I bought a mini sewing machine for RM10 je and really love it! Tima kasih le saper yang invent sebab korang dah memudahkan aku menjahit. It looked like a stapler kan.. bila nak jahit kena tekan cam stapler. Dulu saiz benda ni agak besar sket.. now nih makin lama dah makin kocik. Kalo dulu bersusah payah nak jahit tangan.. now stapler jek. Stapler ni produce jahitan kuku kambing. Wah! aku still ingat lagi nama jahitan ni. Biasa kalo aku jahit tangan, aku jahit kia jek. Keburukan jahit kia ni, even kat depan jahitan dia cam jahitan machine tapi kat belakang compang camping. Tapi kalo jahitan kuku kambing, jahitan yang belah belakang tu pun cantik cuma kerja dia leceh and perlu patience.

Setelah sekian lama mengidam..akhirnya aku berjaya juga membeli dril. Yeay! Sebenarnya, aku pon tak paham apa yang aku mengidam sangat ada drill..ahah. Time jalan-jalan dekat Jusco tadi, tak de pun plan nak beli asalnya. Terintai cordless drill brand Black&Decker.. Aku dah seronot sebab murah..60 hengget je. Biasa kalo brand tu, rega drill dia mau dua ratus ke atas gak. Time tu aku fikir takpe la dulu.. Lain kali bule beli sebab barang tu standard price. Aku singgah carefour lepas dari Jusco, aku tengok rega benda tu kat carefour 80 hengget. Whatt! 20 hengget differ tu, lepas dah minyak keta aku tuk seminggu. Pas tu.. Aku g Jusco balik and terus je la beli. Nanti-nanti la aku fikir nak drill apa.. Huhu.

Layan anime ni memang asyik. Orang jepun memang terer bab melebih-lebih & imaginasi melampau yang tak logik langsung. Tapi since aku layan anime ni, terasa cam kartun omputeh da kureng best. At the moment aku tengah layan anime pasal chef.

Tadi aku jalan-jalan cari pasal dekat bawah opis. Tetiba rasa macam nak beli iphone. Nasibla aku muhasabah diri bakwasanya aku nak kena simpan duit tuk pegi melenchong & sambung master maybe. Ibu kater dia nak amek master dalam Safety.. Time keja kontraktor dulu, aku memang selalu intai website NIOSH sebab aku memang intersted nak further dalam safety. Tapi sejak-sejak joint gomen, aku dah tak minat dah. Kalau dulu aku rasa macam berkobar-kobar jek, tapi now ni rasa cam lembab..even gelaran ir tu pon dah jadi jokes among us.

Before kol 7 aku dah tercongok dekat opis macam biasa. Tengah aku menyanyi gumbira, aku nampak my bos dengan lajunya menuju ke cubicle aku, lalu konversasi ini pon terjadik..

Boss : Hang kena p kursus kan?...
Aku : Aaaa?
Boss : Hari ni, dekat HQ..
Aku : Aaaaaaaa?
Boss : Kol 8 start.. sempat lagi kot
Aku : Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa?

Saper la yang bijak laksana bulan suh orang pegi kursus tapi hari kurus baru nak inform nih. Aihhh...Gigit kang baru tau.

Tapi thanks la to orang yang arrange aku pegi kursus tu sebab aku sempat shopping sakan dekat muaz textile kat jalan TAR. Aku da beli tudung yang banyak. Kira lah kalau lebih 10 helai.. tak banyak aper. Kalau bawak mak aku g kedai tu mesti sakan. Murah amat. Aku beli tudung lycra yang ader anak tudung skali tu baru 7 hengget jek. Kat luar mau 10 - 15 hengget kot. Cumanya aku tak berkenan dengan anak tudung dia. Aku tak kira la fesen, tapi nimang huduh aku nengok orang pakai. So, aku pakai tudung dia jek. Senang sebab tak yah pakai anak tudung & tak yah iron. I Sarung and jalan jek.. thanks la pader saper yang design tudung tu. One day kot2 ader lagi yang creative, buat la tudung pattern cenggitu tapi tepi tudung tu tanak ader jahit lipat.. aper ntah orang panggil.. kelim kot.

