Macam tak percaya aku dah khatam kelas Bahasa Mandarin. Aku scored 85.5 before kena minus half mark...haha. Tapi kalau laoshi tu potong aku one mark, aku dah down grade ke B sebab A ranged dari 85 above. But, who cares. It is just a paper.

Hari ni, aku tak terkena audit sebab ramai senior. ABoss belanja. Akaq kat opis aku tu apa lagi, pulun kfc satu barrel ngan big mac sebijik sorang. Biasa orang belanja kfc or mcD, tapi akaq tu balun dua2 skali. Punya tak terangkutlah sampai kena bawak trolley Carrefour ke opis. Kitaorang buat makan2 internally sempena BSenior pindah. Duduk dalam small room, enjoy the food sambil borak-borak.

Tapi aku sebenarnya bersedih hari ni. Aku punya layu la sepagi sampai kena tegur oleh BSenior. Semalam before tidur aku dah dua tiga round menangis. Tidur plak macam tak tidur sebab tangan aku berdenyut2. Nasib juga aku pegi amik mc kat klinik hari 2 & doktor tu bagi aku  pain killer. Dalam kol 2 aku terjaga sebab tak tahan sangat. Pas amik pain killer, barulah aku dapat  tido ngan aman. Malam sebelum tu aku muntah 4 round, sampai tekak rasa kembang. Malam tadi sakit tangan. Apa lah nak jadik nih. Belum kira hati aku yang sakit. Nasib hari ni dah ok.

Besok hari terakhir aku bekerja. Pastu aku cuti paaanjang. Aku takde plan lagi. Aku rasa macam sunyi, tapi bila dalam crowd aku rasa nak hide somewhere yang aman & do my own thing. Aku selalu rasa macam 2. Orang kata, mingle with people & making friend surely make your life happier and merrier tapi aku pulak sebaliknya. Aku rasa bingit. Insecure? rendah diri? x confiden? Aku mana peduli kalau ada antara tiga things tu one of my problem. I just want to have my own time. Going huhahuha... then what? tired? go home, sleep and repeat it all over again? I rather sleep at home. What a terrible person.. laugh to it.

Tomorrow is gonna be the day full of audit. Actually it started today but my unit was schedule on the next day which is tomolo. I hate this! what am I going to answer. The fact that my BBoss or CBoss is not going to back me up is pathetic to say.

I went for an evening eat out with my brother. He suddenly giving me this big-brotherly advice about Romeo must die. Oh! dear. That guy always harassing my ear. A guy like that? What? N is a the only answer. What was my brother thinking.
                
                       

I am currently watching ghost, season 2 aired on 8 tv. I must say, I like the idea. I also love Blogger Boy.

The temptation of Grey's Anatomy series at Rm 40 wide edition for each seasons were unbearable. I am still waiting for season 5. The man at the shop told me that season 6 is out but I have no idea what happened in season 5, so I opted to wait.

I finished Gossip Girl season 1... kinda ok la.

I am currently watching the first season of sarcastic House. I missed season 4 dvd but I will try again to look for it next week. I am thinking about buying the CSI miami collection or Bones. I love both series very much. I am rethinking of astro but I dont think that it would make a different to my spending on dvd habit.

Last nite during lunch, we were doing a happy talking on babies until one of the guy told us that his supposed to be three month old died after a week of being born. It would be the saddest moment to lose a baby after 9 month of waiting especially for the mother. One of my friend lose her baby of eight months. I dont like children as much as before but of course I still love babies. They were so small, so delicate.. and soothing. Yeah yeah...

HOUSE IT IS

                                                                                                                                                                                        

I am watching Gossip Girl. Ow my God! I think Blake Lively is... just average but I liked Leighton Meester. She is so cute.  I am so tired. Yeah...

Ok. Last night I got my mandarin class result. I got an A! Yeah! So good. We were planning a dine out and karaoke night tonight after 10 pm to celebrate.
                                                                                                                                                           

Drained

What did I do the whole day? I have no idea except forgot.

I will be going to attend a three days ISO course starting tomorrow. Somewhere near sogo. My Aboss is not around. I think my life has became complicated. I dont want to think. I hate it but I dont dare to say or even think about it.

Mom asked, will I be home for not-Christmas. Well.. I did not decide yet. I tried to contact the responsible parties, but the required answer is still pending.

BBoss already approved my cuti application. Yeah.

I plant chili tree inside my room... plastic tree of course

Pompuan dan Rokok

Satu petang yang dingin, aku dan adik lelaki melepak di warung sambil menikmati makan malam yang tidak berapa enak. Tiba-tiba....

Adik : Tengok pompuan kat depan tu
Aku  : Mana? (Sambil tercari2 orang yang dimaksudkan)
Adik : Tak elok la...  (sambil buat muka)
Aku  : Apa yang tak elok dik? sebab dia merokok?
Adik : Haa la.. tak elok pompuan merokok.
Aku  : Iye. Tak comel
Adik : Bukan apa. Perempuan ni kalau merokok, lebih banyak risiko.
Aku  : Orang ada satu soalan. Kalau couple, si boyfriend merokok tapi si pompuan tidak, rasa2 siapa mati dulu?
Adik : Hahaha. Si pompuan le. (Why? Go google!) Oo! Sebab 2 la dua2 merokok ye.
Aku  : Well (buat muka toya)

Aku personally tak berapa berkenan kalau perempuan merokok. Kalau lelaki merokok pun aku tak suka, apa lagi perempuan. Aku tak faham kenapa orang merokok. Aku lagi tak faham kenapa perempuan nak merokok tapi aku hormat la sebab itu hak masing2. Tapi merokok memang busuk and certainly a big turn off for me.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          

Akhil Hayy???

Hari aku berlalu macam biasa. Aboss ngan BBoss cuti.

Aku g shopping2 tengahari dekat MPH. Maka secara tidak sengaja aku terbeli buku lagi. Tapi aku suka buku merah tu. Best amat walaupun reganya 66 hengget sebuah. Aku juga terbeli buku I Luv Malaysia yang reganya lebey kurang 37 hengget tapi aku tetap suka walaupun duit ku habis.

Time aku naik lift, terserempak ngan sorang member aku ni. Kawan aku ni ari selasa tu tiba2 jek sms, nak ajak makan katanya. Mmm.. mimpi apa plak minah ni nak ajak aku g makan tetiba sebab sebelum ni memang tak pernah. So, tadi dia bukak cerita. Ader orang nak ajak aku makan. Aku tanyer la saper. Dia mention la nama sorang mamat nih. Aik! mamat ni plak baik ati benor nak ajak aku makan padahal aku x close pun ngan dia. Member tu kater, mamat tu da lama nak ajak aku g makan. 

