Bekerja akan jadi sangat membosankan bila tukang sorak ramai dekat ofis. Bila hierarcy tiga segi terbalik, orang atas lebih ramai daripada orang bawah, 8 to 5 would be like hell to those who called themselves orang bawahan. Senario biasa yang sememangnya amat ketara dan selalunya tidak dikendalikan dengan professional dalam pejabat awam ni.. Bila ada orang rajin, secara direct or indirect this kind of person confirm kena tindas. Asyik nama dorang ni je kena pilih untuk buat itu ini while orang malas dan tak de motivasi kerja orang tak peduli, in fact dorang boleh tambah goyang kaki. Some tak kena tegur pun, apa lagi marah dan dikenakan tindakan disiplin. satu hal lagi, bila dapat bos yang konon very the bos, taunya cuma cakap.. Ko buat ni, ko call ni.. tambahla ofis jadi macam hell. Mentang2 ada orang bawah, semua pass ke bawah.. all of it! Pada golongan very-the-bos ni, dorang rasa buat kerja sendirian ni seolah2 la buat dorang jadi jabatan kebajikan masyarakat kononnya, sebab it is decided by them itu kerja orang bawah, that their function cuma monitor padahal they were not even at the top of the hierarcy. Whatdaa!

Besok kalau aku la sampai dekat level tu, minta simpang jejauh aku temasuk dalam golongan sangap ni. Sangap!

I am glad that I choosed to watch Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa with my brothers over my bed. Epp! Brother jek.. Brother sorang tu tak dapat ikot sebab ada gig kat Damansara. Nasib la sampai umah before secondary gate tutop. Tu la.. Ingat hostel jek ader time gate tutup.. Umah aku pon ada aper.

Movie tu nak kater best, memang best la. Worth every penny! Though jalan cerita dia biasa je, tapi aku suka sebab storyline dia ada kesinambungan, tak lah macam ada some babak tu happen tetiba2 je. I like that they paid attention to details which added up watching pleasure. Acted as a crazy and carefree soul, it can be said that they were trying to make Merong 'a pirate copy' of Jack Sparrow from pirates of the carribean. Overall, superb! I am not a fan of Malay movie but hey! This one is worth watching. How I wish all film makers in Malaysia produce a movie like Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa instead of Rempit, Gangster, KL Teghiak whatever! Kalo movie macam tu la orang mesia suke buat, kompem la aku tak tengok and support cerita melayu sampai bebila.

6.50 am sampai opis. Tak sempat simpan barang, duduk tu terus je proses claim orang. Sedar2 da pukul 8.. Tu pon sebab bos tanya aku wat aper. Dia nak ajak aku jadi eskot. Ah!! Tak pegi salah.. Kalo pegi kerja tak siap. Last2 aku ikut juga..

Aku aktuali suka g site dengan big boss ni.. Orang lama kan..pengalaman banyak. Seronok gak eskot bebudak main branch kitaorang visit site. Selama ni wat design.. Tak kenal ruper sebenor equipment tu. So tis time.. Ble la tengok.

Petang aku terkejar2 settle keje. Call orang sana sini.. Proses claim.. Wat surat. Tapi aku bukanlah manusia yang merasakan kerja adalah segalanya, so, macam biasa.. 4.30 balekkkk! Sambung wat keje kat umah sudah! Gumbira amat bila lepak kat umah. Doing nothing pon takper as long kat umah. Tapi words doing nothing tu tak ble di apply dekat umah ni sebab banyak nor benda yang aku nak buat sampai tak sempat. Wah! Raser cam nak lawat rumah ku tak? Hahah

Can I directly tell a fren that i missed him? wanted to..but I cant! It would be 0.o

Hari ni heavennn! Balik dari putrajaya, singgah dekat the garden food court tuk lunch. Makan nasi ayam ngan abc. Pastu sambung lak dekat Starbuck. Wah! Mahvelles.. Makan kek, muffin and frappuchino. Perut cam nak meletupz gak gara2 melayan member yang tengah berkabung kononnya. Hahah.. Member tu dapat kupon banyak giler tadi.. Pas da tangkap gambar kupon2 tu dengan gembira, dia lupa yang dia patutnya tengah berkabung.. So tak ble post kat facebook sebab takot kedapatan yang dia tengah bergumbira. Hahaha.

