My SS3 Malaysia experience!

@ 4pm.. peoples actually started queuing from 10 am! The toughest Q were the Rock Pit'ians, the longest awarded to the Terrace'ians and the shortest of course the VIP. Ehemmm.. my Q ;p. I only Q like less than 5 minutes after they opened the gate.

I changed my on-line ticket to physical ticket since my sis and I need to Q separately. The actual price is not RM486 for VIP.. need to pay RM616 ++ management charges :(

My favorite boy, Heechul a.k.a HeeHee. I was a bit disappointed with him because he only participate in less than 10 songs and that he covered his face all night. If it were not the spectacles, he wore the masks. He never 'bared' his face even for a second. Dude! I purposely came just to have a close look at your face. So yes! I am disappointed. But still.. he is so white, so loveable! He did not have solo performance but he played drum for the Don't dont performance along with Trax Jung Mo. He made me laugh when he told us in english 'Dont worry, I don't sick!' on his last speech... Hahaha.. I heart U HeeHee!

KyuHyun a.k.a my favorite KyuKyu. He is so thin and I noticed his face is not that 'smooth'. Let say it as a man face yah :) but he is cute.

Tis dude is so cute!  Sungmin a.k.a my favorite MinMin. He looked exactly like what we saw on TV. He tried to look serious but failed due to his cuteness =)

The stage in front of me was his marked area! This Siwon a.k.a my favorite WonWon is soooo handsome. I didn't think he is that attractive before, but seeing him this close.. OMG. Like KyuKyu, his face was not that 'smooth' either and he is so thin compared to what we saw on TV. But he really is so handsome and his english pronounciation is good. I could see that he is a polite gentlemen, confirmed! ;p

Donghae a.k.a my favorite HaeHae. He is short, thin and cuteeee! He is cool too. so cute compared to what we saw on TV.

I managed to get a lot of good pictures of Yeesung because he did not move so fast like the other. He just stand there and buy us time for pictures moment.. and his voice amazing

He rarely reached the front stage. This is the only picture I have on Leeteuk. He played piano while sang Wang Lee Hom's 'Kiss Goodbye'.. I love his performance. I wondered wether he understand what he was singing.. Hahaha. And he kept asking ahpahkhahbar all night.. So funny for using the 'apa khabar' wrongly..haha

Ryewook.. he is so small and so thin, just like the other. But he surely has a nice voice

I did not manage to get Shindong's solo picture because he only reached the front stage after my camera's battery died!.. which is an hour before the show finished. So sad =( I also did not manage to get any good or solo photo of my favorite Eunhyuk a.k.a Ah Hyuk. He did stand right in front of me but he moved so fast. He has two solo.. and his body is so thin too! And Henry and Zhou Mi too because this two never reached the front stage. But both of them performed well. In fact, Henry's performance was one of my favorite besides Leeteuk. He sang Justin Bieber's famous 'Baby'. He sang, played piano and dance! Love him!

They were all so thin, except dong dong Shin Dong.. to say he is fat is not right too.. he is fit what! Overall.. I enjoyed the night but this will be my first and last concert I suppose. ELFs loud scream and the sound system caused my ear to ache. I have to wear mufflers a.k.a  head phone because I cant stand the noise =(

Pala saket.. Hati saket.. Tapi pala lagi saket. Macam nak demam pun ada ni. Sakit pala pasal tu da satu hal.. Sakit pala ngan konsultang pla satu hal lagi. A long discussion petang tadi over a long list of unresolved issues. Ahhh!

Dalam sebok miting sepanjang hari, sempat lagi singgah MPH dan bebelanja almost hundreds over a book! Yah! A BOOK! Just one. I am sorry purse.. Miannayo T_T

Aaarghhhhh gerammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ggrrrr!!! Geram amat! Geram gila! Gerammmmmmmmmmmm! God.. Bagilah aku semangat menempuh 4 hari yang macammm hell! Mengenangkan Saturday.. Hati ku berbungga kembali. Tapi bila hakikatnya ada 4 hari lagi.. Tensih!

I tried updating my ipad to ios 4.3 last night. An error occured and I needed to reboot. It took me like what, 20 minutes to complete the pocess before I finally managed to upgrade to ios 4.3. There were some new features like side button which previously used to control mute's mode now can be used as screen rotation control. Not much of changes actually.

Th second generation of Ipad will be available on the market starting nex month i guess. For me, I don't give a damn about how thinner it is or how fast the processor would be.. Or additional features like camera whatsoever if they did not do something about the battery. Claiming the battery's life would lasts 10 hours for the second generation, I actually hope it would be more than that like changable battery. I dont like the built-in battery as they could never be replaced!

Pas mandi, siap-siap nak ke Jusco. Sampai round about dekat Shepital Rehab, JEM! Kalau dah dekat round about tu start jem, sejam agaknya aku nk sampai kat Jusco yang cuma 1 or 2 km je lagi. So, aku decide patah balik umah.

Last2, lepak kat kedai depan umah ni je. Aktuali takat lepak kat kedai depan tu pun dah cukup since suma jenis kedai pun ada. Da ketahuan aku ni pun jenis yang memang tak gemar nak bersosial ujung minggu, or bebila la. Ada once tu aku kena tanya ujung minggu selalunya buat apa. Aku bagitaw la mostly duk umah je. Pastu aku kena ceramah macamana nak dapat jodoh kalau tak menonjolkan diri. Aku? WedThurFri! Hahaha.

Ada betulnya tapi aku just tak willing nak ubah cara aku. I'll be alone or not, there is nothing to be afraid of. I didn't think too much. Loneliness is just feelings. No matter how many peoples surrounded us, we might still feel lonely and empty if we are not smart enough to deal with our own feelings. Frankly, aku tak pernah rasa bersendirian though I am alone. I am not the most logical person but I certainly is the most realistic. Being far away from family from the age of 12 taught me how to be responsible for my own act and how to carry myself. Mature before time, thanks to those difficult times. I believe I reacted well and positive at anything in life, no matter how worst it is because I believe everything happened for a reason. We are just ordinary human being. It is not so difficult to enjoy happiness, just go with the flow =) I am cO.0L.. Peace!!

Bila para bos bertenggek kat meja, rules dia.. kenalah stick to kerusi ofis instead of kerusi kereta! Aku balek lewat setengah jam hari ni.. Huhu. Aku tak hangen kat bos2, tapi kat orang yang sebok gak nak naik lift yang menyebabkan aku kena berhenti kat tiap- tiap floor. Pastu terhegeh- hegeh nak masuk. Nak je aku kata.. Nak masuk masuk, tanak sudah! Ahahahah.. Kalau la aku sehebat tu kan. Seumur hidup, aku belum pernah sembur orang eh! Perlu tak aku masukkan aktiviti 'sembur orang' ni as one of 1001 list ai must do before ai die? Hahaha

Tadi g makan mcD dengan daus. Beli minimum 5 hengget, free dua set big breakfast. Alkisahnya semalam time lunch dekat DBKL ada orang tnggalkan 2 keping kupon mcD kat meja yang kitaorang duduk. Dengan 2 kupon tu, belanja 10 hengget je da ble dapat 4 set big breakfast tuh! Isnin ni kitaorang nak pegi lagi.. Hehehe..

I got my VIP ticket!!!!! HeeHee.. wait for me!! MinMin.. wait for Noona!! KyuKyu.. wait for me!!

 HaeHae..WonWon.. Ah Hyuk.. wait foooooor meee toooooo!!!

Hari ni aku attend executive talk.. Hari yang bikin panas tapi aku dah cool down now. Today proved that as always, I have bad tempers yet fail to "deliver" my anger, but that doesnt mean that I could never be angry. I am just human being and I have limit too. I know I am being secretive, even to you my dear diary. I shared the "I am angry" part but leave the "why I am angry" part for myself. I am that type of person. For me, to talk to someone about things that upset me is like i am forcing myself to recall them, so I hate it. Besides, it makes me even more depressed. Here is where "sharing is caring" part not applicable. I know, wierd rite!

Borak dengan our supplier, a chinese guy. Tiba2 terstory pasal korea. Aku ingat aku sorang je yang dah tuha tapi lopa diri minat SuJu. Ropa2nya aku ada geng! Hahahah.. Dia lagi hebatz. Since zaman2 HOT, SES.. Sapa lagi ntah. Aku tahu nama je, kenalnya idak.

Aktuali aku minat artis ni bukanlah because of the person, what i love is their work.. the song. Except for SuJu.. Which aku pun konfius why aku suka dorang. Cute? ;p ramai lagi what yang cute tapi kenapa SuJu eh? Kenapa heechul? Well.. There is exception for everything, rite =)

Tadi ingat nak join DrM launch book dia dekat depan MPH.. Skali bigboss suh aku ikut dia masuk miting. Ah! Makcik tensih! Kena pulak buat paperwork.. Lagi la tensih. AN tanya aku.. Bule ke kalau aku yang jaga projek kitaorang yang kat Rompin tu. Buleee bosss! Waaaa... Jaohhhhhh. Tak bley naik flight.. Waaaaaa

Apa kebaikannya ada dairy yang kita tulis daily?

Naaa.. Tadi aku cek punch card aku tuk bulan Disember. Tiba2 ader dua lobang kat kad tu yang tak berpunch. Aku pon tak ingat kenapa aku tak punch card 2 hari. Bukak blog a.k.a diary.. Teruss taw rupa-rupanya aku cuti time tu. See! How convenience eh.

To someone who tainted my heart with bad memories, for whatever reason you have trying to reappear in my life.. STOP! I wont waste my time to hate you for the rest of my short life. Neither do I want to waste my limited memory to remember whatever memories of us. For good or bad.. You dont deserve to be spared any room in my mind or my heart for me to quietly remember you, even for a second. For whatever it is, do know that I dont hate you. No! Because that will waste my time too. We are just two strangers who has nothing to do with each other. I shoud thank you for making me a wiser person.

I cant believe my self! I even bought Super Junior's balloon.. really???!!

The balloon is free lah.. hehehe. But I really love the umbrella.. ella.. ella.. Trust me you will like it if you see how small and light weight it is. I think it is about a half size "thinner".. so cute. The stick? Don't ask me!

OMG! Did my heart just beat faster than it should? Oh! No. Did it? Really?

Even thinking about it make it beat even faster. Owahhhhhhh!!

Hari ni ada evaluation. Site banjir.. lift pit plak dah jadi akuarium gara-gara ujan. Before turun tadi, my boss pesan lagi pasal safety. Risau benor dia staf dia jatuh dalam lobang kat site. Hehehe.. Tapi ada one day tu, kalau tak R.E sound balik2, memang ada possibility gak aku jatuh dalam lubang riser yang tak di barricade.