Nak dijadikan cerita juga, mamat ni ensem orangnya. Kalo teraser ustaz akhil hayy to emsem, lebih kurang itu ler spesis muka mamat nih. Putih amat, mamat sepet, kurus dan tinggi. Eh! silap2 sedara ustaz tu kot eak. Nanti aku tanya dan bab makan free, aku memang tak tolak punya lah. Adik aku plak, sebok ajak aku balik kampung dia. Mak dia, adik2 dia... sampai awek dia pun dia nak kenalkan dekat aku. Sampai Aboss pun tau dia ajak aku balik kampung.

Aku da apply cuti. Yeah! 4 hari. Total hari bercuti aku ialah 10 hari! gileh aku x der plan lagi. Nak beli tiket balik, duit da le tak der. Tapi yang lebih sakit hati kalau aku teringat kes aku x dapat guna kemudahan tiket free yang mana sepatutnya hak aku. Aku memang rasa sangat lah sakit hati. Aku ni lain orangnya, kalau aku marah or sakit hati, aku tend to be too emotional. Sebab tu aku susah la nak marah or berasa sakit hati nih. Tapi bila ada rasa macam 2, memang sakit le. So, lantak lah.
                                                                                                                                                             

Po po yo

Hari  ni hari yang poyo. Turun breakfast ngan geng2. Dalam kol 9.20 CBoss bagitau aku kena g miting dekat Putrajaya. Chess!

Aku call mrT. Kebetulan dia pun nak pegi sana, kiranya aku langkah kanan ler. Miting patut start kol 10, aku sampai dekat kol 11. Aku da lawa2 aim port kat belakang, tetiba inchik projek manager tu"Aaa... mekanikal.. ada pun kat belakang tu, mari sinidatang depan!" Huhuhuhu

Dia ingat nama aku dah... abies la.

Tadi aku pakai satu suar yang aku simpan dekat opis. Waaa... memang badan aku da susut. Jaket yang satu masa dulu aku tak leh button pon da bule button.. muhuhaha... ayat perasannn!

Aku da beli spek mata baru... kaler purple... aku sangat suker sebab spek tu chome.
                                                                                                                                                                               

Rusa pujaan

Semalam aku exam. Exam kitaorang open mouth, so...aper lagi. Siap bule bukak phone dictionary oke. Tuler, saper suh tak kasik buka buku. Giler la soklan dia, ader ker patut tanya soklan yang tak diajar dalam kelas. Nasib ler aku ni kira reti ler sikit nak susun ayat. Asal aku blur, aku akan rewind macamana bos lama aku akan cakap BM. Contohnya pengunaan ayat "Saya besok mau pegi jalan" instead of esok saya nak pegi berjalan2 or saya hendak pegi berjalan2 esok.

So. Tadi aku merealisasikan impian menangkap gambar rusa kat pavilion. Ari tu aku ternampak gambar tu dalam paper... berazam ler nak pegi. Salah satu reason aku amik cuti ialah nak g tengok rusa tu. Giler sakai!

Aku tak ler menyambut krismas tapi aku suka sangat bila krismas ni tiba sebab decoration dia memang menarik esp tang salji ngan rusa ngan mr santa ngan pokok krismis.. sumer2 la. Dan, movie krismis pun bes. Mostly movie dia tak berunsur keagamaan, tapi more to family value.

Besok aku kerja. Napa aku tak cuti jek? Mmm... besok ari jemaat, hari rehat lamer. So, rugi kalau cuti. Hahaha.. Aku nak carik kat maner lagi ader dekorasi krismis yang best.

Ngantuk dah mata. Besok nak pakai aper aku tak plan lagi...
                                                                       

Entry Orang Letih

Besok aku cuti for no reason.Hmmm...
Sekarang? Sekarang aku tengah makan prosperity burger. Nyamm...

Letih. Tadi g JB balik hari. 4 jam pegi, 4 jam balik = 8 jam. G Jb raser cam dekat jek sebab pas lalu N9, then Melaka... pastu taw da dah sampai johor walaopun ader beraper jam lagi nak sampai JB. AF1Senora pun agree dengan aku.

Kol 6.50 aku sampai opis. Touch up sket, then turun g lobby tunggu koncho sampai. Dalam kol 7 lebih gak kitaorang bertolak. Pegi 4 orang. Rupa2nya RSenora pun Aboss suh hangkut skali. Kalau pegi ngan Aboss, sah memang takkan tido punya sepanjang jalan sebab dia ni memang kaki borak. Kitaorang berhenti breakfast dekat hentian kat Somban,  dalam kol 10 setengah gak sampai Jb. Puas da ronda2 buat inspection, dalam kol dua kitaorang bertolak dan sampai KL dalam 5.30. AF1Senora bawak 140 km/h.. tak ler laju sangat. Kalau kelajuan tu maintain tanpa stop even for a second, dalam 2 jam setengah da ble sampai aper.

Aku ngan RSenora turun dekat Sogo. Senang, terus amik lrt jek & tak yah tukar2 train. Aku ronda2 dekat Sogo. Kononnya nak pegi tengok hadiah tuk adik aku kawen. Aku kompius nak bagi apa. Nak bagi duit, bukan ler banyak berkoyan2 pun yang aku ader nak bagi kat dia. Aku ingat nak beli dua tiga barang dapur. Suh dia rajin sket memasak. Yang pasti aku kena belikan dia cofee maker 1 sepaya gigi dia kuning minum caffein. Pastu... nak kena tengok  lagi barang aper. Terfikir juga nak belikan dia iron steam yang dia duk berkenan, rega dalam enam ratus keatas. Hmmm...aku pk.. pk... sampai blur nih.

Besok exam kelas bahasa sena. Lagi baek aku stadi.

JB lagi

Besok aku kena turun JB lagi dengan AF1Senora & Aboss. Budak2 lain semua cuti. RonSenora dah dekat LA. Aku sedih juga nanti bila dia dah takder. Dia la tempat aku nak merujuk segala menda dan mengorek segala ilmu2. Dan yang pasti dah takder la orang yang akan panggil nama aku every morning. Sepanjang berjiran, every morning ler nama aku akan berkumandang dengan kuatnya kalau dia sampai ofis. Bukan takat pagi, tengahar sampai ke petang kadang2 tu. Dia ni jenis yang ceria. 


Ada one day tu, dia dengan kuat serta excitednya memanggil nama aku sambil tersengih2 tanpa sedar ABoss ada dekat2. ABoss pandang semacam jek.. hahaha.. Teringat tadi, ABoss tanya pasal dia. ABoss*da lama da ke tahu RonSenora tu dapat transfer LA. Ko mesti tahu kan. Aku*Erk!. Ayat tu semacam jek :P Aku tahu RonSenora tu sayang nak tinggalkan unit kitaorang tapi dia kesian dekat anak dia. Ala.. besok dia naik pangkat, sure akan  balik hq juga, aku yakin amats main branch akan tarik dia sebab dia memang bagus.


Kenapa semua yang baik ngan aku kena kuar dari unit kitaorang. Aku rasa sedih. Tapi tak tahu nak zahirkan macamana. Time kerja la time aku nak bermesra bersama rakyat sebab bila balik keja or ujung2 minggu, aku prefer to spare time for myself doing my thing. 