So.. next month aku akan bizi amat la nampaknya. Tadi AF1 call, tanya aku nak pegi Melaka tak 8-10 hb.. kursus risk assesment.. wahah.. dah le 2 sampai 4hb aku kat Terengganu.. 10 pai 12 hb kena audit stor cawangan lain. Pastu boss aku da calon my name tuk audit projek belah selatan sometimes middle November.. Merantau jek la kerja aku.. Tapi yang betulnya aku malas sebab tempat kursus tu Melaka... tempat jatuh lagi aku tak maw kenang. Hahaha..

Tadi g miting dekat site. Next week seminggu la jawabnya aku tak lekat dekat ofis sebab aku bakal meraikan pre-depavali dekat Ganu.

Tadi buat lawak kereta. Orang da elok-elok arrange aku naik dengan keta lain, aku g hijack keta team lain. Kompiden je duduk dalam keta tuk orang lain gara-gara berat mulut nak tanya sapa nama dreba tu. Wahaha. Wakaranai!

One of the gang nak resign, nak pindah kat kementerian perikanan. Aku gemor la joke dengan dia, usik dia nanti skop kerja dia jaga ikan je la. Marah dia.. heheh. Tapi bila sebut bab ikan, nama aku tatap naik sebab dorang suka kaitkan aku dengan 'anak ikan'. Sabar jak la! Aku tak selera la dengan anak-anak ikan ni. Haha.. Jahat la dorang nih.

Aku memang selesa mix dengan bebudak lelaki yang muda dari aku, aku seronok sebab aku takder adik lelaki. Especially sebab aku bule buli dorang dan aku memang suka buli budak.. ahaha. Nak buli budak pompuan, kang menangis plak. Nak buli adik-adik aku yang semuanya pompuan tu memang tak dapek sebab dorang pun kaki buli. Aku tak favor abang muda ni sebab dorang muda. Some guy mungkin prefer pompuan lebih tua sebab dorang ni matang & stabil tapi pada pompuan yang lebih tua ni pula, dalam story ni merujuk kepada aku la specifically.. A younger boyfriend could be 'kawai' and entertaining sebab dorang tak matang or else they could be a 'liability' sebab dorang less matang than aku. Aku memang tak pernah le bercita-cita jadik second mak or kakak pada boyfriend or asben aku, nor did i want to be leader dalam relationship. Never! Kalo lelaki yang lebih tua pula, walaupun matang tapi aku  tak favor sebab i am not looking for another father. Cukup la my dad tu je my ayah. Besides, they came with liabilities... certainly not interested nor interesting! Haha..

Hari ni dah gaji. Since aku betul-betul berazam nak pegi melancong, aku rasa eloklah aku start ikat perut. Kalau tak, berenang la aku balik malaysia nanti. Yang paling tak seronok kerja dengan kerajaan ni, tang ujung bulan dan ujung taun. Hanya orang gomen sajok yang tahu.

Dan hari ni, termaktub la as hari paling miskin dalam sejarah hidup semenjak aku bergelar gomen officer. I was left with 3 ringgit jek, sampai nak beli eskrem kat mcD kat bawah opis ni pun tak mampu! Gila miskin.. hahahaha. Soma ni gara-gara sebab aku yaklah seorang yang amat la tak suka nak beratur dekat atm. Benchi amats! Bila macam tu, ni la jadiknya. Umah aku ngan atm tu berapa langkah la sangat, kat bawah opis ni hah, belambak atm machine tapi aku M.A.L.A.S punya pasal.. toksah cakap le.

Semalam aku dah shopping sakan. Berbotol-botol aku beli sauce speghetti tapi nak masaknya ntah le bila. Peti ais aku yang cenonet tu macam da tak muat dah nak sumbat.

Single Why?

Tengahari tadi keluar jalan-jalan dengan member pegi area sogo. Happened to have face the same fate on love life with her.. We made a joke out of it every time we saw wedding dress and bridal shops. She loved to say "Pelamin anganku musnah".. Hahaha. Even listening to that said pun rasa cam geli pusat.