 There is someone who brightened my day simply by his presence. Sometimes it was not love, but you loved a person. You don't love them in a romantic way, but you loved them. You don't love them as a special someone, but the person is special to you. And I, I have that person.

Hari ni hari mari mendengar tazkirah projek saket! Punyala bosan! Dari kol 8.30 sampai pukul 3 tak lepak langsung kat 'bilik termenung' a.k.a tolet, mana tak hamper meletop perut aku. Aku ni mana bule berpisah dengan bilik termenung lebih 2 or 3 jam.

Bos baru aku berapa kali sound pasal safety. Kalau aku masuk site sorang, dia kata jangan harap dia akan kasi aku pergi. Ahahaha.. Dia tak tahu site kitaorang jauh la lebih selamat dari site2 aku jaga dulu. Aku pernah kena sorak macam tengok bola, site meletop, pernah kena ambush time sorang2, naik tangga turun tangga bebelas tingkat without lift ari2 time puasa, hampir jatuh dalam laut.. apa lagi! Belum baju belobang & gatal2 kena chemical or possibility mandul gara2 X-ray pipe. Rindu pula zaman-zaman tu. Time tu rasa alive je.. now ni rasa cam lemauuu!!

9 pm and I am alone. Where is everyone in this house eh?!

Ribut kot tadi. Biasa kalau angin kuat pun, just tutup pintu bilik aku je tapi tadi angin tak kasik aku tutup pintu lak! Bukan angin direct plak tu. Osmate aku tak tutup tingkap bilik dia, so angin tu cuma ble lalu bawah pintu. Imagine sikit punya kuat la.. Tu pun nasib ada pintu as obstacle. Tak tahu la apa jadi dalam bilik osmate aku dek angin tu.

Hai ni hari balut buku sedunia. Lebih 20 buku gak aku balut tadi. Tu pun masih ada banyak lagi yang tak berbalut. Salah MPH la ni jual buku2 yang menggoda aku suh beli..esp buku belajar bahasa. Try pegi dekat MPH midvalley, kat portion buku bahasa cina. Aku rasa dari banyak2 buku kat rak tu, ader beberapa buah je yang aku tak der. Elok la.. Pasni aku bule buka mini MPH!

Sunny Sunday.. Lapaq la. My diet day-2 plan was ruined by instant noodles yesterday, and nasi lemak ayam rendang the day before. Warghhh!

I am so excited for SuJu concert. Last Friday I told my lil bro about the event. After giving me lecture on how clever I was when comes to wasting money, he said just call him if I need a lift after concert. Good brother worry big sister could't find a way home eh! Hahaha. Later big sister will introduce her lil sister ok ;p

Languages-learning as a hobby, so this is all I do on my day of rest =) Learning Korean is so-ooo hard, especially when involving sound changes. Just like reading Al-Quran when you need to change the way you pronounce the words due to alphabet like م MIM meet the ﻥ NUN and KAF that it becomes MIN'g.. they have it too in certain cases like when T meet the M alphabet in moT Meok kko (can't eat) , the T will become N that change the sentence to moN Meok kko.

Besides, they also have this polite (honorific) and plain kind of speech. In Bahasa Melayu, we change the noun AKU  as for speaking with friend to SAYA to show respect to someone older or for formality. In Korean, they kinda change the whole words instead of just changing the way they speak of them self. They also use different words for conveying the tense, statement, question and command. As for Mandarin, the hardest part is just the tone and remembering the writing.. yet not as tough as Korean.. waaaaaa

Hari ni MPH berjaya lagi membuatkan aku ilang 50 hengget untuk membeli sebuah buku! Waaaaaaa.. Jahatttt!!! Hari yang bosan dan aku kurang suka hari ni. Kenapa? Biarlah rahsia. I am also kinda trying to figure out my own feelings.. Suka ka tak suka nih!

Terbaca tentang ANDARTU atau dikenali juga sebagai ANDALUSIA. Tidak dinafikan ia sememangnya perkataan singkat yang sangat ditakuti oleh anak-anak gadis. Bila merujuk kepada anak dara yang masih belum berkhawin walaupun usia sudah agak lanjut seperti aku, masyarakat pasti tidak lari dari mengatakan ah! Mungkin dia tak laku kot, ala.. Sebab dia tak lawa, sebab dia gemok, siapa suruh dia terlalu memilih dan bermacam- macam lagi yang boleh dikatakan hampir semuanya menyalahkan si gadis tadi. Sekiranya si gadis tadi memang tidak pernah bercadang mahu berkhawin, maka layaklah salah jatuh ke atas dirinya namun sekiranya dia mahu tetapi tidak bertemu pasangan yang sesuai, wajarkah dia disalahkan? Apakah dia tidak punya hak memilih? Berkhawin semata- mata takut akan mulut masyarakat adalah sesuatu yang sangat pathetic. Apa yang pasti, cabaran menjadi seorang wanita akan semakin bertambah dalam dunia yang semakin dipenuhi dengan golongan jantan berbanding lelaki ni. Ditambah pula dengan kewujudan lelaki patah yang semakin hari semakin bertambah bilangannya.

Mari belajar bahasa Sabah

Huruf A dan U dihujung perkataan -> disebut A'/ uU' ; dibunyikan seperti ada hamzah, kecuali SAYA/ KA
Huruf K -> disebut menghampiri sebutan Q tapi lebih lembut

Suka -> sukA'
Kitaorang -> Kamiurang
Korang -> Kamurang
Saya -> Sayaa ; Sebutan baku yang disebut dengan lebih lembut.
Tidak, tak -> inda', nda'
KE (pertanyaan) -> KA ; Dah makan KE? -> sudah makan KA?
Kau -> Ka-uU'
Hendak/ Nak -> ma-uU', maW
Buat -> bikin/ buat
Beri -> kasi/ bagi
Lah -> la
Cakap/ kata -> cakap/ kata/ bilang

Pengunaan BAH :
Kebiasaan diguna pada awal atau penghujung ayat sebagai emphasizer.
-> Bah! Bukan salah saya.
-> Mari la bah!

Boleh digunakan pada pertengahan ayat sebagai emphasizer semasa mengajak seseorang
-> Marila bah kita pigi! sebagai ganti kepada Marila kita pigi bah!

Digunakan beberapa kali pada satu ayat.
-> Bah! Pigi la bah ambil!

Tidak boleh digunakan pada penghujung ayat apabila bertanyakan soalan.
-> SALAH : Kau sudah makan ka bah?!
-> BETUL : Kau sudah makan?/ Sudah kau makan/ Makan sudah kau?

Kalau ditanya.. Warna apa yang paling aku suka.. Sure aku akan jawab Itam! Ijau! Pinky! Whitey! Redy! Oranje! Gray! Pepel! Cekelat! Teal! Kunin! Tapi never BIRU!

Aku pun tak paham kenapa aku anti sangat kaler ni. Tapi hakikat sebenar.. Bilik aku nun dipenuhi dengan kaler biru. Now, baju-baju biru ni mula memenuhi lemari pakaian aku pula. Pasal bilik aku jadik kaler biru tu gara-gara aku tersalah beli lemari. Start dari tu, aku kena match sumer benda jadik kaler biru. Kes baju ni plak, gara-gara Super Junior! Hahahah.

Mak aku bawak pegi kedai baju tadi.. Aku pon apa lagi.. Sebok la memilih baju biru yang menjadi theme elf SuJu. Tapinya aku tak tahu apakah rupanya Sapphire Blue yang menjadik warna kebangsaan peminat depa ni. Last2 aku hangkut 3 skali! Hahahah. Pas beli baru la sebok nak tanya mr google macamana ghopernya biru sapphire nih. Nasib la ader salah satu baju tu sangkut! Yeaaa..

Tiga hari ni aku dijadualkan mengikuti rawatan. Aku sakit? Entah! Dorang ni kata aku sakit, aku kata aku tak sakit! Hahahah.

Empat hari la aku jadi anak tunggal mom and dad. Well, seronok juga tapi bosan sikit sebab tak der saper aku nak buli suh masak and buatkan aku air. Hehehe.. Bukan buli, manja-manja ;p. My sis yang paling kecik tu now duduk asrama.

I got the ticket for Super Junior SS3 concert next month!!!

HeeHee my love.. Wait for me. MiMin and kyuKyu.. Also WonWon, HaeHae and Ah Hyuk.. Wait for me too. Eventhough I did not manage to get the best ticket and could only see them from distance after paying the price of good seat, I dont really mind. This is once in a life time experience for me, especially when there were rumours about the boy spliting.

I have never been to any concert before, never once in my life. I never thought one day I would want to do something stupid like paying for a concert! (used to think that way before, and yes, I still think that way now ;p) So, next month will be my 1st time and I am so excited to be there. After 30 years baby! 1001 things you must do before you die, you know that list, dont u? And this is one of mine. Hahaha.. This will be my first and last i guess ;)

Besides concert by my favorite aritst, attending a theathre performance, ochestra, opera, soprano concert and football game were also listed on that 1001 things I must do before I die list of mine. Soon my dear! I am going to make all my wishes come true upon hitting 30. live long! Banzai!

6.30 i woke up for Suboh prayer.. Yet to decide whether to go to Sungei Wang for SuJu SS3 ticket...tried hard to bring myself to sleep again and managed to take an hour nap. Soon after, I decided that I should just joint the ELF queue today considering no matter how convenience-not it is, I still have to leave my house at 12 pm.

I arrived an hour earlier before the counter open. Oh! My god. It would not be wrong if i said a thousand of peoples came! They were already there before me and there were also so many queuing at the back.  Here..

I line up, played push yet gave up five minutes after the counter opened ;)  If it were not for my evening flight.. I might fight till the end. Hahaha. I think the organizer kinda being ridiculous for selling the ticket at the-sixth-super-cramp-floor. Since I left earlier, I kinda missed to see whether the shops there were able to operate at normal hour due to peoples queuing infront of their shop and leave no spaces to pass through, except for those who already mastered the pushing's skill.

Fans kept pushing each other and some hysterically screamed "STOP PUSHING"  like people care la! Although RELA was there, for me, they did not function at all. I saw old aunts and uncles, childrens.. But of course girls dominated the queue, yet, the emotionl one were the guys. So not cool!
And, officially, for someone who hates to be around peoples.. I think I am kinda crazy for making myself doing what I did today!

I am currently watching American Idol audition and get swayed away by an amazing performance by one of th contestant. What a talent!

Ling ding dong!

Ling ding dong! Ling ding dong!
Di giding digiding ding ding
Ling ding dong! Ling ding dong!
Di giding digiding ding ding....