Tadi aku apply cuti ari rabu ngan khamis ni. Napa aku apply cuti eak? Tah! Aku pun kompius sebab aku takder hal pun. Mmm... mungkin sebab cuti aku tinggal berbelas ari lagi kot. Dulu masa aku dekat LA, cuti tahunan 14 hari tu pun aku tak terhabis setahun. Mesti ada balance tuk bawak g tahun depan so, kalau cuti 24 hari... apakan lagi kan. Ujung taun samada balik ke tak still tak tahu. Aku dah plan elok2, tapi disebabkan kebodohan tuut.. so, aku kena re-plan which aku rasa aku tanak ubah plan aku. Yang pastu,rabu ngan khamis ni aku nak menchotikan diri.


Ari tu da nak beli tiket g Jakarta tuk next year, tetiba aku kena ceramah oleh seswatu. Dia kata, elok ler ko tak yah pegi dalam keadaan sekarang ni. Dia pun kansel tiket dia g Indon. Tak per, bebila pun bule pegi. Tapi memandangkan aku ada plan baru nak sambung master taun depan... mmm... tak yah pk ler. Tunggu happen baru cakap.

Rabu malam aku ada exam mandarin. Walla walla... aku tak abis study lagi. Sah pail! Ari tu aku da pandai tulis, tapi sekejap jek da lupa. Aku ble baca, tapi tak reti nak tulis plak da. Tulisan chena ni bukan macam tulis ABC. Stroke kena betul, pastu complicated giler. Takper... ada lagi 2 ari which is memang tak cukup lerr.

Dad Story

Oh Dear.. I called my lill' sis last night only to be told by her sissy that they were just resting after having a kenduri this morning. I was a bit shocked to hear that since my mom was not around so who organized it? It was dad. I asked, who cooked? Aunties. Yeah.. I have got seven aunties, one mom's sister while the other six were her brother's wives.

I smsed mom  but she did not reply. I missed her. I missed home. Maybe I should add up a few friends to make homesick go away duh..

But.. I hated crowds since forever and soo not a fan of making friends or being in a group of friends. I only need one or two. I opted for quality, not quantity. Friend should live a separate life but having mutual understanding like spouse. I am hard to deal with, I wont start if people did not make a move so that is why I needed someone sincere and never gave up on approaching me. I cared for my friend even though I rarely contacted them. I always remembered them more then they remembered me though I did not say anything. Weird huh?

I celebrated Hari Raya Qurban at home watching movies. I have more than ten crystal clear Blue Ray dvds to watch. My sister is here. She has to do some shopping for her wedding. I remembered the day I was making preparation for my wedding which is not happening. Gifts were all ready. The planned was a simple wedding. Nikah without any majlis bersanding. I loved to wear wedding dress but not the part sitting on the chair ok. Lucky that it has been canceled because if it was on, I might end up hurting my mom's heart by refusing to have majlis bersanding..hehe

To wed on my way, here are what I would do. Call tok kadhi, nikah and then.. ehemmmm ;P A simple kenduri kesyukuran with superb food would be more than enough. Food must be first class of course because I do not enjoy being curse on my wedding day and peoples remember the lousy food being served that day their whole life! Or I can just write a wartikah whatsoever instead of surat jemputan saying that I am now married to all villagers to avoid any fitnah; the main purpose of doing the kenduri khawin, rite! 

Fraiday

Dear...

RonSenora dah dapat transfer pegi LA. Aku boleh jek buat-buat dengki haloba berebut ngan dia tapi aku prefer duduk Hq. Biar macam kuli batak tapi kepuasan tu ada. Kerja gomen ni tak sesuai untuk someone yang suka settle down dekat satu tempat. Tak de maknanya beli umah sebab any time pun bule kena pindah unless nak kasi orang lain sewa. Aku tengah berbelah bagi samada nak tukar kawasan atau tak. Now aku jaga area KL, S'gor, Penang ngan Perak... kalau aku accept aku kena jaga Pahe, Kelate & Ngganu. Aku sekali pun tak pernah jejak dua negeri tu oke! Nak kena travel tu yang aku tak tahan.Tau ler aku ni pemabuk orangnya. Aku suka jaga area skarang, even bos tak ler sanggih tapi ok ler tak mengganggu idup aku. Tapi kalau aku tak buat macam tu,ada plak makhluk yang tak dapat aku nak 'spray'. Aku trasa macam nak 'spray' jugak ;P Bos pun dah tanyaaku tadi tapi aku malas ler nak ngadu domba.

AKu nak balikkkkkkk kampung ujung taun niiii!!! Gerammm aku kalau terfikir pasal benda nih..

Not wonderful

Diary dearest... Today is not one of my wonderful day.

Yesterday I woke up at 7 and took an hour berendam dalam tab mandi. At 8 something I went down for breakfast. Checked out at 9 am and  went straight to site to continue our job. Gathered at 3 pm to have a short discussion on our finding before our journey home.. I managed to reach home ten minutes before 10 pm. Lepas mandi, kemas2 sikit... tidooo...

Berbelah bagi antara nak turun office lambat or what... tapi pukul 5.30 mata dah buka. Mandi. Siap2. Sampai ofiice terus completekan report, as early as 6.5 2 aku dah keje oke! After lunch head of team & Aboss duk sesama buat report while aku buat bodo. Mesti dorang tak expect aku dah siapkan report siap dengan gambar2 sekali. Aku dah agak awal2... mesti pengarah nak cepat punya.

Report siap... balik aku shopping dvd dan menabur duit dekat chena kat kedai  dvd tu. Malam aku datang kelas. Last week ponteng kann... next week exam. Tak tahu ler bule datang exam ke tidak since AF1 bagitau next week kitaorang akan berkampung lagi dekat JB. Fail aku bertimbun lagi nak diluluskan. Takat lulus jek tak pe, nak kena check pulak telly tak dengan design. Team utara dah dekat dua minggu tunggu surat aku kuar. Puas ler aku berjanji palsu dengan kontraktur.

Pastu ader nak test dekat Kelate pulak... tu baru yang ni.. kalau 2011 nanti aku ditakdirkan masih ada dekat cini, mati ler sebab plojek2 giant schedule to complete tahun tu. Yang kat JB baru 2 sistem, yang 'giant' tu complete system,lebe 10 siste. Time tu gugu ler rambut aku. Time plojek start ngan abis la time yang paling kritikal. Nak buat keluluse ngan tutup akaung susah kalah2 sakit sembelit you!

Malam ni aku tak menjamah makanan padahal kat JB aku asyik makan jek. Tengahari aku tapau nasik. Balik keje plak beli teh ais mamak jek.. tak jamah apa pun. Kepala pening. Adik aku kawen, silap2 aku tak balik. No sayap ayam.. no Labuan.. no majelis kawen gara2 kebodohan sistem pengurusan agihan kewangan kat Mesia ni.  Seriuws, memang bodoh gile!