Sudahnya.. now ni aku tengah merilexkan perut dengan minum air kelapa ngan air halia sambil2 layan dvd Super Show 2 yang baru beli semalam. Lebih kurang jek dengan SS3.. Nanti nak beli dvd SS3.. Wah! Tak sabar nak tunggu dvd tu kuar. Aku da ader 2 dvd konsert SuJu ni.. SS1 taknak beli sebab time tu rambut dorang spastik. Ntah haper2 time tu.. X comey langsung! Normal sudaaa cam skarang.

For the first time aku drive ke Sungei Wang. Ni kira satu pencapaian la sebab aku kan psiko kalau kena drive nih. Ahahah. Time pegi tu tak der hal, skali time balik aku sesat. Brapa kali gps tu recalculate. Nasib la pusing2 pun takat kat situ je.

Beli dvd konsert bro Jay Chou ngan SS2.. Now tengah layanz. Best giler konsert Jay Chou.. Kalau la aku attend. Nasib aku x sedar yang dia pon ada wat konsert kat Mesia 2 or 3 weeks prior to Ss3. Kalo tak sure his konsert became my very first concert instead of Super Show 3. Either way, I heart both!

Apa aku buat hari ni? Entah.. Da tak ingat! Ahahah.. Hari ni malas nak jalan2 cari hal jejauh, so aku lepak kat kedai kat depan umah je. Lepak bodo2 pon dekat 100 gak abes. Aku pon tak paham.. Asal jumpa kedai je, mula la terasa macam ada je barang tak cukup. Masalahnya, bila tak g kedai plak, lagi la teruk sebab macam banyak sangat plak stok kurang. Aaaahhhh!!

Then.. mengasah lagi bakat jadik barber. Says who I don't have the skill.. I am good.. yeah!  see

I lost my smile because I am adjusting.

Aku rasa macam hadir serahan projek hari ni.. Sungguh meriah bila rombongan para endu-useru lagi ramai dari kitaorang. Hahah.. Everybody were so excited. Well.. Sokati la as long as everybody happy yarr!!

Biasa aku yang menumpang kasih kat member, ari ni sebaliknya pula. Ahaha... Member aku tu tinggal senorang jek kat unit dia sebab yang lenlain outstation, termasuk boss dia. Wah! Seteruk2 kat unit aku, at least masih la ada big boss kann untuk aku menompang kasih.. Hahah.

So, untuk menghibur hati member tu.. Aku konon nak belanja la dia nasik lemak pevret aku kat MPH.. Skali La Cucur tu da close for renovation!! Tidaaaaakkkk!! Tambah lagi bila dapat tahu 2nd pevret eating spot aku kat Sweet Chat pon close gak for renovation. Whyyyyy!! Why at the same time.. Tertekan acik.

Bukanlah makanan dia sedap sangat tapi i loved the place for it's offering some peace of mind. As we know, MPH is a bookstore so there will be no chances for us to hear people laugh hysterically like langsuir oke!

..went to K.Rompin. It was raining all the way from KL. It took us 4 and a half hours to reach there.. another 3 and a half hours to reach home. It was a day trip dow! What do you think we, the goverment servant get for that? Nothing! A daily trip, 8 hours on the road for the sake of budget savings.. We didn't even claim for anything, no ot, no allowances, nil but we dont mind. To get the job done, that always been our goal. So, it was sad to hear bad things about government servant not doing the job, lazy and all those negatives talking =(

Dey! Why am I so emo eh!

I am demoralized!
I dislike a person!
I hated 8.00am-4.30pm!

I went to my very first concert last night and I still cant believe it!! Waaaaaa... Even thinking about it made my eyes sparkle.. Awww! I did scream Kim Heechul the loudest I could.. Ngeheheh. So next? Korea. So excited for my very first oversea travel! The time I lived at UK when I was little cannot be counted aaa.. because that was not my travel, that was my dad's ;) dont mind! Dont mind! I certainly will reach there, my own travel, within this two years. Just wait!! But my next mission is Korea where my HeeHee was born! =)

What's not to love about being me doww =p I recently hated my job again, but I sooo loved my life! Thank you God...

