berusaha pulak mencari parking kat area umah aku. Hampir jugaklah aku terlanggar keta orang sebab parking yang aku try nak masuk tu sempit. Mesti time tu aku berangan yang kereta aku tu kancil agaknya. Elok sangat la.

Sampai2, adik aku yang sorang lagi call. Mak dia meninggal semalam. Innalillah wa inna ilahi raji'un.. Opss.. chotto! Aku nak stop maghrib. Amper aku terlupa masa da nak time.

Pangkor Coral Bay Resort

Hari ni hari melancong. Since keje dah berjaya settle lebey awal, so kitaorang pun dihantar la meronda pulau pangkor nih beramai2. Naik 3 van. First pit, kat teluk nipah kot. Dengar konversasi bebudak nih dengan apek yang bawak van tu time kitaorang berhenti dekat situ.

Miss : Uncle, apa yang  best dekat sini?
Apek : Saya mana taw. Saya bawa saja. Semua pun sama.

Hahaha.. uncle ni memang fail la jadik pemandu pelancong. Nak kater best sangat Pangkor ni, tak lah pun. Tengok la kita melancong dengan saper. Team kitaorang yang datangkali ni jenis yang sporting, so.. memang enjoy. Jalan raya kat pulau ni, fuyooo.. mencabar amats. Selekoh dia bukan setakat sangat, tapi amat2 lah tajam. Ala2 zig zag gitew.

Paling best, part tangkap gambar. Kelakau. Ader sorang dak nih, dia tangkap gambar orang tapi dia pose lebih hebat lagi dari orang yang kena gambar. Sakit perut tengok gaya dia. Dia memang sporting giler la. Aku tak expect la jugak mamat ni macamni. Pas teluk nipah..kitaorang g kilang. Pastu g 'China' ngan 'Belanda'. Ahaha..

Hari ni meeting the whole day.. it was supposed to be continued at 8.30 tapi urusetia decided nak habiskan. Dekat kol 7 la juga meeting habis. Aku direct g makan malam. Pas makan, kelam kabut naik bilik & tukar baju then g pantai tengok sunset & amik gambar. Tapi tak dapat capture gambar yang santek sebab aku terlambat gara2 singgah makan tadi.

Lepas mandi2.. ngantuk pula rasanya. Tetiba teringat offer member tuk g sesi menyumbang sora. Turunla gi jenguk bebudak nih. Bla bla bla.. tak sengaja terjoint plak ;p Nasib la sumer sporting. Memang yang turun tu sumer jenis artist toilet lah. Tapi ada this girl, sora memang sedaps. Spanjang aku g kotak merah, 1st la ni aku dengar sora pompuan dan lelaki yang memang sedaps banget. Enjoy giler la. Siap ada yang pasang lighter, konon2 ala2 konsert. Sound system tak lah nak kata best, tapi aku pun teraser betul2 macam dalam konsert you! Awws.. aku ni jarang memuji orang oke. Kalo aku puji tu, memang lah memang korang memang best.

Sedar2, da kol 1 lebih baru kitaorang abis. Orang da nak tutup kedai da. Singgah  minum dekat kedai kopi plaks. Borak2.. Pastu ada yang tanya aku soklan berikuts.

 Mr : Awak tanak masuk AF ke?
Aku : Aaaa? hahaha
Mr : Saya serius ni. Masuk la AF. Saya boleh jadik manager.
Aku : Heh (sengey jek la)

Da tua2 ni, tak kuaser aku nak carik glemer murah. Sora pun cam katok jek. Tadi aku di'offer sebungkus Twisties sebab menang penyanyi terabek konon..  Ahahhaa. Twisties tu aku tolak, tapi biler dorang goyang fringles, laju jek aku g amek. Aku rasa sora dak pompuan tu lagi sedaps. Voice control dia memang mantaps. Tak terpele'ot langsung spanjang dia nyanyi. Kagum jugak la aku sebab dak tu reti nyanyi banyak lagu.

Kalo aku, itu2 jek la. Favorite, lagu Shakira - Underneath your Clothes. Kalo nak test low note, aku nyanyi la lagu un-break my heart. Kalo tekak ok, aku ble achieve note rendah 99 - 99.99% perfect... Cheeewah! Tapi lagu tu memang serendah2 note la bagi aku.