Aku tak cakap lagi kat parents aku sebab mak aku still kat Mekah. Nasib juga  parents aku ni golongan yang tak kecoh dengan haktiviti mengembar gembur segala hal. Sempoi all the time, esp my dad. Tapi aku dah cakap ler kat adik aku. Kalo aku tak dapat balik time adik aku kawen pun, aku tak ler rasa apa sangat walaupun aku memang ler nak balik untuk memeriahkan majelis kannn.. Dia kawen jek, bukan pas kawen tak jumpe punn. Dia pun aku rasa dia tak ler bother sangat sebab aku ngan dia line of life ni lebih kurang jek. Dari kecik2 sama2 dah berdikari & kurang kebergantungan kepada sesape pun la except pas ni seband dia la kan. Tengokla macamana. Serabut kepala aku ni tak sudah lagi, malas nak fikir.                                                                                                                                                                   

Kami yang Malaang!

Dear..  I woke up at 5.30 yesterday. I reached office at 6.52 am only to find out my colleague promise is just another guy lie. AF1 and Aboss picked me up at office then we headed to Bangi to get  MrB. The rest of the gang  rode in other car. It took us almost hours before stopping at Ayer Keroh to allow my boss to take his meds. We met with the rest there. We even met other gang from Hq.

I did not sleep even for a second till we reach JB. I sat in front since Aboss worried that i might get mabuk darat. Lucky that  AF1 was such a good driver, smooth ride... We reached JB around 11 am. We started doing testing right after we finished discussing with contractors and consultants about the plan for the whole day.

I teamed up with Dauz doing testing on aircond system while my Aboss and AF1Senora tackled pumps and chillers area. The rest were doing the fire fighting system test. We met after lunch and gather to do room air distribution testing. Things went smoothly except for the part which the consultant was a bit ekseng. Then RonSenora showed him who is the real heroes among non heroes. He did thorough checking on the system and causing little 'turbulence' among the non heroes there.

During lunch time, Aboss popped up an unexpected question which if you heard it correctly, it was an instruction actually.
Aboss *macamana kalau tak dapat habis, siapa volunteer nak stay?*
Us*whattttt??? (hearts did the inside talking).

The actual plan was to finish all works and return to KL on the same day. That is why none of us bring any clothes whatsoever. At 4.30 pm, the decision was final. Some of us must stay there sehelai sepinggang. One of them was me. We called our team as kami yang maalangg!

Macamana tak malang kalau dah ler letih jalan turun naik satu hari. Kena pula tinggal to continue the work while our mind was only thinking about pakaian dan keperluan tuk overnight yang tiada. No berus gigi, no sepentot, no makeup (valid for the one and only girl in the group) whatsoevah! Then, sesat pulak time cari hotel while minyak kereta dah oren and the pump oil station was nowhere to be found. It were only few minutes before I am  going to throw up we finally find our way to hotel. Lucky that the hotel located next to shopping complex so that we could do some shopping for something to wear that night and the next day. We only have less than five minutes to gather at hotel lobby after shopping time finished for arranged dinner at I-dont-remember-where-but-it-was-such-a-nice-place. Butter prawn, ketam, ikan etc awaited us there. Also a brother with a very nice and soothing voice singing beautiful song with acoustic guitar. I felt like sitting there the whole night.

I spent my day sleeping and doing tooth relaxing. I am having a toothache after almost 4 years of never experience those feeling since the day i met my favorite dentist. Thank to someone who has been encouraging me to see her. I am having tomyam while enjoying movie moment at this hour. My gigi is still saket and I hate this!

Monday I will be heading to JB with my koncho, which of course ler i will be the only girl among 8. We will be doing some testing and comm work there. The earlier planning is to head there as early as 6.30 in the morning. Wallah... guess i will be sleeping sleeping on my way there. Next week will be my busy week. Uh! Uh!

Oh! Oh! Oh!

Semalam aku tengok citer I Love You Man. A story about lonely guy. Mamat ni kawan dia sumer pompuan, tapi dia bukan pondan ler. Dia da nak kawen tapi tak der best man. One day dia terdengar kawan2 kepada future wife dia ngumpat dia sebab takder kawan lelaki. Dengan kecik ati, dia pun try ler man date. Hahaha... Kelakar gila! Mak mamat nih siap ingat dia gay & set up dengan dengan sorang lelaki. Future wife dia pun supportive gila. So at last dia jumpa sorang. Dorang ni dua2 normal tapi relationship dorang buat aku envy la jugak. Best gila!

Naah..

It was one enjoyable day last night. We kept laughing about this upper leveler that continuously asking the mechanical and electrical team, which were us the ikan bilis level whether on not we have questions to ask. Hmmm.. Blame it to my nature of hating to request or ask question.

I remembered the day i was resigning from my previous company. My boss asked me, do i think my salary was not enough or any people causing me to make such move. I worked there for almost 5 years. Whatever given to me, i just accept with no question ask. Except one time tuh ;P Call me stupid but you cant run from your nature and thanks to that attitude and nature of mine for the life i have. Extra somewhere, lesser on the other but i am without complaint. What type of damage or losses we are talking here, rite?

My free air ticket has not been approved yet. I dont know how they manage money here in gomen, but this one is stupid! The portion shall always be made available. The right is ours to have it.  Are we talking about sincerity or what? What about trying to be fair people!

Paris Hilton

I am attending a two days green building course at Hilton starting today. The hotel looked O.L.D from the outside! And i should also mention those tasteless lunch being served at their Chinese restaurant. Seriously, I think Mawilla's food at L.A is 2 or 3 or 4 times better than their's. So, my dear sister Paris... you better do something about your Hilton if u have to do anything with the name.. ahah

My course started quite late since the speaker flew all the way from Pittsburgh which I don't really have any idea where in the world was it located. They said the trip took 30 hours. I think I'd better be sleeping rather than traveling. Mmm.. I kinda remembered my UK plan next year. Maybe I have to postpone all my travel-dream since I have a new plan and priority which is to further study. I will have to review the plan. We'll see...

I am single, young and adorable.. yes.. buekkk! Sou? I spent a lot on dvds and books and many things which is not-so-important, and I have no plan to find mr right so, I think I better patch my life a little.

I was thinking about getting a second degree, favorable in civil engineering or quantity surveying for quite sometimes. But, I am thinking about master in environmental engineering or engineering management which is useful for advancing my career path. I loved the place they put me a this moment. It is not for everybody to get a chance to experience the thing I am experiencing here. Even for my other colleague in this department. Just as what the speaker told us today, hospital services are the M.O.S.T of all kind so you will later on realize other building services to be a lot easier to handle. I believe in him.

He showed us how they did the hospital projects at Abu Dhabi. Wallah! Nice simulations.

Sak-nday

My Sunday started with tummy ache. I am stuck in front of television. Instead of watching it, I think it is the tv who is watching me.

I couldn't recall the tittle of the movie playing on the tv. I have watched it before and owned the cd.

What am I gonna do now? Seriously!