My friend, she is a very beautiful and attractive woman. Stability.. career.. She have it. Guys chasing her is nothing unusual but why is she still single? And why am i? Both of us agreed, we choose to stay single bukan sebab masih in love and sayangkan orang yang dah tak de. Personally pada aku, it is not the case at all. Dalam kehidupan ni, things and peoples come and go. Whether nak terima kenyataan or cling to pasts, it is up to diri sendiri. Pada aku, there are a big life ahead of me so no point wasting times untuk hal-hal yang tak reasonable dan tak berbaloi pun. Without being selfish, aku perlu jaga hati sendiri lebih sedikit dari jaga hati orang sebab at the end of the day, kalau hati sendiri aku tak jaga, macamana aku nak jaga hati orang kan!

My aunt and her family datang tadi. Pas lunch, lepak dekat kedai DIY, maw dekat seratus abis kat situ jek. Everytime pegi, mesti beli something sebab selain facts yang barang-barang dalam kedai tu semuanya menarik & unik, price pun murah. Besides jusco ngan carefour yang dah dimasyur jadi kedai angkat merangkap taman permainan, kedai DIY ni pon salah satu dari kedai angkat aku gak.

Aku ngan my boss telah berjaya dipeningkan oleh konsaltan since perbincangan hangat kitaorang semalam. Aku ingat aku jek yang curious, boss aku pon sama gak rupanya. Tadi before 7.30 dia da cari aku pasal calculation. Nasib boss aku memang ader background design.. aper2 hal bule refer jek kat dia. Cuba kalo kena boss yang tak pernah buat design & tak der technical background yang strong.. hancuss.

Hari ni hari yang sibuk. Since semalam aku macam banyak keje plak. Besok sabtu.. rilek day! Bule la manja-manja dengan Oranje Bear. Semalam aku da peluk sambil cekik-cekik dia. Sian Oranje..

The one and only that could melt a heart in mere seconds are children. When they flashed a smile,  worries, anger and unhappiness was being wiped out from me. Now, I am happy again...

I was busy the whole day. I also succeed in making my peers life miserable, especially the new guy ZH alias Mr Integriti. Hahaha.. sorry friend. It was so funny! Besides, I also managed to make my contractor's day turned into bad-question days. Opted for quality not quantity, I am not the kind who will simply asked a question without studying or knowing what am I questioning. That is why you people rarely hear me asking questions. But when I did, you could expect something that is out of expectancy. Kecian tengok muka depa... I used to be a contractor, not as a contractor but you know...  I learn a lot back at the days, so I understand lots too. Luckily my current boss is a good person. He always reminded me to look things from a fair point of view.

Saket gigi la pulaa.. jahattt gigi nih!

Ari ni J-card day.. berduyun la orang mengunjungi Jusco yang menjadi tempat persinggahan aku hari-hari. Tadi aku singgah jugak kat Jusco, kot-kot ader offer baju. Currently aku gila dekat baju kurung ngan tudung yang ala-ala lycra. Sebab? Sebab aku benci amat iron baju. Aku ingat da beli steam iron, mudah le keja-keja mengiron baju.. tambah leceh ader! Before iron nak kena isi air.. da abes iron nak kena buang air dalam iron. Dah la kena berdiri time mengiron, bukan kaki yang lenguh, tapi si lengan yang tak der muscle tapi banyak lemak ni.. lenguh oke.

Time raya ari tu aku ada cakap la kat my mom.. aku nak amik amah sorang tuk jaga makan pakai aku. Next raya aku kater kalau aku bawak balik bibik, nanti mak ader assistant time raya. Belum sempat aku habiskan story angan-angan mat jenin, mom da fire & ceramah aku kaw-kaw. Mak aku nih.. dengki la tuh! Malas amat bab iron baju. So, sekarang ni aku pakai semua yang 'bergetah', lengan tak lenguh, bil letrik pon kurang. Giler mahal bil letrik ngan air kat umah ni. Dulu time kat umah lama, air dalam 12 hengget jek sebulan & api dalam 30-40 tapi dekat sini.. aku rasa api dalam 40-50.. air pon samer. Tak paham lah aku.