As late as 6.45 aku bangun. Pas suboh.. aku terus kemas barang. Belum pack abis lagi dari semalam. Aku malas nak suh driver amik aku kat umah,so aku kena bangun awal. Siap2 mandi, sarapan.. dalam kol 7.30 aku hangkut beg aku yang berat tu & bejalan le sampai ke lrt. Nasib tak jaoh. Tapi dengan beg berat & kasut tinggi.. sempat juga la aku mengah.

Dalam kol 8.15 aku sampai ofis. Nasib tak lama tunggu komuter. Mau naik darah tinggi kalo stranded kat komuter station tu tem2 peak org turun keje nih. Sampai2 ofis, ofis da kosong. Koncho sumer da turun minum kat bawah, rutin biasa la kann. Nasib adik ada.. adalah juga budak yang bule aku bulie temankan aku g sarapang. G makan kat kedai mamak. 9 lebey baru aku bertolak.

Kol 12.30 sampai kat jetty lumut. Call urusetia, dorang pon belum sampai lagi. Tunggu punya tunggu, 2.30 jugak baru naik feri. Dalam ferry tu ader plak minah2 sena yang bising nak tuuut! Bising giler.. raser nak lempar jek dorang kat tengah laut tu. Apa yang dikecoh pun aku tak paham. Aku yang tengah sedap terlelap bule tekejut dengan sore sumbang dorang. Spanjang trip tu, kitaorang memang bengang lah dengan geng2 kepoh tu.

Sampai2, terus lunch

Pas lunch, check in.. time tu da pukul 4.30. Kol 5 kena berkumpul kat bawah kalo nak join snorkeling. Saper tanak join kann.. aku pun apa lagi. Pas asar, kelam kabut la tukar baju & turun g lobby. Aku duk kat Coral Bay Resort. View tak cantik sangat tapi bilik besar. Pantai pon dekat jek.

 Ramai2 jalan kaki g pantai

Naik 2 separate boat. Boat yang aku naik tu memang best. Drebar dia sporting gila. Dia story mory la asal usul pulau & area yang kitaorang pegi.. bla bla bla. Yang best, kitaorang tengok boat persendirian merempit. Corner maut tu.. giler lah. Drebar boat aku tu pun gatai nak tiru gak aksi boat tu.. apa lagi.. menjerit2 la minah2 yang ada dalam boat 2 sebab boat tu da senget gila.. macam nak terbalik juga la rasa eh! Aku? Budak meki manada jerit2 takot.. aku rilex jek. Siap wat titanic lagi.

Singgah snorkeling kat Coral Beach. Tempat dia cetek.. ikan pon tak de la yang kuit2 pun. Aku malas nak join bebudak ni mandi & snorkeling. Takat main kat tebing2 jek.

Berhenti dekat kawasan yang dalam sikit. Time ni aku memang tergoda giler nak berendam. Aku terjun la dalam air tu ngan life jacket oke! Ala.. sumer pon terjun ngan life jacket aper.. bukan aku jek. Semue oke! Memang dalam gak air dia.. ombak kuat sampai teraser2 macam nak kena tarik ke laut. Eeee..

Tengah syok berendam.. dreba yang join skali mandi ngan kitaorang tu kuarkan dua ekor lintah laut. Besar giler. Ader juga la segemuk tangan aku. Ewwww.. geli gila. Dia baling kat budak pompan yg tengah berendam, sumer bertempiaran lari.. termasuk la aku budak meki. Time tu aku da tak kira da. Meki tak meki.. geli ok! Boat tu nak senget 90 degree aku tak heran.. jangan lintah tu. ewwww.. Tapi last2 aku pegang la juga lintah tu.. eeeee.. tak der apa pon aktuali.

Kol 8.30 sampai 11 lebih jugaklah meeting kitaorang petang tu. Last year non-inginiur yang chair.. macam ayam cakap ngan itik la jugak. Tis year inchik yang chair tu inginiur, memang rasa different lah. Barulah nampak jelas work flow. Tis time barulah meaningful perkataan 'sidang  ridaksi' tu.