This song by Shinee been ringing in my head for these past few days. Now I knew why my friend kinda fell in like with the song. It kinda grow on you! Like listening to Super Junior Sorry-Sorry & Bonamana, and Shinee Lucifier. When I first heard those songs, I kinda hated it but they kinda grew on me.

I used to wonder what is there about TVXQ or DBSK that people praised them so much even after their break-up. Then only I realized they really live up to expectation after hearing only one song! Doshite kimi o suki ni natte shimattandaro.. Such a nice song. I admit their vocal were amazing. Translated in english as "why did i fall in love with you".. the melody was so beautiful and the girl on the mv soo kawaiii.. That is all i care about.. Hahaha.

And.. There is Neyo, my all time favorite with his song "one in a million".. So beautiful! Everytime I listened to Neyo, Sarah McLachlan and Jay Chou.. My heart is touched! Although I am also a fan of other artists but those three were in a class of their own as if they came from a different star ;p wow!!! I sounded like oooo-verrr!

Hari ni aku menggoda ZA. Bukanlah menggoda dia dengan tergedik-gedik.. Hahah.. Tapi aku menggoda dia dengan menyuroh dia tengok mv gadis-gadis Korea yang cumil. MrB pon jadik mangsa aku jugak.. Wahahaha

And today, for the 3rd days berturut- turut muka aku ni muncol kat area Buki Bintang tuh. Tadi aku sempat buat tour dekat kelas bahasa jipun ibu. Both of us ni shared the same passion for foreign languages. She learned Japanese while I took Mandarin, yet I always laughed at her for not being able to speak Brunei when she is one. It is known that most Sabahan knew and understand Bahasa Brunei, including me but perhaps not ibu.. Hahahaah.

Tadi aku dapat Valentine's wish dari unknown number. Oitt! Aku tak sambut Valentines laa. Pulak tu, who needs 14 February while I have 365 days to show my love. Apa daaaa!!

Tengah minum petang dekat VIVO.. I am glad I tried their Oreo cheese cake and cappuccino charm. I wanted to try their meal tapi perut ni masih kenyang lagi.

Their website http://www.vivopizza.com/

As said yesterday.. Hari ni pon hari outing. Memandangakan tuesday ni cuti, so, ok lah. Next week pon aku cuti panjang.. Yehuuuuu!!

I was out all day and felt like I didnt wanna go home at all.. Hahaha. There were times that I just want to hide fom the sun and peoples but, not today!

I am so tired yet I still have this thought of wanting to spend my day outside. Where to aa tomorrow?

Apa aku buat hari ni? Merapu & kacau orang! Hari yang kelam kabut sebenarnya..tapi aku buat boddo sajje.

Aku study hard hari ni. Bersungguh-sunggoh aku membuka buku yang telah membuatkan poket ku nipis semlam. Sambil-sambil tu aku dengar cara nak pronounce kat google translate, sambil-sambil gak ikut komputer tu pronounce. Sah sure orang ingat aku dah gila bercakap sorang-sorang. Ahahah...

Now dah start berkenalan dengan bahasa korea ni, punyalah sengsara nak sebut. Bebelit lidah makcik! Kalo mandarin, belajar guna buku is easier than listening to orang bercakap..kantonese pula sebaliknya while Korea, dua-dua pon susah! Kalo bab tulisan plak, korea punya lebey senang. Woaahhh!! Kenapalah aku menyusahkan diri tuk minat belajar bahasa orang padahal B.M aku pon alang-alang jek. Nak buat macamana.. Kan aku ni berpenyakit, suferring form a 4-dimensional persoalities! Daa

Hari ni MPH berjaya lagi mengopak duit aku. Arghhhhh!!! Smalam habis 25 hengget.. Hari ni seratus. Semua gara-gara buku!! Aku rasa baru lagi aku beli buku dua tiga minggu lepas. Kenapakah aku mudah sunggoh digoda oleh buku- buku nih. Tensih tul. Handbag sale pon aku tak heran, kasut ngan baju pandang sebla mata je. Tapi buku!!! Jangan bagi aku stat citer pasal dvd!

Beli buku yeklah hobi aku, bukannya baca buku oke! Aku beli dan ble konfem la memang aku tak baca pun buku tu. Beli dvd pon hobi aku jugak.. Ada lagi yang bekurun aku tak tengok2 sampai la ni. Bila la aku nak insaf ni..

First, I want to share my thought about the cutest boy in the world. FT Island Lee Hong Ki deserved it. As a boy, or a girl.. He is the cutest! Especially his eyes.. Bu I hated when he coloured his hair blonde.

2nd, I dont know how to spill this but I think there is a person who matters to me, lately. I am always looking to meet that person and happy when the person is around. Whoopsss!

Bila semua orang ada dekat ofis.. Aku suka! Suka sebab ada bebudak yang boleh aku kacau kalau boring. Since aku sorang jek pompuan, sure la aku paksa dorang layan aku kan.. Hahah..

Harga tiket tuk konset suju dah keluar! 480.. Waaaaa.. Mahalll! Tapi bila mengenangkan 480 untuk tengok 10 orang, ok la. Kira 50 hengget sorang.. Tuk heechul mahal sket pon tak pe. Tapi problem dia now ni, the day tiket start jual.. Aku balik kampong lak.. Aishhhh! Tapi aku memang nak pegi jugak konsert tu. Tak pernah2 ni aku p konsert.. So, ni aku nak pernahkan diri la ni =)

Tahun ni tahun aku enjoy. Kalo la orang bedah otak aku, sure menyesal sebab tak de apa2 penemuan since otak aku definetely memang kosong, NULL, ZERO! Hahahaha.. Tak der portion stress, unhappy or yang seangkatan. Overflow hormon gembira je yang ada. Tahun ni aku ble banyak kali balik kampong, ble p korea.. Hampir lagi beli tiket p australia ;p Projek dah ongoing.. Induksi dah lulus.. Tinggal tunggu nak confirm and tukar skim. Then pastu da bule start fikir beli umah and op kos p melancong banyak2. What's not to happy about yarr!

Woah! Over excited sampai susah nak tidur. Apa yang aku excited sangant? Entah la.. Haha

Tetiba aku terfikir, kalo la aku ni celebriti. Gara2 adik IU la ni. Wahahaha.. Bukan celeb kat mesia la tapi. Berangann! Pegang mike sikit pun gagar, ada hati nak jadi celebriti. Dengki dengan sungmin SuJu, dia kater hobi dia belajar main alat-alat muzik. Mamat tu reti main banyak gak alat muzik. Aku apa alat muzik pon tak pandai. Reti la main keyboard, piano, blow accordian, xylophone, bonang, gitar, flute.. Dengar yo yo oh cam banyak kan tapi retinya tu setakat surface jek pon. Cam keyboard, as long aku reti nyanyi lagu tu.. Easily aku boleh main part right hands tapi part left hand, merangkak! Bila lagu susah sket, aku mulala g mudahkan code g C. Dan ketahun yang aku tak pandai baca code muzik.. Wahahah. Aku paling pandai main flute type jek.

Masalah aku, aku malas! Tak de kesungguhan nak belajar. Same goes tu langauages. Blajar languages adalah one of my favorite selain musical instruments tapi aku tak gak terror2 sebab malas. Waaaaaaaaa. Tapi aku rasalah, being an engineer ni totally a wrong profession for me. Aku patut amik aliran art dulu2. Aku seswai jadik language translator, dancer or musician ;p maw itamm muka my dad dengar kenyataan ni. Hahaha. Peace dad!

Tengah layan Korean 25th Golden Disk Award bertemankan bunyi mercun kat luar tu. Da bebulan dah award ni sebenornya. Baru perasan yang sora BoA ni sedap.. Tak le macam most girl groups yang overrated.. exploit muka ngan body jek lebih. Sebab tu aku tak layan sangat girl groups. Some sound 'horror' esp bila nyanyi life. Some tu ada la juga yang ok macam one of the girl dalam SISTAR.

Kalo award kat malaysia ni, bertahun da aku tak tengok. Artis- artis malaysia pun ramai yang tak kenal..even US entertainment pon dah tak layan sangat. Maybe sebab lagu-lagu yang dihasilkan nowdays dah kurang sengat. Lagu-lagu korea ni pon bukan la semua ngam dengan telinga aku tapi better la compare tu yang lain-lain. Lagu dorang ni memang colourful!

Besok Sunday.. Berakhirlah day of rest selama 4 hari. Pas tu aku cuti lagi seminggu.. Yeayyy!!

Perbualan sengal kol 7 pagi
Mr : Si xxx cuti ke?
Ms : Tak sure. Saya tak dok serumah dengan dia
Mr : Eh! Apsal Tak taw plak. Bukan korang dating ke?
Ms : Aaa

Hari ni ofis kosong.. tinggal la aku dengan AF2, ZH and para bos2 jek. Bos2 pun bolayan kitaorang sebab ketahuan semua pun mood holiday. Sunyi je ofis.. biasa sarapan ramai-ramai, tadi aku berdua je dengan AF2. Gara-gara bosan gila, aku mula la p mengganggu ketenangan si ZH dengan soalan "Ko sebok ker, pura2 sebok?" Ahahaha..

After melepak ngan ZH dengan agak lama la jugak, aku ngan my sis lunch dekat The Garden Lifestyle Store and Cafe yang lokasinya terletak betul-betul kat depan lobi ofis aku. Nasik lemak set (Appetizer + Soup + Ice Lemon Tea) @ RM15.90, Char Kway Teow @RM12.90, Apple Juice @RM9.90. 16% tax @RM6.19!

For those yang tak tahu kat mana ofis aku.. just carik Chillies, opis aku betul2 atas Chillies. There are door betul-betul in front of Chillies tu, sila la naik escalator. Lobi kat 1st Floor. Kalau access dari dalam midvalley, p centre court dekat 1st Floor, as long nampak restoran yang ala2 taman as named kat atas tu or sign board yang tunjuk to The Garden punya link bridge..ngam la tu. Opis aku belah kanan.

I went to Sogo.. Today happened to be Dato' Siti Nurhaliza fan meeting day. Reaching 32 yet so cute =)

Watching Super Junior premium live In Japan.. made me HEART them even more! can't wait for their concert. Why HEART them so much eh? First and foremost, all of them have an impressive resume. They were super talented, super cute, super entertaining and super serious. It is not just for their pretty face or the glamor, they were all properly educated and super super super lovely!