I am having a light migraine. I didn't overuse my head but I wonder why migraine still loves me? I love you both eyes, but you are killing me. And you, my back, I also love you but you, too, is killing me. The three of you, please don't be bad...

Hari ni aku berjalan-jalan cari hal dekat putrajaya dan cheras dengan ZA & my boss. Boss nak tengok projek saket aku ngan ZA. Nasib mood dia baik, kalau tak, maw aku kena maki sebab tak ingat jalan nak g site! Berapa kali pusing kat Precint2 tu.. nasib le kitaorang jumpa site yang-aku-jaga tu akhirnya. Tengahari boss belanja makan dekat Pantai Dalam.. a good place to enjoy good lunch tapi aku tak taw nama kedai tu. Takper.. sok2 aku tanya inchik dreba. Sedap lagi selesa.

Ibu bagitau dia nak sambung master.. dia ajak aku sambung skali. Huhu.. yang dia tak taw, aku memang da kena call tuk interview for enrollment dekat UPM tuk sem ni, tapi aku tak pegi. Kebetulan time tu bizi amat, at the same time tengah try tuk figure out a plan, the one plan that is going no where, which I knew it now. So for next year aku plan lagi. Aku sure amat next year tiada lagi anasir-anasir yang menganggu fikiran.

Well.. When you are single and you don't think much nor did you let others take control of your thoughts, life became easy. Bukan hanya sebab tu, maybe sebab personaliti dan pembawaan diri kot. I always have a  reason to smile.. though life is hard but I never sabotage myself. Tak yah story banyak, semua pon bule nampak dari muka, except for the part time2 light migraine datang melawat, itu time sah muka aku asam sket.. and kedegilan aku untuk tidak berada di opis lepas 4.30 pun menyumbang kepada less stress. I definitely enjoy life to the fullest what.. tapi M.A.L.A.S is the right words la tuk explain what happened to me.

Miting memang amat bosan. Bikin shepital ni bukan macam bikin otel..tak bule suka suki nak ubah interior arrangement. Before nak letak barang, which is before building naik.. da kena plan awal-awal. Planning process tu, kalau story berapa kali meeting and interaction..boleh muntah! Kalau kena CON-trak/tant and planner tak cemerlang...menangess! Tensih ke aku nih? eh??...

Bangun-bangun pagi tadi tengok ada miskal dari RSenora. Buang tebiat kal aku kol 12 pagi. Then tadi kol 7 lebey dia sms, suh punch kad sebab takut dia lambat. Aku belek-belek phonebook, aku salah simpan no ke. Bila masa pula dia ni pindah sini balik. Kal dia.. Laa.. Rupanya dia ader taklimat exam hari ni. Hahaha.. Petang lepak ramai-ramai dekat kedai mamak. RMD merangkap boypren RSenora pun ada. Ada kesah menarik tapi biarlah rahsia..temporarily ;)

What I do? Well.. as usual.. enjoying a breezy Sunday with movies and books.. though I only open them for pictures :) I watched Knight and Day, it really is a good movie and  totally worthwhile waiting for the Blue Ray edition. I also watched Avatar - The Last Air Bender. Though the graphic is good, it failed on the action part. Luckily I did not go to watch it at cinema.

I experienced bad back pain the whole day. I am kinda like an old woman with restricted movement. Blamed it on monthly cycle that I am fragile from top to toe! Since I already settle everything before weekend, I have nothing else to do other than relaxing. So I just sat and enjoyed the day. My friend invited me to zoo. Frankly speaking, I have never been to national zoo, not even once.. ahahah.