My SS3 Malaysia experience!

@ 4pm.. peoples actually started queuing from 10 am! The toughest Q were the Rock Pit'ians, the longest awarded to the Terrace'ians and the shortest of course the VIP. Ehemmm.. my Q ;p. I only Q like less than 5 minutes after they opened the gate.

I changed my on-line ticket to physical ticket since my sis and I need to Q separately. The actual price is not RM486 for VIP.. need to pay RM616 ++ management charges :(

My favorite boy, Heechul a.k.a HeeHee. I was a bit disappointed with him because he only participate in less than 10 songs and that he covered his face all night. If it were not the spectacles, he wore the masks. He never 'bared' his face even for a second. Dude! I purposely came just to have a close look at your face. So yes! I am disappointed. But still.. he is so white, so loveable! He did not have solo performance but he played drum for the Don't dont performance along with Trax Jung Mo. He made me laugh when he told us in english 'Dont worry, I don't sick!' on his last speech... Hahaha.. I heart U HeeHee!

KyuHyun a.k.a my favorite KyuKyu. He is so thin and I noticed his face is not that 'smooth'. Let say it as a man face yah :) but he is cute.

Tis dude is so cute!  Sungmin a.k.a my favorite MinMin. He looked exactly like what we saw on TV. He tried to look serious but failed due to his cuteness =)

The stage in front of me was his marked area! This Siwon a.k.a my favorite WonWon is soooo handsome. I didn't think he is that attractive before, but seeing him this close.. OMG. Like KyuKyu, his face was not that 'smooth' either and he is so thin compared to what we saw on TV. But he really is so handsome and his english pronounciation is good. I could see that he is a polite gentlemen, confirmed! ;p

Donghae a.k.a my favorite HaeHae. He is short, thin and cuteeee! He is cool too. so cute compared to what we saw on TV.

I managed to get a lot of good pictures of Yeesung because he did not move so fast like the other. He just stand there and buy us time for pictures moment.. and his voice amazing

He rarely reached the front stage. This is the only picture I have on Leeteuk. He played piano while sang Wang Lee Hom's 'Kiss Goodbye'.. I love his performance. I wondered wether he understand what he was singing.. Hahaha. And he kept asking ahpahkhahbar all night.. So funny for using the 'apa khabar' wrongly..haha

Ryewook.. he is so small and so thin, just like the other. But he surely has a nice voice

I did not manage to get Shindong's solo picture because he only reached the front stage after my camera's battery died!.. which is an hour before the show finished. So sad =( I also did not manage to get any good or solo photo of my favorite Eunhyuk a.k.a Ah Hyuk. He did stand right in front of me but he moved so fast. He has two solo.. and his body is so thin too! And Henry and Zhou Mi too because this two never reached the front stage. But both of them performed well. In fact, Henry's performance was one of my favorite besides Leeteuk. He sang Justin Bieber's famous 'Baby'. He sang, played piano and dance! Love him!

They were all so thin, except dong dong Shin Dong.. to say he is fat is not right too.. he is fit what! Overall.. I enjoyed the night but this will be my first and last concert I suppose. ELFs loud scream and the sound system caused my ear to ache. I have to wear mufflers a.k.a  head phone because I cant stand the noise =(

Pala saket.. Hati saket.. Tapi pala lagi saket. Macam nak demam pun ada ni. Sakit pala pasal tu da satu hal.. Sakit pala ngan konsultang pla satu hal lagi. A long discussion petang tadi over a long list of unresolved issues. Ahhh!

Dalam sebok miting sepanjang hari, sempat lagi singgah MPH dan bebelanja almost hundreds over a book! Yah! A BOOK! Just one. I am sorry purse.. Miannayo T_T

Aaarghhhhh gerammmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ggrrrr!!! Geram amat! Geram gila! Gerammmmmmmmmmmm! God.. Bagilah aku semangat menempuh 4 hari yang macammm hell! Mengenangkan Saturday.. Hati ku berbungga kembali. Tapi bila hakikatnya ada 4 hari lagi.. Tensih!