As we are getting older, I mean they and I ;p.. There is a possibility for no more Super Junior in future. After Kangin, HeeChul and LeeTeuk will be leaving for their two years military service. Each of the members will be gone alternately. To be fully reunited 6 or 7 years from now, when Heechul will be what, 35 years OLD? Wahahaha.. But for now, I just want to HEART them =)

Heechul. Heart him the most.
Kinda crazy, twisted, noisy and over! He is unique, like me ;p
Graduated in computer information? Geek? Oh! Really?

Kyuhun
Cool + cute dude. Lovely voice & personality

Sungmin
Recently felt in like with him. Soo cute. Killer smile.
Pink boy!

Eunhyuk's dance. Super attractive, magnetic and polite Siwon
Cool, down to earth and cute DongHae

Little boy Ryewook. Lovely voice and piano skill
Artistic voice and sensitive Yesung

Polite, super smiley & good leader LeeTeuk.
Cute-pie dancing Shindong

Jasa Kepada Rakyat Ke?

Hari tu I asked ahkak dekat ofis tu prosidur nak ke luar negara. Then dia korek2 la pasai apa aku dok tanya. Aku brief la dia sket pasal plan aku nak ke korea. Skali dia p bukak citer kat boss! Chett!

Tadi my boss tetiba tanya aku, eh! Kater pegi korea? Aku*blur* Eh! Lama lagi la ncik. Then story2 la dengan bos pasal korea.. Suddenly dia kater dekat aku. Nanti ang p sana ang singgah la hospital dorang. Tengok how dorang nyer hospital compare to ours. Taw la kitaorang keje bina shepital and health care facities! Kome tengok contoh betapa dedikasinya orang gomen ni pada kerja and jase kepade rakyat sampai p cuti2 pun kena gak pk what best for the country.

Try listen to this Japanese movie sound track ; Bandage. If you do not like it, definitely there is something wrong with your ears or head. Hahahaha.... The movie is BORING but the ost is superb! I am not just saying this for the sake of my favorite Japanese guy Mr Jin akanishi, but the ost are really good. I recommend 'genki', both ska & original version.. Olympus and all lah!

Garghh.. Idung sumbat & paler berat. Harap- harap tak menjadi la demam..

Tiket balik kampung dah beli. Dengan rega 56 hengget je aku da bule pegi balik sabah..yeah! Thanks air asia. Kalau zaman skola dulu, koman-koman kena ada RM848 baru bole g balik ke sabah oke! Of course la aku ingat the exact amount sebab MAHAL!! Tu belum kira dad kena bayar fare business class sebab lewat book flight or tertinggal flight. So aku tak paham bila dengar some people yang mengomel servis air asia tak bagus la, tak itu tak ini lah. Kome nak yang standard, kome bayar la lebih & p nek MAS. Toksah la nak kecoh kome tertindas sebab yang kome bayar tu dah kira murah la compare to yang bapak aku bayar 15 taon dulu oke. Kalo tu rega 15 tahun DAHULU, sila-sila la calculate sendirik! Walo pun tak paham tapi aku tak la heran pun sebab rata- rata yang aku tengok orang kita ni memang ader satu attitude yang sinonim dengan dorang, which is nak barang bagus punya tapi tak sanggup nak kuar modal lebey sikit, plus kecoh lebih!

Aku dah pandai baca tulisan korea! Yeeeehhh

Antara jipun, cina & korea, tulisan korea yang paling senang sebab tulisan dia guna alphabet macam abc, while tulisan jipun guna suku kata or gambar and tulisan cina pula solely guna gambar. Actually all the tulisan based on tulisan cina & korea pun still ader yang guna tulisan gambar. Tapi yang ni valid untuk tulisan je sebab kalau sebutan, aku surrender. Memang la sebutan korea ni yang paling payah.

Tapi tak pe. Now we are talking about tulisan jek, bukan sebutan okek! See la how dorang write in hangul

사랑해 = saranghae, which is I Love U
ㅅ=s
ㅏ=a
ㄹ=r
ㅏ=a
ㅇ=ng
ㅎ=h
ㅐ=ae

Kalau pandai baca tapi tak tahu makna, tak de maknanya kan. Aku tak susah pon, pas baca.. Suh la inchik google translate. Tek yu mr google =)

Hari ni ofis kosong! AF1 ke Terengganu, ZA ke Batu Pahat, MrW & ZH ke Belaga, Dauz ke Batu Gajah.. Sunyi!!!!

Time aku dalam lift, nak turun g bekfas ngan AF2. Terbertembung dengan geng pokcik 3 orang. Lepas dorang 'berdebat' pasal how nice I looked today and commented on my clothes from up to toe, one of the geng mention yang dia ni selalu la susah nak cam aku sebab aku ni everytime 'berubah-ubah'... referring to the way I dressed. I have to admit that he is totally right. My clothing sense are like, TWISTED =)

Tetiba aku terasa macam nak highlight pasal one of the gang yang suka guna words like, "jumpa besok" or "jumpa next week". I think my friend is kinda, polite, for always using such words to say goodbye to a friend whom he used to see everyday, even used it on sms too. Parents raised you well my friend =)

Pancet

Malang memang tak berbau ke??.. Whyyyyyy!!!

Tadi lepas kursus qhatam, aku dengan gembira memecut ke kereta. Sampai-sampai dekat kereta, nightmare yang aku terbayang-bayang telah menjadik realiti. Walaupon sekadar tayar pancit, still, a nightmare sebab aku tak pernah lagi le tukar tayar sendirik! Nasib ada hero bole tolong. Dalam demam, dak adik gagah juga la tolong tukarkan tayar. Luckily tayar spare aku ader angin.

So, ari ni aku baru taw SuJu akan datang kat Mesia lagi bulan Mac ni tuk konsert. Walaopun tak confirm lagi date nya, apa pon terjadik aku sure akan mengattendkan diri dan beratur panjang lagi membayar ratusan hengget. Sanggup!!

Hari ni sampai besok aku kena attend kursus sistem akon kat main branch. Macam jauh jek aku story cengini padahal main branch aku tu kat bawah opis jek. Matilah aku.. banyak kerja aku tak settle lagi. Alaaa.. ni yang aku nak start cemas nih.

Tadi yang ajar time aku kursus tu suh kitaorang semua perkenalkan diri. Sampai part aku, belum sempat aku bukak mulut.. inchik tu

Inchik cikgu : Eh! ko ni macam kenal kan. Bukan yang selalu jumpa dekat DBKLz tu ker? Hahaha (DBKLz tu tempat berlibur kitaorang time sarapan ngan lunch)
Aku : Haha

Memang kitaorang kenal pun sebab aku pernah la attend kursus yang dia ajar & ofis dia bawah opis aku je. Selang stengah jam pastu, tengah-tengah dia mengajar, tetiba dia tanya aku.

Inchik cikgu : Ha! Apsal aku tak nampak ko kat DBKLz pagi tadi?
Aku : Hahah

Dipanjangkan story mory lagi, time tea break lepak borak ngan member yanga attend kursus tu. Tetiba dia tanya aku

Member : Encik tu kater slalu jumpa dekat DBKLz tu kenapa?
Aku : Haha.

Rupa-rupanya ader gak orang wonder moral of the story about aku, inchik cikgu dan DBKLz.

Going Seoul

Although I said the decision would only be made final next month, I can't no longer wait. It is final, already, that I am definitely going to the land of Mr Heechul and Super Junior a.k.a South Korea this year! So lazy to do passport renewal and not to mention about government servant need to apply a permission for going outside Malaysia.

The thing i worry about going there is the language barrier! If it were China, i might understand few words and a lil' bit of their writing but, Korea, I am clueless! i did watch their dramas, A LOT to be exact, and listened to their songs, most, but.. I cant even pronounce a single word of their language correctly!! I dont even know how to translate YOU and I to their language.

But. Slowly. I have lots of thing to proceed now such as apply for salary adjustment which is a priority of course!

Tomorrow is my off day!! Yaaaayyy

I am planning for a short trip to the land of my favorite boy a.k.a Heechul middle of this year. As to celebrate my 30th year alive. Yaaayyy!!! The decision could only be made final within next month because there will be a possibility my dad will be off to Hajj. The first thing i need to do now is renew my passport!

08.30 : Let's Go Travel - Thailand
09.00 : Miss No Good
11.13 : Mary me Mary (final)
14.50 : Oh! My School
20.40 : Jungle Fish

You can call me on Sunday on Monday on tuesday,
on wednesday, on thursday
And friday is best

Never never on a Saturday, on Saturday
Coz it's my Television day

While i was waiting at the Kwsp, a guy approached me and said

G : Excuse me. Is what you're holding now a digital frame?
M : Nop. This is an i-pad.
G : Can it function like a real laptop?
M : bla bla bla
G : ???? ????
M : bla bla blas blas

There goes a question and answer session between both of us. I guess he was satisfied with all my answers. Yeah.. I became an ambassador for Apple i-pad without contract and paycheck today.

Tengah aku rilek2 sempena Thaipusam, aku dapat sms dari my mother. Tanya khabar bla bla bla.. then she mentioned about a PTPTN letter I received. She told me this..

" Jangan lupa bayar ok sayang.. jangan jadi kacang lupakan kulit"

Whatttt!! Mommmm!!!!...

Aku p seminar regarding sterilizer dengan ZA, dekat Cititel jek pun. Si ZA ni boleh tak perasan hotel tu kat mana padahal hotel tu ari-ari dia tengok sebab betul2 mengadap cubicle dia. Mula-mula the talk quite boring tapi bila da sampai part yang interesting, nak kena balik opis la pulak tuk discussion dengan kontraktor. Janji kol 10, last2 11.30 baru aku sampai ofis. Projek yang ni memang sengal! Aku pun tak faham macamana la dorang manage. One thing yang aku nampak, there is a different between bumi & x-bumi kontraktur in terms of project managment. Which, amat menghampakan pada aku yang listed as bumi ni.

Apa ni? Ni gambar pemandangan kat Bulkit Broga, somewhere kat Semenyih. Aku belum sampai lagi pon, ni preview jek.. hehe.. member aku ajak p panjat ujung minggu ni. InsyaAllah kalau tak der aral akan ku sampai. Kalo tak sampai, akan ku mintak gambar dari kamera korang yerr =D

Lepas membuang masa ZA hampir sejam bertenggek depan dia & suh dia layan aku kill the time before balik, aku sambung lagi kegilaan aku untuk hari isnin dengan tengok Channel 391. Sudahnya, sejam aku ketawa terbahak-bahak tengok oh! My school Christmas Edition gara-gara my favorite boy, budak HeeChul datang melawat member dia HongKi. Sampai cramp urat2 muka nih.. punya lawak la tengok aksi dorang. 