Honn.. maybe there were times you doubted your decisions. In fact, your decisions were indeed wrong. But what is the point thinking about wrong? Past is past and meant to be forgotten. If you don't want to live a miserable life, don't ever regret anything in life especially when making an option or deciding something. All you have to do is tell yourself to do better in future and promise not to repeat anything you don't like doing. You could weep silently or cry out loud, but don't ever regret nor blame others for your decisions. Always remind yourself... you are fully responsible for your own self. You be brave, trusts your good soul!

Semalam aku ada cerita lawak kat tol. Queue nak bayar tol, ada la 4 or 5 buah kereta depan aku. Traffic smooth jek. Lepas kereta depan aku chow, aku pon ready huluq duit 5 posen. Aik! Tak der orang dalam kaunter tu. Aku pandang member, member pandang aku.. kita da salah masuk q ker? Few second pas tu tetiba muncul kepala putih dari bawah tingkap kaunter tu. Tekejutnya aku! Laa.. rupa-rupanya minah tol tu tadinya tunduk, nak amik benda kat bawah kerusi dia kot. Nasib la siang.. kalau tengah malam.. saspen jugak.

Besok Sabtu.. member nak ajak p bejalan tapi aku rasa aku malas nak kuar. Insaf sekejap.. ahahah.. Lagipun kat umah ni, apa lagi yang tak der.. Sate jek kot yang tak der. Tetiba teringin nak makan sate lagi. Sayap ayam lagi.. spaghetti ngan pizza kat Little Italy lagi.. sadaaaappp nyeeeee... lapauuuuuuuuu!!!

Quotations fevret terkini aku "Not in a million years". Kena baca with British accent. Aku dengar satu song ni, singer dia English. Tapi every time nak sing along je, part yang paling lancar aku sebut cuma tang "Nout ien a mill-yeon yea- rss" ni jek. Balik-balik pon aku rewind, still part ini jek yang aku cemerlang. Mungkin memori dan sebutan aku da degenerated kot. Tau la da tua ni.. kann..

Subuh-subuh aku da kena gelak bos.

Boss : Hang nak p miting ni, semalam ke hari ni?
Aku : Eh! Hari ni boss
Boss : hang tulis 13 Oktober?
Aku : Alaa.. silap tulis la pula boss.
Boss : Hahaha.. aku ingat aku yang salah date..

Time tu belomm pun pukul 7. Boss aku bukan apa. Dia saspen sebab dia pun ada miting. Sah la aku memang dah tua.. hahaha. Sama la kita bos!

Hari ni aku seharian dekat site. Tiada yang lagi mengujakan selain berada dekat site. Rindu pula jaman-jaman aku jadi kontraktur. Especially bila ada memori daun pisang. Ahahaha..

Lepas makan banyak & kenyang amat.. Rasa bersalah pula pada perut. Ahaha.. Sorry mr perut.

Aku da tukar biji mata baru.. Kaler grey lagi. Tapi aku tak faham. Aku tengok orang lain pakai contact lense ok je tapi aku berair-air mata & hidung sepanjang hari. Kali ni aku amik yang kaler, bukan le sebab makcik nak bergaya. Kalo kaler punya,tak lah susah-susah nak fikir betul or terbalik contact lense tu. Kalau transparent..acik kompius mana depan mana blakang bah.

Adik aku buang tebiat dua tiga menjak ni. Pantang nampak aku buka kasut mamat ni.. Dia mesti nak cuba kasut aku. Aku tak paham sunggoh. Aku taw la kasut aku shantek & tempted untuk dicuba. Pastu tadi dia dianugerahkan nama baru, AF1 bagi nama B.O.B.o.I.. Hahahaha.

Sleep sleepy eyes..am so sleepy. Inside a dark room of mine.. I am counting times before bed time.. I could not think.. All i want is sleep. I hate meetings! I am out of topics, i know..

Perut aku mogok pagi tadi. Aku kena turun site dekat putrajaya awal-awal pagi..bila da banyak kali pegi toilet, saspen la juga.. Sampai ke aku ke site tu. Tapi perut aku memang behave amat lah time dekat site. Aku da siap-siap sound kontraktor sepaya hantar aku cari bilik termenung kalau perut meragam. Bilik termenung dekat site tu jenis portable.. Ngeri ok! Anyway, thanks mr perut kerana kamu sangat memahami.