Entry Saket

Aku saket... kacian aku.

Saket kerana 5 perkara :

1. Saket la, apa lagi

2. Terkejut kerana memiliki sikit skill berenang

3. Hujung bulan. Muntah. Pening. Ya. Bukan apa yang anda fikirkan.

4. Terlebih pakai badan dan kepala kebelakangan ni

5. Terlebih beli dvd, buku dan barang-barang mengarut

6. Kerana menyampah terhadap kotoran dan pengotor dan kotor

Aku rasa Megan Fox sangat wow!

Wow!

Wow!

Dan wow! Nothing sexier than her baby. Not even Angie.

Aku

Aku kena kejar orang gila ari tu!

Aku g sopping2 ngan comelnya berseorangan selepas menikmati sarapang. Pegila tengok kasut. Aku da rasa pelik da dengan mamat ni, mana aku pegi dia pegi. Aku pusing 10 kali. Dia pun pusing juga. Nak kata bangla, putih gila. Nak kata orang putih, macam arab. Nak kata arab, mata biru.

Dia datang tanya aku, aku Malaysian ker. Aku, yes! Whyyy?? Sambil menunjukkan isyarat ngomong sama tangan sambil berlalu. Cilakus lho. Lho pehalll! Kalau nak tanya tu, tak kan ler aku pusing 10 kali, lho pun ikut kan. Macam tadak orang lain lho bule tanya.

Mungkin ni juga salah satu sebab aku jatuh sakit! Ahah!

Fiq dan airmata

Kasih..maafkan diriku

Banyak dosaku padamu

Tidak terhitung jari jemari daku

Tak dapat dibilang bagai bintang beribu

Sukarnya bagiku menebus kekhilafan yang lalu

Kasih...engkau tak bersalah

Hanya hatiku yang buta

Tulus dan ikhlas kau korban jiwa raga

Dan tanpa belas kubuat kau keciwa

Kutahu dirimu sukar melupakan segalanya.....

Lagu yang tidak pernah menyentuh jiwa..
Namun kini mampu membuat air mata ini menitis lagi setelah sekian lama..
Seolah-olah baru semalam hati ini terguris..
Oleh satu luka yang amat dalam...

Untuk ucapan selamat tinggal..

Biarlah air mata ini mengalir..

Untuk saat ini.

Jiwang.

Aku Bangga

Aku bangga bekerja di sebuah jabatan yang sering dihujani pelbagai presepsi negatif kerana adanya seorang ketua seperti bos aku.

Aku bangga masih ada golongan yang berintegriti dalam jabatan aku.

Aku bangga aku rakyat Malaysia

Yehaaaa!!

Hari aku bakal dicakar bos

Bos aku takder kuku panjang

Bos aku bukan kucing atau binatang berkuku tajam

Bos aku juga buka pontianak

Tapi hari esok aku pasti akan dicakar beliau

1 pompuan nisbah 10 lelaki kat opis

Dan aku takble harap kat mokcik sorang tu tuk tolong aku

Maka akan tercakarlah aku besok

Habislah riwayat budak degil dan tak reti nak bohong sunat

Dulu kecik2 aku suka gak bohong

Tapi aku selalu sangat terkantoi

Sampai aku phobia nak bohong

Bila besar2, aku tak der kemahiran nak berbohong

Takat 1 or 2% jek tinggal

Gertak sikik jek

Aku da gabra 100%

End up, aku ter'terpaksa bercakap benar

Aku rasa orang menyampah gak ngan aku

Tapi aku cuma bagitau apa yang betul

Even dengan orang yang aku tak kenal pun

Or tak nampak muka

Aku tak kan boleh nak tipu

Aku memang meloyakan tapi sebenarnya itulah aku

Poyo dan sincere

Walaupun aku meloyakan

Itulah keistimewaan yang tuhan bagi dekat aku

Tak kenal memang tak cinta

Da kenal, depa bley cinta mati

Muhuhahaha

Rugi owh mereka yang tak nampak betapa bersinarnya aku

Seperti permata you!

Hahahaha... bueekkkk!!

Maka esok, hari kiamart bagi aku

Mungkin hilang lah aku

Sebutir permata

Atau malaplah cahaya ku

Dan tak naik-naik pangkat ler gamaknya

Sampai bila-bila

Aku berada di luar opis sepanjang ari tuk buat switchboard witness test tuk chiller.

Tapi hari ni best sebab dua perkara.

First sebab dapat makan chinese food yang dihiasi udang galah besar sekor sorang dekat golf club kat bukit jalil. Seken sebab aku terberjumpa sorang lagi fine gentle man selain mr idola. Aku suka mamat yang wise dan at his own class. Pengertian wise tu bukanlah sebab someone tu banyak idea etc. Itu kadang2 over or nak tunjuk pandai jek. Wise is wise! See.

Tak paham? Memang pun aku tak berniat nak bagi orang paham.

Aku still suka dua jenis lelaki.

First yang wise.

Second yang tak lelaki sangat, tak perempuan sangat..

Selesa rasanya berada bersama orang2 macam ni

Aku menyampah golongan yang

Loud & Overconfident.

Bengap dan lembab

Tak tahu aper dorang nak dalam hidup & tak firm

Pemalas dan tak berdaya maju langsung

Sumer nak harap pompuan buat

Kaki cukur tak sedar dirik

Mulut macam p***** manuk (bak kater ustaza aku)

Busuk

Terlalu wangi. Ko pondan ker apa?

Cap ayam

Terhegeh2

Poyo dan perasan

Ngorat takder style

Yang asal pompuan se*, asal se* pompuan.. p la kacau anjing ker, babis ker

Lowest of the class?

Op korse yang lupa nak cermin diri sendirik kat cermin

See. Aku dah kater aku memang tak berapa suka kat orang2 lelaki ni.

Still. Aku straight oke. 100% you!

Hahahaha

Lunch time, lepas aku bersopping sambil menambah utang dekat levis. Ok.. citer pasal Levis dulu.. Aku da muat saiz 28.. Ahahha..kunun! Aku beli jenis yang tight plak tu. Owh! Seski jameela aku. Aku peduli aper walaopun kaki aku gemuk ker.. gempal ker.. gebu ker.. montoks ker.. ahakss! Aku nak pakai juge!

Life As Engineer

Shopturday

Aku g jalan2 cari pasal hari ni...

Owh.. aku soka..

Sarapan sambil menikmati hari sabtu dari Old Town..
Sedapp pulak roti dia nih..
Tapi hanguss lelangit aku makan fries..
Tu lah... lahap sangat!

Tapi kopi ais Toast Box lagi sedap dari Old Town. It's a fact

G kedai pevret... Memang aku ni terrer bab mencari kedai pevrett.. Kedai2 jalanan yang menawarkan barang bagus punya.. and murah

Mahal giler atau murah giler bukan hal kalau hati berkenan..