Aku dapat bos baru hari ni.. wah! makin bertambah la golongan kumbang di ofis aku. Kesian aku! Nasib gak tak tambah pompuan ;p Ngeheheh

Hari ni aku berdua-duaan dengan inchik big boss. Ngehehe.. kitaorang berdua-duaan p ronda site la! First time bos datang lawat site kitaorang yang ini. Nasib pengurusan & workmanship untuk projek ni kira the best la among projek yang team aku handle, so bos pun tak banyak komen. Tapi yang aku tak paham tu, bos aku yang lagi 2 or 3 tahun lagi nak pencen tu rilek je naik sampai tingkat 6 padahal aku half way dah mengah.Siap stop lagi kat tangga. Bila aku story rasa kagum aku kat big boss.. taw apa dia jawap? Aku pun mengah jugak, tapi depan staf perempuan kan.. kena la tunjuk gagah.. hahahaha..

Luckily semua in order. Baknya kalau aku bawak p rojek belah pantai timur.. mau bos aku pening kepala.

Super Heechul Super Fun

Super Junior-Miss Intimate (English Subtitled)

Ari ni aku nak update list sport anime & drama/ movie (jipun sajork) yang da pernah aku tengok to date:

ANIME :
1. Slamdunk - Basketball
2. Dear boys - Basketball
3. Giant Killing - Soccer
4. Kickers - Soccer
5. Fly High - Gymnastic
6. Whistle - Soccer
7. Eyeshield 21 - American football
8. Major - Baseball
9. Big wind up! - Baseball
10.Prince of Tennis - Tennis
11.Ring Ni Kakeru - Boxing
12.Shion No Ou - Shogi
13.Cross game - Baseball
14.Beck - Basketball

DRAMA/ MOVIE
1.Rookies - Baseball
2.Buzzer beat - Basketball
3.Tumbling - Gymnastic
4.Change - Racing
5.Water boys - Synchronized swimming
6.Prince of Tennis - Tennis

See.. I am a die hard fan! mmmm.. Even so, I don't like real sport!

Is Miley Cyrus trying to be Lady Gaga junior?!! Sis! You got other thing to do, don't you? But, I will praise you a 'lil. Your voice kinda suitable for Gaga's type of song. But, please. Do something else okay.

I was testing my driving & direction-searching skill today. The destination is set to be the Head Quarters at Jalan Sultan Salahuddin. Here is the chronologies of the test.

2.05 :  Circling Mid-Valley. Find an exit to Jalan Loke Yew
          Confidence level high. Check!
          Drive drive drive. Straight
 
2.10 :  It's a round about! Think. Left or right?
          Right!
          Nooooo... It should be left. The ramp baby!

          Lost at last!

          Still, confidence level locked at 90%

          Think. Think. Ahhh.. U-turn.
          None of the thing the so-called U-turn along the
          direction.

          So.. back to Mid-valley.
          Start all over again.

2.30   And succeed...

Super Junior Heechul

One of my favorite member of Super Junior, who look like a girl sometimes =) Brother Kim HeeChul. Thiese two videos from YouTube is him showing his talent besides dancing and sang catchy songs. He played piano while sang Winter Sonata ost..

I am having a fever at the moment. Please do not worry because I am only having a K-pop fever, especially for Super Junior and CN Blue ;p. Pstt! I watched super junior's No other video clip a xxx times over and over. Love the triangle dance boys!

It is undeniable that Korean's music wave is 'attacking' listeners all over the world now days. For me, i loved the fact that they created a 'beyond beautiful' melody..weather it is catchy, or a love song. Although i could not understand a single words, but that doesn't matter. Their music is like a magnet to my ears. Multi-talented entertainers.. dancing boys and girls.. One thing for sure, they has more to offer than just a pretty face.

From what i read.. The road to became an entertainers in Korea were never one easy path. I read they needed to undergo a training for a period of time. But, here is a thing.. for an above 30 boys and girls.. I think it is not cool anymore to be in a singing band, i am right, right? :p

Friday has come to an end.. This quote is valid for current week only..meaning of course there will be another Friday =)

Big girl is so tired.. So sleepy.. So lazy. All she ever think about is bed! Bed! Bed!

Hari ni ader miting sidang redaksi majalah skola.. Ett! Majalah jabatan. Silap lak..tu cerita 13 taon dulu. Dulu aku pernah jadi wartawan.. Wartawan majalah skola je.. Haha. Tapi walopun takat wartawan majalah skola jek, kitaorang perna la wat liputan our current pm tem dia datang melawat skola dulu. Skola cemerlang la katakan.. Hahaha.. buekkk. Time tu memang dia emsem lagi.. ;p

Tapi one thing yang aku tak paham.. Aku ni near da engine yang jaga projek, membazir taw kepakaran aku yang tak pakar ni tuk involve wat magazin! Masuk kali ni da 3 kali aku terlibat wat benda alah nu. Nasib last year ader terpampang gambar aku besar dalam majalah tu..haha. Saper kat jabatan kerja tak rajin ni tak kenal aku, sila la rujuk majalah kitaorang. Kekeke

Setelah sekian lama mengintai, akhirnya terkeluarlah juga duit dari poket aku yang nipis ni tuk membeli buku berega 75.80! Waaaaa... Pokaiiii! Jahat la MPH ni!

Lama dah aku tak beli buku rupanya. Silap2 sok kalau habit aku ni berterusan, aku ble buka small library. Walaupun aku tak baca buku-buku yang aku beli, aku suka beli buku. Beli buku tu bagi aku kepuasan. As usual handbag or kasut tak mampu la nak menggoda iman aku, tapi kalau buku dan dvd.. Lemah!

Tadi time aku nak turun lunch.. terbertembung dengan my friend si botak dekat lobi lift. Lepas dah lebih kurang 3 or 4m berselisih, maka berlakulah konversasi berikut antara si botak dan si tak botak sambil membelakangi antara satu sama lain.

Si botak : Eii.. Na
Si X botak : aaa
Si botak : Ko da 3 kan!
Si X botak : aaa??
Si botak : 30 taon! wahahaha
Si X botak : cheh! wahahah

Hampeh budak ini. Bukan nak tanya khabar aku yang jarang2 dia jumpa ni. Umur aku yang diingatnya! Aku taw la aku cumil.. wahaha. Last week ada kakak kat opis aku tanya.. "Awak 26 yer?" Aku "wahahahahah.. 26 la sangat kak". And tadi tengah aku kat kedai beg, amoi kat kedai tu tetiba bagitaw aku "beg skola ada dekat belakang!" Apakah maksud amoi tu.. dia suh aku beli beg skola tuk 'anak2' or suh beli untuk diri ku sendiris... wahahaha. Kesimpulannya.. apa ada pada umur kalau yang bertambah cuma kelimumur! Daaa

今天是1月2日.. 我希望我能说华语. 真的！

Thanks to Goku Dou High School and Mr Dean Fujioka for making me came out with such wish! I am currently watching the drama, which, I am addicted to it, but, the drama were only subbed until episode 11th.Well, despite the 'missing' translation, I still want to continue watching it until the 30th episode... Chaiyo!

I so looooved his eyes! He is a Japanese, fluent in English and able to speak Mandarin and Cantonese as well. What's not to like, rite?!  Yeayy..I tend to favour guy who could speak different languages eh? hehe. Geun Suk can converse in Japanese =), and... wode Jin Akanishi speak Engrish whatt! Carshrimp!

But this...

..this is not Dean Fujioka. This one is Kamenashi Kazuya from Japanese group KATTUN. Looking at him kinda remind me of Dean and vice versa. I don't know.. something somewhere that made me thought that way. They were both Japanese, only Dean is older and hotter ;p 

Though I loved Geun Suk's smile and Jin's appealing face, I am more mesmerized by Dean Fujioka's eyes.. And yes, this is my first 2011's entry and I am talking about his eyes!

So.. Happy New Year 新年快了! May this new year bring a new meaning to life.

Thank you Allah for letting me breath until this moment..
Thank you Allah for everything you gave me..

Thank you mom and dad for being born and met in this world..
Thank you mom and dad for having me as a daughther..

Thank you friends for always being my friends..

Goodbye 2010

Hari ni hari terakhir 2010. Rasa macam sekejap je masa berlalu. Sedar-sedar dah nak menjejak tahun baru. Berlainan dengan tahun lepas,aku memasuki tahun baru 2010 dengan perasaan bercelaru, untuk tahun 2011 ni aku dapat rasa perasaan yang positif. Tambah-tambah bila the one thing yang mengambil masa bertahun untuk aku resolve dah selesai, which buat aku rasa amat amat lega.

Lots of things happened in 2010.. In Life..work.. Dengan berakhirnya hari ni, maka rasmilah aku telah berjaya melalui satu tahun dengan jayanya. Azam untuk tahun 2011 rasanya belum ada. Aku cuma harap hidup aku simple dan aku masih aku, cuma lebih baik dari versi sebelum. InsyaAllah...

As of today, hari yang indah indeed.. Mula la nak melodrama ;) blame KBS sebab siarkan 2010 song festival semalam & drama awards malam ni. Especially now ni adik geun suk standing on the stage winning something i am unable to figure out due to tak de translation. Daaa?!!

Ibu.. mummmii.. nenekkk.. daaddii.. aku mengantukkkk!!!

Apa hal la dengan aku ni. Makan aper la agaknya sampai ngantuk je memanjang. Nasib ngantuk, kalau lapar jek memanjang lagi naya. Kang banyak lak kerusi opis patah gara-gara aku over weight. So.. misuk cuti.. yeaaayyy. Apa lagi... layan hobi la ni.

Tadi g Sushi Zanmae.. wah! sedapppp! Memang berbaloi-baloi & jaoh lagi best dari Sushi King. Alkisahnya.. Aku baru nak belek drawing, tetiba dapat call suh turun tuk discussion. Naik2 opis je nampak ada post-it note kat screen komputer. Note tu tulis "Jung oppa.... Aku tak yah baca habis. 2 patah perkataan tu je da cukup wat aku taw saper la pengirim post-it tu. Wahaha..

Layan KBS song festival.. Daaa

Tak faham kenapa aku asyik mengantuk jek dua tiga hari ni.. aishhh!!

Claim si kawan tu aku da berjaya settle. Yeayyy.. Tadi aku lepak miting. Yer... miting tu pun di kira lepak gak. Ada la one of this doctor, pompuan.. a pengarah which is a Datuk. Tapi kalao tengok muka, nampak muda lagi. Wah! Jeles I dengan kemudaan beliau. Hahaha.