Letih juga meneman kanak-kanak sepetang hari ni. Itu pun tak ke mana sangat. Rindu plak time kecik-kecik dulu. Walaupun aku tak cakap, aku memang sangat berterima kasih to both my parents. Aku sensitif kalau tengok orang buat naya kat orang tua. Tengok drama sedih sket, mula la meleleh. Apo aku merapu ni.. Homesick la ni.. Tapi aku memang tak akan tengok cerita sedih sebab confirm tangkap leleh. Menangis itu satu terapi apa... Tapi memang relive amat la pas nangis. Rasa macam terlepas semua aura negatif.

This is just a friendly advice...

"If you ever want to try to lie to my face, please do it properly with 100% commitment. If you are not smart enough, please do not attempt to try at all. If you think you are clever enough to lie, trust me, i am twice more clever to find out all your lies. Perhaps I do not say a thing but I am laughing at you and your stupidity, silently"

Peace y'all!

I am not feeling well and kinda exhausted. This always happen to me, blame pms! And mom, she called me and talk about something that long forgotten.

Maybe my mood is not at it's best but care to run a checklist, just to remind my self that i am..

Not becoming one grumpy young lady. CHECKED.
Not doing anything not-right. CHECKED.
Not complaining about every things. CHECKED.
Not feeling any needs to be attached to someone. CHECKED.
Laugh as much as crying. CHECKED.
Buy any thing i like. CHECKED.
Do plan but not making any specific one. CHECKED.
Not thinking too much and just enjoying life to the fullest. CHECKED.

...and i feel good, again.

I went looking for flower and kinda willing to pay up to hundred bucks for sakura-look alike? Was i out of my mind! Who knows what had happened to my brain. No wonder laa.. It is day 8th of the month today..hear this - I hated 8.

I am tired.. My two days course ended today. I went to Jalan TAR and Sogo. I don't know what has gotten into me lately but i became a fan of dining sets and stuffs for home. Maybe i am ready to own a house? Is it? If that's the case, i might able to make it happen after one or two years. But..buying a house is not as simple as buying cars. I could still dream, plan and think about it till the day it happen.

I am thinking about MAGGI mee.. The yumm yummy delicious mee. Again, thanks to MAGGI for creating something that i always can think of when my stomach 'calls' or when i dont have idea on what to eat.

I called my mom while having breakfast at old town white coffee, while waiting for AF1 and mr B to pick me up and 'moblogging' at the same time. And my stomch.. Ermm.. Toil-et maybe!

Bukan takat rambut aku je yang gugur.. Bulu mata aku ni pun, within this week tiap-tiap hari gugur. Aku pun tak paham. Orang kata mungkin ada orang rindu kalau bulu mata jatuh.. Apa-apa la pun orang nak kata.. janji mata aku tak botak.

Letih betul hari ni.. Letih makan banyak.. Hehe. Floor aku ada buat jamuan raya..seronot! Ada makna aku seronot tu sebenarnya.. Ngehehe.. Biarla rahsia ;)

Home alone the whole day.. Heaven! Nothing is more relaxing other than spending my precious time at home, as always. I am watching world cafe Asia on Travel&Living Channel at the moment. Watching peoples all around Asia preparing their dishes kinda moved me. Cooking is art. Just add in whatever i like, as long as the proportions are right. The goal ; 1st goes to aesthetic. I wouldn't want to try something that look 'ugly' kay. Love always starts from the eye, remember ;)

I am planning a trip to Japan or Europe next year, which i have not decided yet. I couldn't make it this year and hoping i could make it next year. I talked with ibu about Japan. Well.. I don't want to say much.. Just wait till it happen loh.

..trying to recall what i did today.. Mmm.. Nothing much.

Yesterday my bos gave us something to think about. How to design a 14 degrees room @ 50% relative humidity. Hua hua hua.. Come again?! He even handed me a book.."read this during weekend" he said. Hahaha.. Did i read it yet? Naah..