Aku kadang2 tak suker barang yang branded ni..  Bukan aper, sebab design dia limited. Mana2 kedai dia pun sama jek. Maka keberangkalian nak pakai baju sama tu.. tinggi. Nak mix & match pun kadang2 tak sesuai

Street fashion pula, kalau creative.. we create a fashion

instead of just wearing it..

Aku tak suker pakai aper yang orang lain pakai

Aku suker something yang smart tapi outstanding

Bukan yang seruper ngan sumer orang

Aku tak kira la ko pakai mahal..

Takder maknanya kalau BORIA!

Guess sebab niler aku ter'dihantar belajar textile dulu kot..

Tapi baju Hush Puppies tadi.. owh! chanteknyaaaa

Sekarang aku gila tights.. tights..tights
Selain long dress of course
... dan this one fabric type
... dan this one bra type
... dan this one baju tidoq type

Semua kerana fabrics!

Aku ader 3 favorite fabrics ok!

Aku pon tak taww aper ke namer2s fabrics tuh.. ader modal sket.. ader cotton sket.. ader elastane.. mmmm... spandex sket.. apa lagi ntah

Aku memang menang membeli
Alah memakai
Memang sebab aku membeli banyak..
Juga sebab aku terrer cari sumber tuk beli yang banyak2 tu :P
Alah memakai pula..
Yelah.. da banyak sangat.. Bila nak abis pakai kann

Dari barang2, pakaian, kerja, rumah... sampai la ke boyfren

Kalau aku suka, aku akan stick ke itu jek

Barang2 & pakaian -

Aku akan beli spatern yang aku berkenan tu sampai dua tiga.. Sama kaler or lain2 kale.

Rumah & kerja -

Aku tak suker tukar2 kerja or pindah2 umah. Susah or macamana pun, aku tak percaya aku xble fit in dengan kerja or dalam rumah tu

Boyfren -

Aku tak beraper suker lelaki kann.. yang spesel jek la mampu melekat kat at.. awww.. ahaha

Kawan -

Aku tak suka ramai2, semak! Biar sikit tapi berkualiti okes.

Pagi ni aku turun sarapan dengan BBos, AF1, Ron ngan RSenora. Bila sebut pasal trip semalam, semua tergelak. Abos pula takder hari ni... Dan aku akan sebok menyiapkan approval serta surat2 khianat ;p

Trip to Riverside

Entrepreneur :

BBos

Destination :

Riverside

Members :

1. RSenora

2. Adik

3. Me

4. Dauz

5. ZA

6. AF2

Trip Chronology :

BBos : Saper nak ikut pegi makan dekat Riverside?

AF2 : (Sengih)

BBos : AdikA.. nak pegi?

Adik : (Pon sengih)

BBos : Ha.. nak pegi? (Point dekat aku)

Aku : Riverside tu kat ner ncik?

BBos : Sebla MV jek

Aku: Buleh jek  kalo beramai2

Aku : Jum, gi riverside

Dauz : Kat ner?

Aku : Ntah. BBos nyer plan

Aku : Jum, g riverside

ZA  : Buleh. Saper belanja?

Aku : (Sengih)

Aku : Jum, makan di Riverside

RSenora: Buleh sajaaa

(APSAL AKU YANG SUNGUH2?)

Setelah tiba di destinasi yang dituju.

ZA: Aku ingat ader orang belanja sebab yang mengajak tu ko

Dauz --> (Senyap sebab kepanasan dan keletihan berjalan jauh)

Adik : Haha. Saya tak pernah pula sampai sini (Dlm loghat utara pekhat)

RSenora : Mari kita tinggal sini (sebok carik rumah)

AF2 : Pas ni kita g melawat2 kat dalam area perumahan (Sebok gak cari rumah)

BBos --> Orang yang kena kutuk sepanjang jalan.. hahaha. Tapi kerana beliau poyo, beliau jua tergelak sama

Aku : Hahahaha... panas ncik!

Ramai-ramai --> Ngintai ke opis dari riverside yang sebenarnya hanya longkang side sambil berjenaka tentang ABos. Teruk tol, harap BBos tengok2kan kitaorang, tapi BBos plak jadi kepala geng ular.. haha

Sepanjang dari opis, sampai balik opis kitaorang still gelakkan BBos dan BBos pon gelakkan kitaorang jugak.

Macam nilah nasib aku pompuan sorang2. Kadang2 seronok juga. Kalau time sarapan, RonSenora la orang yang paling sebok ajak sumer orang turun. Kalau aku kater dah minum, dia akan paksa gak aku turun sarapan skali. Mungkin kecian la tu sebab aku sorang lepas ketiadaan ibu. Ada one day tu, dia g site dekat Sarawak. TA aku pun cuti. Dauz pun cuti. Besoknya aku ingat dorang takder lagi. Time aku balik dari tapau, terserempak plak ngan RonSenora. Besoknya tu dia ajak aku sarapan & kater "hari ni kita minum di bawah aa, teda lagi minum di atas". Prihatin sungguh! Budak2 technician kitaorang yang kena transfer g cawangan lain tu pun, everyday dia akan call ajak minum.

Statement : Issue : Probability : Cause

Statement 1 : Mom is going to Hajj.

Issue : She did not know that her flight is transited at KLIA

Probability : Daughters could apply for leave and see her there

Cause : Her daughter has missed her

Statement 2 : Bbos divided me and AF2 into two teams

Issue : Big smile

Probability : Less projects, less harm

Cause : Work load decreased, skill decreased

Statement 3 : Tonight I have class

Issue : Laziness

Probability : Ponteng kelas

Cause : Pass the exam with no flying colors?

I LOVE YOU MOM

Doter : Mom, I Love You

Mom : I love You too. Pray for me.

Doter : Pray for me too.

Mom: I pray you would get married soon

Doter : Haha..You pray at Makkah la, but I think you better pray that my dad will never be fierce anymore!

Mom : Haha..

Mom I love You so much.

I knew I told U many times but telling you that wont be enough till forever and I still want to tell you how I love you so much.

I know I am the hardest yet the funniest daughter but I love You is not just a words for me.

I love you so much.

Sorry for all those wrong I did.

Sorry for all those words I misused.

Sorry if I ever made you eyes fill with tears

I will miss u for one month..

May you be back from Hajj safe and happier than ever

Life Without Boyfriend

Q : Do you have a boyfriend?

A : Nop

Q : What is your current age

A : 28

Q : Are you gay

A : Daaa.. No!!

Q : How many of your good friends were a girl?

A : Less than 10

Q : How many of your good friends were a boy?

A : Almost every friends

Q : How do you rate your good boy friends?

A : They suck as boyfriend, best at friend.

Q : Do you believe in love?

A : Yes

Q : Do you believe in marriage?

A : Yes

Q : Do you think your dream guy will appear someday?

A : Yes

Q : Do you have anyone you admire secretly at the moment?

A : No. But I fancy one. 

Q : Do you have secret admirer?

A : Maybe

Q:  How do you react towards your secret admirer?

A : Cold

Q : What do you find in a guy?