Besok aku nak wat aper ye? Cheee.. macam tak de kerja jek padahal drawing banyak je aku tak belek lagi & SKT aku pon tak settle gara-gara aku punya status kat Hrmizz now is PUTUS SANDANG! Unbelievable kan. Sapo la yang kejam kat aku ni. Now tengah layan Bandage.. kalo aku buleh ader pet macam Sumire Chan dalam kimi wa petto, aku tamow adik Geun Suk kali ni. Aku nak wat budak Akanishi Jin ni pet aku. Wahaha.. Even though dia tak le masuk kategori emsem di mata aku tapi his face look 'expensive' dow! So wanna have!

Marah!

Seumur hidup aku, aku belum pernah benci orang walau macamana pun orang tu buat pada aku. Walaupun aku pemarah, aku tak mampu pun untuk simpan rasa marah apa lagi mendendami seseorang. Bila aku menolak untuk berada disekeliling orang yang menyakiti aku, aku cuma menjaga hati aku agar tidak dipengaruhi oleh perasaan negatif. Pada aku, aku cuma anggap semua yang berlaku tak pernah berlaku, dan aku tak pernah langsung kenal orang tu.

Pemikiran aku memang semudah itu.

Tapi bila ada orang yang tak faham bahasa, memang membencikan! Apalah susahnya sekadar untuk menghormati perasaan seseorang? Apalah sukarnya sekadar memenuhi permintaan kecil berbanding layanan buruk kamu pada seseorang yang tak layak pun untuk kamu sakiti?

Pagi tadi aku jaga kol 6.19 am.. so tak jadik lah tak cuti. Aku da berjaya akhirnya abiskan Hi My Sweetheart. Now tengan layan Yukan Club. Tetiba jek aku bekenan kat Akanishi Jin ni.. dari ari tu lagi aku raser dia cam cumil. Thanks la to line tenet yang behave hari ni.

And at the end.. claim si kawan yang aku konon-konon nak proses tu tak bersentuh jugak le jawabnya. Besok je lah aku tengok ye. Memandangkan KPI korang pun da tercapai kan.. so..kita sama-sama rilek la yek. Stat besok aku kerja sungguh-sungguh balik. Woops! SKT aku tak settle lagi. Mati lerr..

Ari ni lepak dekat rumah. Tengah fikir2.. besok nak guna ke tak cuti yang aku da apply last week, since my sis pon da balik. Betuah adik aku ni, aku apply cuti nak bawak dia jalan..dia balik U plak. Then, bila toleh claim kuntraktur setebal 1/2 inci kat sebla ni, aku tetiba jek cemas. Ari tu time aku bawak balik, berkobar-kobar nak semak konon during weekend. Sudahnya.. duk jadi perhiasan jek kat atas meja tu.

Ada orang brain-damaged cari aku dari last week lagi. Dia ni memang dari dulu otak dia ada short sikit..emm. bukan sikit, banyak kot! Aku pun tak paham. Malas nak layan.

Nak keluar jalan-jalan dekat luar tu rasa malas sebab panas amat. Jemur kasut, 2 jam je dah kering. Tu laa.. ingat budak skola je ke yang kena basuh kasut. Aku yang tua-tua ni pun kena basuh kasut oke! Saper suh aku beli kasut kanvas. Orang suh pakai kasut pvc or kulit g kerja, aku g pakai kasut kanvas & getah. This type of kasut, sport shoe tapi tumit tinggi.. aku memang gemar gila kasut cengini. Aku rasa ader la 5 pasang kot kat rak tu. Takder ke servis basuh kasut eak??

Lepak kat rumah je hari ni. Semalam my sis sungguh2 masak spaghetti. So ari ni kitaorang makan tido jek la. Heavenn...

Actually plan nak g umah my aunt dekat Klang tapi macam malas plak. Taw la time2 monthly cycle ni kan. Badan pun rasa macam tak sehat. Rasa macam nak demam pun ada.

Seingat aku ari ni krismas..tapi rancangan dekat tv malam ni semuanya tak menarik. Tak faham le aku. Now tengok tv3, pasal korea. Wah! Negara adik Geun Suk. Jeles sebab negara dia ada salji. Takpe, one day insya-Allah aku sampai gak.

Hari ni gak aku rasa lega gila! Macam ada satu beban terlepas.. Woooshhhh

Ari ni aku cuti..yeayyyy.. Nak tercabut gak la kaki aku ni sebab letih bejalan cari pokok krismas. Ronda-ronda dekat pavillion tadi. Saja nak pegi tengok krismas deco. Last year ada white deers yang memang chantek. This year takder. Tak best ah!

1st, aku tensi sebab badan naik.
2nd, aku tensi sebab badan naik gak.
3rd, aku tensi sebab, still, badan naik!

Tensi! Tensi! Tensi!
Aku nak blame adik2 aku nih.

Tensi gak sebab nak kena proses claim orang. Aku rasa benda yang paling kritikal dalam job aku ni yekla evaluate dan bayar claim. Dengar cam senang, takat proses & propose je berapa nak bayar. Cakappp, memang le senang.

Tadi result pmr kuar. Takat dapat full A pun kecohs. Aku dulu dapat full gak, rilek je. Mak aku lagi sempoi. Aku bagitau dia aku dapat 9A, dia bagitau aku suh call skolah tuk reconfirm betul ke idak. Tak de pun sesi tuntut adiah & drama air mata bagai. Kecozs!!

Tengahari tadi daus ajak aku ngan ZH g makan tempat mahal..tanak makan kat dbkl katanya. Lepas aku dah sungguh2 suggest banyak tempat makan, alih2 dia kater kita p oasis jek la. Cheh! Ok la..Kira mahal la sket dari kat dbkl tu. Lepas makan, kitaorang bertenggek dekat centre court tengok santa klaus kat bawah tu.

Sebab badan daus besar, kitaorang buat lawak santa. Ramai orang nak tangkap gambar ngan santa tu, siap ada yang peluk. Daus pun apa lagi.. Dia kater dia pun nak jugak kena peluk macam santa tu, so, ZH suggest dia request kat santa tu tukar shift. Kitaorang boleh bertenggek kat situ lama sambil mengekek.

Dua mamat ni sporting..jenis yang kalo buat lawak kenakan dorang, dorang join skali gelakkan diri sendiri..& aku memang suka kenakan dorang..hahaha.

Ah tertekannn... Aku cam tensih pla hari ni. Awat ntah. Baru ingat nak cuti lama sket next week, ader plak orang kejar2 bontotz. Menyampah sunggoh.

Now tengah layan citer jipung.. Tumbling. Siyukkkssss!!

I am almost unable to recognize my own car this morning. Thanks to 'long time no wash!" Hahaha. When it came to car wash, I am the laziest. Why can't just the rain do the washing eh?.  Rain only made all the dust stick on the car's body instead of cleaning. Wae????

And I felt so sleepy all day long! Wae? Did I eat something wrong, or did anything out of usual eh? Mmmm.. think! think! Not that i can remember. Wae tto????!!!

This week, I disobey the 'avoid fast foods' sign. Two times KFC! Almost 3 actually. Adik la ni punya pasal. Lapar kak.. KFC jum kak! Dia kurus tak pe lah.. aku ni lemak jek dah lebih bepuluh kilo.

Dia sebok nak ngorat amoi kononnya. Skali ader minah tu usha dia, dia pi lari sembunyi belakang aku. Ko ape halll dik! Tapi sejambu2 dia, tak lawan adik aku lagi sorang. Jalan ngan aku, dia sibuk ngorat awek. Yang ni 'ko aper hal kuasa 2'. Sah-sah awek2 tu ingat dia jantan gatai, padahal, aku ni tak bersalah pon.

Since kawan aku mostly lelaki since zaman kanak-kanak ribena, aku memang tak heran dah la kalo dorang ni perangai semua pelik2. Sampai buat aku ngeri dan terlalu hati-hati memilih. Mungkin sebab ni jugak ler aku pernah 2 kali jek bechenta & ended up makan ati bila putus chenta. Hehehe.. Past is past. Walopun gitu, sok kalo ada anak, aku nak anak lelaki satu padang bola + satu je keeper pompuan ;p

Moto Show 2010 yang secara overallnya..

A disappointment!

Today aku gelakkan adik. Aku tanya dia, apakah perasaan dia naik lrt since ini first time dia naik lrt. Sakit kaki kak! Hahaha.. memang ler. Selalu nek keta kan. And, for the first time dalam sejarah hidup aku menjejakkan kaki ker The Mall. Wahahaha.. keciannn.

Before tu adik dengan semangat berkobar2 plan nak singgah kat banyak tempat. Pas PWTC, konon nak p the mall, Berjaya Times Square.. Pavillion.. ntah maner lagi dah. Last destination kat BTS.. pas tu dia dah tak mampu nak jalan. Hahaha.. tau susah!

30 is a a great number tapi bila tengok orang yang berusia above 30, aku rasa dorang dah macam makin kureng hot! Seriously! Haha.. Sama jek perempuan or lelaki. Still, there are women yang umor the above 30 still nampak younger tapi aku tak nampak la pulak pada lelaki. They will look different.

Next year aku da 30. Yeay.. Tak sangka dah bulan 12..rasa macam sekejap jek masa berlalu. Bakal menjejak umor 30 taon, da 2 kali plan nak kawen and now still single-but-not-available! Walobagaimanapun, malang sekali sebab kerja pun bukanlah priority dalam hidup aku. Even tersenarai dalam top list, to have a simple life adalah perkara yang paling penting pada aku. All i ever wanted is a simple and uncomplicated life. I wish to stay happy on my own way, just like now. Kalau tuhan bagi aku peluang redo semula hidup ni, I still choose to be me =)

Today is Sunday-alike.. What i do? Layan citer Rookies lagi untuk kesekian kalinya. Wahahah.. Walopun banyak lagi citer lain yang aku suka, aku rasa Rookies is still no 1. Maybe sebab sport drama, aku rasa joyous dan bersemangat jek. Everytime tengok pun still dapat goosebumps. Kali ni da masuk kali ke berapa puluh ntah aku tengok citer ni.

Baru pas bekfast.. Kalau kol 2 petang kira bekfast lagi ke eak? Heh. Bukan sebab aku baru bangun laa.. Awal lagi dah bangun tadi. Bukak2 mata terus on RMVP player yang baru jek dibeli ngan rega 65 hengget. Murah giler sebab offer. Cinoet jek, 2 inch.sq.. Tapi berbaloi2 sebab ble direct tengok movie dari external drive. Gambor pun chantek.. Ble play subtitle, view gambar..dokumen & dengar lagu. Kebetulan plak aku baru pas donlod bersungguh-sungguh semalam kann.. Lagi la seronot.