I tried updating my ipad to ios 4.3 last night. An error occured and I needed to reboot. It took me like what, 20 minutes to complete the pocess before I finally managed to upgrade to ios 4.3. There were some new features like side button which previously used to control mute's mode now can be used as screen rotation control. Not much of changes actually.

Th second generation of Ipad will be available on the market starting nex month i guess. For me, I don't give a damn about how thinner it is or how fast the processor would be.. Or additional features like camera whatsoever if they did not do something about the battery. Claiming the battery's life would lasts 10 hours for the second generation, I actually hope it would be more than that like changable battery. I dont like the built-in battery as they could never be replaced!

Pas mandi, siap-siap nak ke Jusco. Sampai round about dekat Shepital Rehab, JEM! Kalau dah dekat round about tu start jem, sejam agaknya aku nk sampai kat Jusco yang cuma 1 or 2 km je lagi. So, aku decide patah balik umah.

Last2, lepak kat kedai depan umah ni je. Aktuali takat lepak kat kedai depan tu pun dah cukup since suma jenis kedai pun ada. Da ketahuan aku ni pun jenis yang memang tak gemar nak bersosial ujung minggu, or bebila la. Ada once tu aku kena tanya ujung minggu selalunya buat apa. Aku bagitaw la mostly duk umah je. Pastu aku kena ceramah macamana nak dapat jodoh kalau tak menonjolkan diri. Aku? WedThurFri! Hahaha.

Ada betulnya tapi aku just tak willing nak ubah cara aku. I'll be alone or not, there is nothing to be afraid of. I didn't think too much. Loneliness is just feelings. No matter how many peoples surrounded us, we might still feel lonely and empty if we are not smart enough to deal with our own feelings. Frankly, aku tak pernah rasa bersendirian though I am alone. I am not the most logical person but I certainly is the most realistic. Being far away from family from the age of 12 taught me how to be responsible for my own act and how to carry myself. Mature before time, thanks to those difficult times. I believe I reacted well and positive at anything in life, no matter how worst it is because I believe everything happened for a reason. We are just ordinary human being. It is not so difficult to enjoy happiness, just go with the flow =) I am cO.0L.. Peace!!

Bila para bos bertenggek kat meja, rules dia.. kenalah stick to kerusi ofis instead of kerusi kereta! Aku balek lewat setengah jam hari ni.. Huhu. Aku tak hangen kat bos2, tapi kat orang yang sebok gak nak naik lift yang menyebabkan aku kena berhenti kat tiap- tiap floor. Pastu terhegeh- hegeh nak masuk. Nak je aku kata.. Nak masuk masuk, tanak sudah! Ahahahah.. Kalau la aku sehebat tu kan. Seumur hidup, aku belum pernah sembur orang eh! Perlu tak aku masukkan aktiviti 'sembur orang' ni as one of 1001 list ai must do before ai die? Hahaha

Tadi g makan mcD dengan daus. Beli minimum 5 hengget, free dua set big breakfast. Alkisahnya semalam time lunch dekat DBKL ada orang tnggalkan 2 keping kupon mcD kat meja yang kitaorang duduk. Dengan 2 kupon tu, belanja 10 hengget je da ble dapat 4 set big breakfast tuh! Isnin ni kitaorang nak pegi lagi.. Hehehe..

I got my VIP ticket!!!!! HeeHee.. wait for me!! MinMin.. wait for Noona!! KyuKyu.. wait for me!!

 HaeHae..WonWon.. Ah Hyuk.. wait foooooor meee toooooo!!!

Hari ni aku attend executive talk.. Hari yang bikin panas tapi aku dah cool down now. Today proved that as always, I have bad tempers yet fail to "deliver" my anger, but that doesnt mean that I could never be angry. I am just human being and I have limit too. I know I am being secretive, even to you my dear diary. I shared the "I am angry" part but leave the "why I am angry" part for myself. I am that type of person. For me, to talk to someone about things that upset me is like i am forcing myself to recall them, so I hate it. Besides, it makes me even more depressed. Here is where "sharing is caring" part not applicable. I know, wierd rite!