A : Qualified as man and kissable

Q : How do you rate your taste of boyfriend?

A : I don't. My heart did.

Damages

List of damages I did today? A lot!

I dont want to talk about this coz this might cause me headache.

Enough to say that I am not proud of what I did today.

Sorry my pocket!

I miss my mom.

Her flight will be on this 28th.

I think I should stop, for real.

I dont know what is the point of my doing.

PAST

I never thought I'd.. be in love like this

When I look at you my mind goes on a trip

And you came in.. and knocked me on my face

Feels like in I'm in a race

But I already won first place  

I never thought I'd.. fall for you as hard as I did

You got me thinkin' about our life a house and kids

Every mornin' I look at you and smile

Cause boy you came around and

you knocked me down.. knocked me down  

 PAST_FUTURE = PRESENT

 Sometimes love comes around   (love comes around)

And it knocks you down

Just get back up

When it knocks you down   (knocks you down)

Sometimes love comes around

And it knocks you down

Just get back up

When it knocks you down   (knocks you down)

FUTURE

So I gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad

Oh will you bring a better future than I had in the past

Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did

I don't wanna fall back on my face again

 I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call

 And if it hits better make it worth the fall ...

I love tis song.. I love Ne-Yo!

There is Nothing... I can Say!

Cherry cherry

Boom boom

Gaga

Boy we've had a real good time
And i wish you the best
On your way, eh eh

I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought we'd fall
Out of place, eh eh

I have something that i love long long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then i met someone
And eh, there's nothing else i can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh

Not that i don't care about you
Just that things got so compliqa’
Eh eh

I met somebody cute and funny
Got each other and that's funny
Eh eh

I have something that i love long long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then i met someone
And eh, there's nothing else i can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh

Idola ku

I had my breakfast with BBos, Dauz and mr W. I was a bit hangen this morning. My negative feelings towards tuuut was undeniably effecting me severely. Ayat power! But, tu pasal ler aku tak bley marah. Asal aku marah, aku sendiri yang sakit hati padahal orang yang aku menyampah tu rilek jer. So, tak adil kan!

Aku jumpa teman2 lama zaman berskolah tadi... wah! rindunyer zaman skolah. Nasib member aku tu nak amik aku kat MV. G makan dekat restoran ayam golek pantai dalam. Balik member lain plak hantar. Aku kalau ikut ati suker gak nak g berjumpa2... tapi da keta pun tadak. Bukan g menyenangkan orang, takut nanti aku g menyusahkan orang plak. So, tunggulah besok keta aku sampai.

AKU RINDU MAK AKU! RINDU GILA!!

How do U sleep?

Lama dah tak dengar that HOW DO YOU SLEEP song.

Since my fren kept repeating the same annoying song,

i paid back and repeat my song over and over again. Hahaha..

Her fevret song kinda annoying ok..

Dahle high pitch, speaker tak sedap..

Pastu song tu pula xsedap, langsung! ;p

MMmmm... How do I Sleep ye?

It's been about a year now

ain't seen or heard from you

I've been missing you crazy

how do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

it still smells just like you

damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep.

I tried my best at moving on 

... have yet to find a girl like you

I see things that I didn't before.. 

... and I'm wishing I had more time with you,

How do you stay awake 

... knowing all I do is think of you

All the things we thought about that never will happen again

... if I could just see you

If I had my way I'll come and get you girl

In your favorite car with the missing top

man around my way where we used to park

and did all those things to steal your heart

Baby all that I hear from my friends

again and again and again

(they come and ask about you)

(they say)

we saw your girl at the game and

damn we gotta say a big mistake by you.

Not only does your body bang

but I miss the conversation too

Tell me that you couldn't sleep

can't think can't eat till I come see you

If I had my way I'll come and get you girl

In your favorite car with the missing top

man around my way where we used to park

and did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now

ain't seen or heard from you

I've been missing you crazy

how do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

it still smells just like you

damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep 

I sleep soundly baby...

Nak cuti!

Tengah train ni menuju ke Bandar Tun Razak, tetiba mamat announcer tu cakap

'NEXT STATION - PWTC'

Mokcik yang duduk depan aku tu tegelak & kater 'mabuk kowt!.. ahahaha. Kelakau. Dalam pada mode aku cerio, tetiba mode bertukaz kepada hangen gara2 Touch & Go x function. Aku nak bagitaw la dekat management dorang ni, Sistem touch & go kalau tak function subuh2 ni, elok la sistem ni ditukar sajork namanya kepada I TOUCH BUT I CANNOT GO!

Bukan pasai tujek pon, sebenaknya aku terasa2 macam malas jek nak pegi kerja tadi. Macam nak EL jek. Smlam bukan tido lewat pun. Dalam kol 8.45 da tido sebab aku xdek mood gara2 apa ntah. Aku siap ber s-esemes ngan mr previous oke.

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Aku telah mencabar tiga bos lelaki hari ni. Disuruh pegi miting, aku engkar. Bukan takat ingkar, kerek pulak tu. Apalah nak jadi dekat aku ni. Berikut adalah perbualan dengan A bos.

Beliau*saper pegi miting pagi ni?

Aku*tak de ncik.

Beliau*B Bos ko mana. Dia tak suruh pegi?

Aku*tak tau dia pegi mana ntah (sementelaah mengkaver my B bos yang pegi servis keta). Dia ada la suruh pegi.

Beliau*dah tu?

Aku*tak pegi la kot ncik (bernada slow lagi tak bermaya)

Beliau*ha?..

Lalu tertawa tapi sebenarnya ku tahu jua beliau hangen.

Berikut pula perbualan dengan AF2.

AF2*awak tak pergi miting?

Aku*senyappp

AF2*Awak je lah pegi miting.

Aku*ncik, tak pegi kee?

AF2*sy banyak kerja.

Aku*saya laagi banyak kerja!* (hangenn kus kus kuar).

Hahaha.. Suka suki tak? Incik tu saper suh cari pashell. Time orang suh check, dia tido. Dah le aku dah siap2 ulas each item & state macamana aku bule came up with the result. Gla lah, org gomeng tak ramai seskema aku rasanya. Aku siket punya baik la provide dia guide, tapi dibalasnya toba. Keciann deh loe!

Ibu datang jenguk kitaorang... Dia da tak jompa kontraktur mahupun kunsaltan, tapi jompa Datuk2 dah.. Kasut pun da tinggi, mekap pung kaler2..hahaha. Alala Abos aku ni, dia pun gumbira nak borak ngan ibu sampai teramik time poya2 aku ngan ibu. G makan dekat noodle station, depan reject shop. Pastu melancong ke MPH.. huhu... tempat berlibur lagi dikenang.

Petang tu, Bbos plak bertanya

Bbos*pegi tak miting

Aku*tak pegi ncik

Bbos*haha

Sempoi tak sempoi Bbos aku ni. Dia ni jenis worang yang kita nak marah pon tak sampai ati.. kadang2 lurus, kekadang 2 plak.. Ops! hahaha...