Aku rasalah.. Antara citer jipun ngan korea.. Senang lagi nak paham orang jipun cakap sebab lidah orang korea bebelit. Gila susah nak cakap sampai aku tak dapat detect the easiest words like kata ganti untuk "aku & kamu"!

Semalammm yang hangat! Pinjam fevret quotation Paly jap. Kol 7.30 aku da gerak dari umah menuju ke tempat bekumpul, somewher kat ulu yam. Luckyly gps aku behave, so aku sampai exactly at the promised time and place tanpa sesat. Aku membontot le mana2 keta yang slow & drive dengan speed 50 km sejam sebab takot sampai awal sangat.

Gila seronok.. Tapi rugi sebab aku tak join dorang mandi gara-gara malas nak panjat tangga yang tingginya ala2 kuil batu caves tuk p amek baju dalam kereta. Takat p tempat yang cetek jek la. Cedeyyy! Tapi enjoyy. Usaha aku tuk mempertahankan kekeringan baju hampir tercabar dek gara2 dengki nak join dorang main air kat tempat air yang deras. Hampir gak aku jatuh dalam air. Konon nak melompat atas batu, skali tepijak tempat belumut. Saket gila kaki. Sengalnya terasa sampai ke hari ni.

Ari ni aku tak keje. Mari merehatkan badan dan kaki yang saket. Sambil2 tu, aku dah khatam donlod 16 episode of you're beautiful & 10 of kimi wa petto. Internet connection aku pun behave lately. Dia macam taw2 jek aku plan nak tukar plan tu hari.

Tengok kimi wa petto nih.. Dengki plak sebab dia ada a cute boy as her pet. Nak pet cam Matsumoto Jun!! Marah ibu nanti.. Heh. Korea pon nak buat citer ni, kononnya adik geun suk da kompem jadik pet. MatsuJun ni memang one cute pet, so, aku harap adik geun suk buat yang the best. Gila comey mamat ni sampai muat dalam kotak.. Haha. Adik geun suk aku rasanya lebey tinggi dari Jun.. Macamana agaknya dorang nak masukkan dia dalam kotak. Wonder nih! Tapi aku sapspen gak nak tengok adik geun suk nari sebab dia nari tak comey..hahaha..

Aku layan cerita Mary Stayed Out All Nights currently, which is still airing at Korea. Hero dia of course la adik Geun Suk aku. Aku nak kata suka sangat cerita nih, biasa-biasa je lah. Even though hero ngan heroin dia best, sound track and jalan cerita dia tak ler sehebat mana. 

Mula-mula aku terfikir gak, apalah mengarut jek rambut hero ngan heroin nih. Sekali inchik GooGle bagitaw, cerita ni is an adaption from comic book which is still on going. Itulah alkisahnya gambar katun Mary ngan Mu Gyul kat bawah tu yang diadaptasi ke drama.

Kalao cerita korea, aku cuma layan drama jek sebab most of filem dorang mengecewakan due to jalan cerita dia cam ntah apa-apa & cam semua pun tiba-tiba je. Sepanjang aku tengok filem dorang, aku cuma berkenan kat Itaewon Murder Case je. Bukanlah sebab adik Geun Suk berlakon dalam citer tu tapi it really is a good film.

Aku minat this two sisters Hong Jung Eun & Hong Mi Ran, which is a screenwriter. 3 top Korean drama yang aku suka amat which is Sassy Girl Chunhyang, My Girl & You're Beautiful written by them. The first thing yang aku suka about these three is jalan cerita dia yang entertaining, a scene yang sangat romantic which perempuan jek yang ble imagine and translate to an act, hero ngan heroin, pastu soundtrack yang memang dibom!  

Now ni geram.. maner la pegi kabel kamera aku nih. Camaner la aku nak upload gambar bekelah tadi nih. Rasa-rasa bule pasang gps tak kat barang-barang sepaya kita dapat track bila ilang???

Kinda tensih at the moment sebab mata tamaw tutup. Sok pagi nak kena bangun awal g bertoghether-gather kat ulu nih. Silap-silap kang, orang sebok picnic.. aku bizi tido. Wah! tensih!

Tadi layan adik Geun Suk lagi. Aku baru perasan that he kinda remind me of my puppy love, especially his smile and eyes. Yer.. tahu la anjeng tu haram. Heheh.. time tu he is the one and only creature yang boleh buat aku gegar and berdebar. Pinjam kata-kata bos aku "rasa kaki cam tak jejak bumi". Toksah bagi dia senyum, nampak kelibat dia dari jauh pon aku dah cemas. Rasa macam nak tercabut jantung aku kalau dia ada. Time tu budak skola lagi.. innocent! so, since aku sedar diri aku budak itu time.. takat admire jek la. Takder pon terfikir lebih. Apsal aku tak fikir lebih eak waktu tu? hehehe..

So, drama korea tu sebenarnya tak tipu pun bila hero or heroin like Minam dalam You're Beautiful tu rasa jantung dia cam nak explode disebabkan oleh Tae Kyung memandangkan jantung aku ni pon pernah gak experienced rasa macam nak terkeluar tu.

So, kesimpulan dia, walaupon kita minat hero yang emsom, come, putih, tinggi & dahi licin.. tak semestinya dalam real life kita akan pilih orang yang seangkatan dengan creature yang emsom, come, putih, tinggi & dahi licin macam aktor tu sebab soal hati tiada sapa pon taw. Ya.. macam takder kiatan kan dengan entry aku kesimpulan ni. Hesh! Ni semua mata la ni punya pasal. & senyuman Geun Suk.. and kerut dahi Dong Wook.

Kesimpulan dari kesimpulan.. bila aku nak tido?!!!!!!

Abes merengsa muka aku gara-gara mandi steam tadi. Cop. Merengsa tu apa eak? Hahah.. Tadi aku g buat verifikasi stok kat cawangan orang. Cam ntah apa2 jek p kira stok kat stor. Yelah, kira da membazir kepakaran dua engineer mekanikal &elektrik yang tak ler berapa nak pakar pon. Tapi. Still. Bazir.

So, officially.. Dua hari aku hidup tanpa line phone. Kompem berbulu member2, esp kontraktor yang nak kejar claim sebab aku as kaunter pertanyaan tak ble dihubungi. Nasiblah dorang sebab aku takder piagam pelanggan. Kalo tepon tu company bayar, aku tadak hal kome nak komplen. Tapi since tepon tu aku beli dan bayar sendirik, suka ati aku le kan. Apahal kome nak hangen, kome ke yang bayar? Hahaha.. Tadi micro sim adapter aku da sampai. So, phone aku da ble function la. Tu pon kalo aku tak insert kat ipad ni. Muhuhahaha..

iPad is the best! Walaupun rega dia ni agar boleh tahan mahalnya.. Tapi memang berbaloi-baloi.

The best part yang aku suka tentang iPad ni?
1st - Senang nak power up and shut off, tak macam laptop, and even lagi senang dari handphone.
2nd - walaupon speed line tenet aku cuma takat 3G je, aku rasa aku macam guna highspeed connection sebab memang sangat la pantas sampai aku pon macam tak perchaiya.
3rd - nengok movie? Superb! Stream dari site like drama crazy, daily motion ker.. Kejap je. YouTube toksah cakap lah. Tak yah donlod pun tak pe. Aku baru jek pas nengok citer itaewon murder case. Rasa-rasa kalo guna laptop, it took twice the time or more tuk loading each movie.
4th - touch screen! Keyboard dia lagi besar dari keyboard laptop, and, tak yah pon susah-susah nak tekan bersungguh2 time tulis entry kat blog ni. Touch manja sudah.
5th - pas ni aku tak yah da susah2 p melancong tuk tangkap gambar.. Buka jek wiki travel. Dengan screen ipad yang clear amat nih.. Tak dapek nak explain sebab aku seronok giler.
6th - nak dengar lagu? Anytime! Stream online for free.. Tak yah da donlod.
7th - nak dengar radio? Play lagu dengan lirik? Baca pdf? Buka power point? function macam laptop? Beres!
8th - takyah dah ler aku nak p mph pasni. Baca jek ebook yang menarik tertarik lagi dibom & bawak ipad lagi ringan & nipis dari buku.
9th - application free yang menarik tertarik ko nimang dibom! contoh? piano! sebijik cam main piano betui.
10th - tulisan kat screen kecik sangat? kurang jelas? nak map? Kalo nak zoom in & out, bak kater adik geun suk - just touch and drag and drop it!

Kesimpulan entry kali ni? Belilah buah apple! Hidup buah apple!

Thanx to adik Geun Suk yang dah buat hari-hari aku over ceria. Wahahaha..

Sebab plan nak p melenchong tak jadi, so, aku divert la cash flow untuk kegunaan membeli seswatu yaktu seswatu yang tak der dalam plan pun.. yaktu iPad! Tak de hujan tak de ribut aku terbeli benda alah tu. Ingat nak beli iphone.. tapi cam tak berbaloi plak bila compare dengan skrin ipad yang besar tu.

Beberapa hari ni aku dah lupa diri. Wahahaha. Weekend tu aku langsung tak kuar umah. Turun dari tilam yang empuk ni pun sebab nak p toilet, minum or mengunyah je gara-gara adik Jang Geun Suk. Cumillllll! Paling tak tahan bila dia senyum. Dari pagi sampai ke pagi balik aku still mengadap cerita You're Beutiful. Jap.. aku baru perasan. Tulisan cina kat promotional poster tu cam 'Mei Nan'.. lelaki cantik. Apa2lah..

Mula-mula tengok mamat tu cam x comey.. skali lama-lama tengok.. berdebar jantung i.. hahaha. Cerita yang tak best pada mula-mula, tapi jadik best sebab adik Geun Suk. Sebab aku tua.. tak bley la pulak panggil Geun Suk oppa. Haha.. sedar pun diri yang tua.

Cerita ni buat buat mood aku jadi ceria sampai ke sekarang ni. Mungkin sebab aku puas da nangis dari kol 8 pagi sampai kol 2 pagi, so release la semua aura-aura tensi. That is the good thing about tangisan.. a good therapy indeed! Cita-cita nak p Paris pon cam nak divert p Korea jek gara-gara layan drama Korea. Hahahaha.. Tak jadik la plak nak p Paris bulan 3 ni sebab adik member yang bakal jadik pemandu pelancong tu plan nak balik Mesia. Nanti serabut plan. Tak pe.. nanti bule plan lagi. Yang penting duit jek. Package yang aku dapat tu murah la sebab dalam 5 raban jek, kalo compare dengan package lain la.