Borak dengan our supplier, a chinese guy. Tiba2 terstory pasal korea. Aku ingat aku sorang je yang dah tuha tapi lopa diri minat SuJu. Ropa2nya aku ada geng! Hahahah.. Dia lagi hebatz. Since zaman2 HOT, SES.. Sapa lagi ntah. Aku tahu nama je, kenalnya idak.

Aktuali aku minat artis ni bukanlah because of the person, what i love is their work.. the song. Except for SuJu.. Which aku pun konfius why aku suka dorang. Cute? ;p ramai lagi what yang cute tapi kenapa SuJu eh? Kenapa heechul? Well.. There is exception for everything, rite =)

Tadi ingat nak join DrM launch book dia dekat depan MPH.. Skali bigboss suh aku ikut dia masuk miting. Ah! Makcik tensih! Kena pulak buat paperwork.. Lagi la tensih. AN tanya aku.. Bule ke kalau aku yang jaga projek kitaorang yang kat Rompin tu. Buleee bosss! Waaaa... Jaohhhhhh. Tak bley naik flight.. Waaaaaa

Apa kebaikannya ada dairy yang kita tulis daily?

Naaa.. Tadi aku cek punch card aku tuk bulan Disember. Tiba2 ader dua lobang kat kad tu yang tak berpunch. Aku pon tak ingat kenapa aku tak punch card 2 hari. Bukak blog a.k.a diary.. Teruss taw rupa-rupanya aku cuti time tu. See! How convenience eh.

To someone who tainted my heart with bad memories, for whatever reason you have trying to reappear in my life.. STOP! I wont waste my time to hate you for the rest of my short life. Neither do I want to waste my limited memory to remember whatever memories of us. For good or bad.. You dont deserve to be spared any room in my mind or my heart for me to quietly remember you, even for a second. For whatever it is, do know that I dont hate you. No! Because that will waste my time too. We are just two strangers who has nothing to do with each other. I shoud thank you for making me a wiser person.

I cant believe my self! I even bought Super Junior's balloon.. really???!!

The balloon is free lah.. hehehe. But I really love the umbrella.. ella.. ella.. Trust me you will like it if you see how small and light weight it is. I think it is about a half size "thinner".. so cute. The stick? Don't ask me!

OMG! Did my heart just beat faster than it should? Oh! No. Did it? Really?

Even thinking about it make it beat even faster. Owahhhhhhh!!

Hari ni ada evaluation. Site banjir.. lift pit plak dah jadi akuarium gara-gara ujan. Before turun tadi, my boss pesan lagi pasal safety. Risau benor dia staf dia jatuh dalam lobang kat site. Hehehe.. Tapi ada one day tu, kalau tak R.E sound balik2, memang ada possibility gak aku jatuh dalam lubang riser yang tak di barricade.

 There is someone who brightened my day simply by his presence. Sometimes it was not love, but you loved a person. You don't love them in a romantic way, but you loved them. You don't love them as a special someone, but the person is special to you. And I, I have that person.

Hari ni hari mari mendengar tazkirah projek saket! Punyala bosan! Dari kol 8.30 sampai pukul 3 tak lepak langsung kat 'bilik termenung' a.k.a tolet, mana tak hamper meletop perut aku. Aku ni mana bule berpisah dengan bilik termenung lebih 2 or 3 jam.

Bos baru aku berapa kali sound pasal safety. Kalau aku masuk site sorang, dia kata jangan harap dia akan kasi aku pergi. Ahahaha.. Dia tak tahu site kitaorang jauh la lebih selamat dari site2 aku jaga dulu. Aku pernah kena sorak macam tengok bola, site meletop, pernah kena ambush time sorang2, naik tangga turun tangga bebelas tingkat without lift ari2 time puasa, hampir jatuh dalam laut.. apa lagi! Belum baju belobang & gatal2 kena chemical or possibility mandul gara2 X-ray pipe. Rindu pula zaman-zaman tu. Time tu rasa alive je.. now ni rasa cam lemauuu!!