Pelattt

"Perhatiannn kepada seamua penumpangg"..

Inilah suara minah pelat yang aku dok dengar hari-hari. Orang biasanya kalau dalam train bersms ker, rilek ker or kalling2 kengkawan ker tapi aku plak tulis diari. Walaupon pon aku ni bukan i-phone, but it's my-phone ok! Tulis diary ni banyak membuang masa sebenarnya. Untuk tidak membazirkan masa, so aku pun menulis diari ni sambil2 tunggu train. Wise choice!

Selain diari, aku memang selalu habiskan masa dengan my-phone aku ni melayari wiki, tak pun map dan mengunjungi facebook. Aku boleh komen status member2 tanpa terpapar di skrin mengatakan aku menggunakan tepon.. Tapi nak update status sendiri tak buleh & mesti guna mobile mode. Yelah.. Kalau facebook tak restrict, buat apa lah ada facebook mobile kannn. Kira ok la my-phone ni sebab memberi kepuasan skrin dan kamera yang maksima.

Aku rasa macam makcik ari ni sebab pakai tudung mokcik.. Hahaha. Aku pegi kerja pakai sandal jek. Kalao orang tengok, sure tak caya aku keje gomen dan tittle atas cop aku adalah pen. Pengarah. Geli i! Hahaha.. Kitaorang selalu persenda tittle 2. Apsal le tak guna inginiur jek. Aku pung pelik, dan malu. Ahahaha..

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Apsal ada ramai budak2 tak cukop umor ni a? Cuti skola ka apa ka?

Orang2 yang tunggu train ni ntah apa2 ntah. Time orang buat pengumuman, dorang memekak..dah tu time train datang baru kelam kabut nak tanya train ni berhenti dekat mana. Ada yang sampai keluar balik dari train pun ada..padanla muka. Rasanya pengumuman tu dibuat dalam BM dan BI. Kalo Chinese ker, India ker, mak 'arab ker yang tak paham tak pe la. Bukan nak dengar, tapi ada pula spesis yang siap komplen bising jek orang yang nak buat announcement ni. Train ni train shuttle Ipoh-Kajang dan berhenti dekat limited station jek. Ramai la juga yang salah naik train esp. yang tak biasa. Aku dapat balik awal pun sebab ader train ni lah.. ari2 buleh duduk.. tak la aku nipis jadik sardin.

Ari tu aku tengok berita kat tv 3 kot, last week kalau tak silap. Baby dalam stroller terlepas dari tangan mak dia then meluncur and jatuh ke landasan train. Train plak tak sempat brek. Terkejutnya aku. Tapi kuasa tuhan, sapa yang sangka baby tu selamat. Stroller tu memang hancur lah, maybe baby tu jatuh betul2 dekat tengah landasan sebab tu dia selamat.

Tadi aku borak2 dengan my Boss. Hari ini dalam sejarah aku membantu beliau mempunch kad. Muhuha.. Terkezut i menerima rekwest meminta bantuan dari beliau. Dia nak pegi melawat orang naik haji malam ni, so aku pun terbukalah cerita pasal mak aku pon nak pegi haji juga. Belihau tanya la, parents aku pegi berdua ke. Aku kater tak, mak aku jek. Tiba2 terbukak cerita pasal suami isteri ni. Belihau pon citer la, dulu dia tak bagi wife dia pegi haji sekali sebab parents dorang tak der orang nak jaga, lagi pun parents dia uzur. Pastu wife dia masam muka la..haha.. adalah sorang ustazah ni nasihatkan wife dia. Ustazah tu kater la, si asben tu kan larang atas sebab yang baik. Apa nak risau, c wife pun dapat pahala besar aper sebab tak ingkar. Tu yang boss aku kater, susah jadi wife nih sebab asben veto. Dia agree la bila aku kater, itu kalau c asben tu baik..bak nya yang tak elok... mudah nor ler dapat dosa.

Aku paling takut tu jek. Kalo ex aku dulu, dia tak paham. Dia kater, kalo aku buat something atas dasar takut berdosa, susah lah macam tu. Mmmm.. aku no komen la. Sebenarnya bukan dosa direct dengan Allah tu yang aku takut, tapi aku takut aku as isteri menyinggung ati asben. Dosa isteri dengan asben sebenarnya bukan direct dengan Allah, tapi berdosa pada asben tu membuatkan kita berdosa pada Allah. Aku sendiri pun tak sempurna, jadi kalau aku merintih serta merungut dalam hati... tak ker hati aku tu kotor dan membayangkan bahawa aku tu sebenarnya tak ikhlas?

Masing2 ada ego, ada kemahuan sendiri. Aku takut kemahuan aku melebihi batas penerimaan si suami sehingga aku melukakan hatinya. Kegagalan dalam berkomunikasi dan membuatkan si suami paham akan apa yang aku lakukan, tidakkah bermakna aku sudah mengguris hatinya? Bukanlah neraka yang aku tak takutkan, tapi aku lebih takut incik seband terluka hatinya. 

Ya! Aku adalah org yang bfikiran mcm nih. Orang kata kalau tak cuba, kita tak tahu. Hello! Kahwin bukan sesuatu untuk dicuba. Korang rasa korang ble khawin tu sebab apa? Sbb tuhan izinkan ok! Same goes to ilmu2 hitam. Ingat benda-benda tu berkesan atas si anu yang hendak disakiti sebab ilmu tu power ker? Janganlah cetek fikiran, semua tu berlaku atas keizinan tuhan. Mana ada perkara dalam dunia ni samada baik atau buruk berlaku tanpa keizinan tuhan. Kenapa tuhan izinkan perkara tak elok tu berlaku adalah atas ketetapan dan kudratnya, ujian pada kita para hambanya. Uishh...cukuplah ceramah agama mokcik nih.

Meeting tak yah pegi tapi kena menghadap B boss sepagi untuk buat kelulusan. Tak ker sama jek macam pegi miting?  AF2 yang pegi miting ni plak buat state-style... tak reti nak balik2 opis. Macamler kitaorang ni tak biasa pegi miting tu sampai tak tahu miting start and abis kol berapa.. ish! ish!

Tengahari pegi shopping baju tuk kat rumah jek. Seratus gak abis. Tapi memang puas ati.. Muhuhaha.. Baju pertama yang aku beli sejak 3 or 4 bulan kot. Aku ingat nak pegi melancong. Pas adik aku kawen, pas aku buat kelulusan sumer equipment yang related.. aku da ble pegi melancong. Tak kira la kalau pegi sorang pon, kenapa lah? Aku haruss pegi ke Bandung.. Londong... China.. Mmm...Tengoklah. DSLR dah ader, pasport dah ader...duit jek lagi. Aku da ada ilmu sikit bab2 teknikal nih, tak lah susah dah pasni nak buat kelulusan, nak buat approval & check the system. So, tak ler beban sangat kapla aku macam sekarang nih. Ospital or ospital!!