I shouldn’t have done that...
I should have pretended not to know...
like I didn’t see it, like I couldn’t see it...
I shouldn’t have looked at you in the first place..

I should have run away...  
I should have pretended I wasn’t listening...
Like I didn’t hear it, like I couldn’t hear it... 
I shouldn’t have heard your love in the first place...

It came without a word

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does it hurt continuously?

Except for the fact that I can’t see you anymore...

And that you’re not here anymore...
Otherwise, it’ll be just the same like before...

Without a word, you made me know what love is...
Without a word, you gave me your love...
Made me fill myself with your every breath...
Then you ran away...

Without a word, love leaves me...
Without a word, love abandons me...
Wondering what to say next...
My lips were surprised...

Without a word, tears starts falling down...
Without a word, my heart is broken...

Without a word, I waited for love....
Without a word, love hurts me...

I’ve become transparent...

I’ve become a fool...
And I cry just by looking at the sky...

Without a word, separation finds me...
Without a word, the end comes to me...
It tool my heart by surprised...
To send you away unexpectedly.

It came without a word...

Without a word, love appears...

Without a word, love vanishes...
Like a fever I’ve had...

Maybe all I have to do is hurt for a while...
Because in the end.. 

The only thing that remains are scars.

Without Words - Jang Geun Suk/ Park Shin Hye

This song surely has a beautiful melody. But it is not just that, it has the most touching lyrics too, that made my eyes rain a tears... and reminded me of an unbearable pain in my heart, that it is always in there.

Not to reminiscing the past, but sadness put me in a state that I never want to experience anything like that ever again... That I am holding on to my heart without courage and desire to open it again.  

"Seumur hidup aku, ini yang pertama, pintu hatiku diketuk.. oleh dua jejaka ;p.. punyai ciri selama ini ku cari....." terngiang-ngiang di kepala, telinga dan hati aku. Macamana ni sekarang!

Semalam pula aku mimpi pasal ular.. orang kata kalo orang yang belum khawen mimpi pasal ular, orang tu akan bertemu pasangan, kena pinang, kawen dan yang seangkatan dengannya. Wahahahah.. Apa-apalah. Aku tengah bekira-kira nak merealisasi impian nak ke London-Paris-Belgium-Holand nih. Sok baru member tu kompem. Tapi aku da berfikir-fikir... mana nak korek duit nih!

First aku nak g 4 negara tu dulu.. pastu aku nak p belah-belah German, switzerland.. madrid. Tu kalo ada duit banyak lah sebab kat situ tempat dia chantek-chantek tapi kos nak p melenchong ke sana mahal. Pastu p Jipun or Korea.. Last p Hong Kong ngan Bandung. Aku nak p dubai juga sebab nak p the largest shopping complex in the world ;p

Ngahntuhuk.. tapi aku kena gak tabah sebab tak sampai sejam lagi Sungkyunkwan Scandal akan ditayangkan. Owh! Best! Best! Since aku ni memang la specis yang tak suka surprise, so aku da siap-siap baca synopsis story tu. Ada jugak orang macam aku ni.. hahaha.

Seriusly aku tak suka surprise sebab walaupun aku mungkin akan suka surprise tu, tapi ada possibility aku behave sebaliknya dan mengecewakan orang yang bagi surprise tu. So complicated! Kesimpulan dia, aku memang tak suka surprise lah!

Saket pinggang plak la time2 cycle nih. Ah! terteqan. Nasib audit dah berakhir ari ni. So far, selamat la MrB dan ZA sebab tak der non conformance dalam findings aku.. ader observation jek. Tu pon lepas aku rasa bersalah sebab tak isu apa-apa langsung. Pakat ngan geng letrik kita kuar observation jek lah.

So.. inilah Sungkyunkwan scandal's Moon Jae Shin who stole my heart.. dia memang cumill as Jae Shin.. tapi as Yoon Ah In, which is his real name.. actually dia idak ler secumill dan se'delicious' ini. Huhuhu...

Segar sket pas mandi. Letih la pulak ari ni. Dekat kol lapan gak la baru menjejak kaki ke umah.Dengan perut yang sakit menahan nature's call kecik gara-gara jem tadi dan kaki yang saket sebab sejuk amat dalam keta..rasa-rasa tak lama lagi zzz la ni.

Tadi makan daging masak lemak cili padi yang pedazz tapi sedapzz. Kata kat n.9 kann.. Teringat time zaman2 skola dulu. Sebab suka sangat masakan orang N9, aku pernah bercita-cita la nak bermastuatin kek negeri minangkabau ni satu masa dulu tapi kalao kawen, aku nak kawen degan orang perak. Wahaha... Sebab apa ntah ;p

Banjjag Banjjag!

Banjjag banjjag means bling bling in korean.. wahaha.. now I know.

Gara-gara terbuka channel KBS la nih aku dah start layan korean drama. Memula tu tegok Sungkyunkwan scandal.. pastu citer Rain plak belakon.. Fugitive-Plan B. Aku terbekenan kat drama Sungkyunkwan scandal tu. Citer dia best! So, nak dipendekkan cerita.. at the moment aku tengah layan tengok citer tu kat internet sambil-sambil layan Hannah Montana. wahaha.. umor da 30 pon still layan citer budak2 kan.

Dua hari ni aku langsung tak kuar umah. Totally saving my skin from the sun bah ni. Furaiday tu aku dah oye-oye somewhere kann.. Patutnya aku berhujung minggu di Penang. Gara-gara besok den kono p somban, tak dapek la join teman p bejoli kek Penang tu ha. Den ni da lamo da mengidam nak p jalan-jalan cari hal kek situ. Kalau ikut ati.. mau yo den ni cuti. Aihhh.. malang eh nasib den!

Now tengah layan So you think you can dance.. so looove to watch people dance..

Before tu sebok potong rambut. Macam biasalah.. potong sendirik. Member-member bila dengar aku potong rambut sendirik, dorang pelik. Rasa-rasa ada jugak kot yang ngutuk aku kedekut dalam ati.. wahahaha.. Aku memang dah terror dah potong rambut sendirik. Nak kater style aper, aku pon tak taw. Yang pasti barber kat mesia ni tak dapat carik makan lah kalo aku bukak salon.. kekekek..

Rasa-rasa sekali jek kot aku pernah p salon potong rambut. Tu pun balik umah kena modified sendirik sebab minah tukang potong tu ampeh! Normally kalo tak my mom, aku potong jeklah ikut suka or suh member touch up sket. Dulu-dulu aku kena pakai 2 cermin, kot la rambut aku senget kat blakang.. now dah tak payah. Terror seh! Wahahahahaha.. Ayat banggas. Aku stat potong rambut sendirik since skolah menengah. Sebab tak mampu.. budak skolah kan.. 5 hengget tu pon kira mahal. Tapi sebab 5 hengget tu mahal la aku belajar potong rambut sendirik, start potong kain skolah & baju sendirik. Survival yang berbaloi! Bagi mereka yang fikir aku pelik tu, tengok skarang.. aku tak yah pon susah-susah nak p salon or carik tailor cam dorang. Jimat! Jimat! Wahahaha...

Dengan bantuan GPS, aku berjaya juga sampai ke site tanpa sesats! Wahahaha... Macamlah putrajaya tuh jaoh bebenor. Aku direct dari rumah jek. Malas nak naik keta opis. Saja lah aku nak berchenta duk kat site yang plan sikit punya bagus nak p lawat selalu.. tapi sebab banyak nor komitmen lain.. time evaluation jek lah aku dapat lawat.

Next week nak kena p buat audit plak. Since last week bos takder.. benda yang nak di sain sumer tak bleh nak proses. Tak pa lah.. next week la baru fikir. Now nih layan movie dulu!

Sambut raya aidul adha with no rendang.. spaghetti sajork! wahahaha.. Petang tu ada juga terfikir nak masak rendang, tapi bila mengenangkan tukang makan sikit jek.. Elok la beli jek yang da masak kann. Sudahnya aku p kedai dan beli bekalan makanan dalam tin jek la bertin-tin. Setiba dekat umah, adik aku sms kater malam ni dia sampai. Chet! Kalau bagitau awal bule gak la aku prepare something. Mengenangkan adik aku ni gemor amat makan spagheti, aku p lah hypermarket depan umah ni tuk cari barang masak. Punya ramai la orang. Kalau tak kerana kecian, tak kuasa aku nak beratur panjang sepanjang-panjangnya. Kira first time sepanjang idop aku sanggup beratur kat kaunter kedai yang ada lebih 5 orang yang beli barang dua tiga bakul sorang.

Aktiviti layan sport anime da stat balik dah. Kalo dengar aku gelak sorang-sorang tu bukanlah bermakna aku da gilos. Best amattt! Tiga hari lepas layan soccer anime, now tengah layan football plak. 145 episodes to go! Tiada yang lebih best melainkan rilex sambil tv tengok aku..yeaay!!

"I can forgive, but I cannot forget is only another way of saying I will not forgive. Forgiveness ought to be like a canceled note- torn in two, and burn up, so that it never can be shown against one"  - Henry Ward Beecher

Aku terbaca quotation kat atas nih yang mengatakan memberitahu seseorang bahawa dia telah dimaafkan namun tetap tidak dapat untuk melupakan semua yang terjadi adalah cara lain untuk memberitahu seseorang tadi bahawa dia sebenarnya tidak akan pernah dimaafkan?

Mungkin ada benarnya tapi aku kurang setuju! Memaafkan dan melupakan perkara yang berlaku merupakan dua hal yang tak sama. Pada aku, memaafkan seseorang bererti aku sudah tidak marah dengan apa yang terjadi dan telah menerima semuanya dengan fikiran yang terbuka, malah tidak akan mengungkit mahupun menyebut tentang perkara tersebut pada masa depan untuk kebaikan bersama. Melupakan memori pahit pula umpama keadaan sebatang paku yang pernah tertanam ke dinding, walaupun paku tersebut telah dicabut namun lubang yang ditinggalkan tetap meninggalkan bekas. Walaupun ditampal, dinding tadi tidak akan sama seperti asal.

Namun sebenarnya yang telah hilang atau berkurang akibat dari sebuah kesilapan adalah kepercayaan.Dan kepercayaan yang telah hilang adalah sesuatu yang bukan mudah untuk dibina semula. Pada aku, tidak pernah ada perkara yang tidak dapat dimaafkan melainkan bila hilangnya kepercayaan.

Would you fight for the one you love if that someone were in love with someone else, or considering someone else on their mind? Don't bother to ask me again because I will tell you to just walk away. Again and again. Please have respect for yourself. What is it that you have done wrong to make that unworthy person think you deserve to be treated like crap? Oh pelizzzz help me to help you.