Life As Engineer

Shopturday

Aku g jalan2 cari pasal hari ni...

Owh.. aku soka..

Sarapan sambil menikmati hari sabtu dari Old Town..
Sedapp pulak roti dia nih..
Tapi hanguss lelangit aku makan fries..
Tu lah... lahap sangat!

Tapi kopi ais Toast Box lagi sedap dari Old Town. It's a fact

G kedai pevret... Memang aku ni terrer bab mencari kedai pevrett.. Kedai2 jalanan yang menawarkan barang bagus punya.. and murah

Mahal giler atau murah giler bukan hal kalau hati berkenan..

Aku kadang2 tak suker barang yang branded ni..  Bukan aper, sebab design dia limited. Mana2 kedai dia pun sama jek. Maka keberangkalian nak pakai baju sama tu.. tinggi. Nak mix & match pun kadang2 tak sesuai

Street fashion pula, kalau creative.. we create a fashion

instead of just wearing it..

Aku tak suker pakai aper yang orang lain pakai

Aku suker something yang smart tapi outstanding

Bukan yang seruper ngan sumer orang

Aku tak kira la ko pakai mahal..

Takder maknanya kalau BORIA!

Guess sebab niler aku ter'dihantar belajar textile dulu kot..

Tapi baju Hush Puppies tadi.. owh! chanteknyaaaa

Sekarang aku gila tights.. tights..tights
Selain long dress of course
... dan this one fabric type
... dan this one bra type
... dan this one baju tidoq type

Semua kerana fabrics!

Aku ader 3 favorite fabrics ok!

Aku pon tak taww aper ke namer2s fabrics tuh.. ader modal sket.. ader cotton sket.. ader elastane.. mmmm... spandex sket.. apa lagi ntah

Aku memang menang membeli
Alah memakai
Memang sebab aku membeli banyak..
Juga sebab aku terrer cari sumber tuk beli yang banyak2 tu :P
Alah memakai pula..
Yelah.. da banyak sangat.. Bila nak abis pakai kann

Dari barang2, pakaian, kerja, rumah... sampai la ke boyfren

Kalau aku suka, aku akan stick ke itu jek

Barang2 & pakaian -

Aku akan beli spatern yang aku berkenan tu sampai dua tiga.. Sama kaler or lain2 kale.

Rumah & kerja -

Aku tak suker tukar2 kerja or pindah2 umah. Susah or macamana pun, aku tak percaya aku xble fit in dengan kerja or dalam rumah tu

Boyfren -

Aku tak beraper suker lelaki kann.. yang spesel jek la mampu melekat kat at.. awww.. ahaha

Kawan -

Aku tak suka ramai2, semak! Biar sikit tapi berkualiti okes.

Pagi ni aku turun sarapan dengan BBos, AF1, Ron ngan RSenora. Bila sebut pasal trip semalam, semua tergelak. Abos pula takder hari ni... Dan aku akan sebok menyiapkan approval serta surat2 khianat ;p

Trip to Riverside

Entrepreneur :

BBos

Destination :

Riverside

Members :

1. RSenora

2. Adik

3. Me

4. Dauz

5. ZA

6. AF2

Trip Chronology :

BBos : Saper nak ikut pegi makan dekat Riverside?

AF2 : (Sengih)

BBos : AdikA.. nak pegi?

Adik : (Pon sengih)

BBos : Ha.. nak pegi? (Point dekat aku)

Aku : Riverside tu kat ner ncik?

BBos : Sebla MV jek

Aku: Buleh jek  kalo beramai2

Aku : Jum, gi riverside

Dauz : Kat ner?

Aku : Ntah. BBos nyer plan

Aku : Jum, g riverside

ZA  : Buleh. Saper belanja?

Aku : (Sengih)

Aku : Jum, makan di Riverside

RSenora: Buleh sajaaa

(APSAL AKU YANG SUNGUH2?)

Setelah tiba di destinasi yang dituju.

ZA: Aku ingat ader orang belanja sebab yang mengajak tu ko

Dauz --> (Senyap sebab kepanasan dan keletihan berjalan jauh)

Adik : Haha. Saya tak pernah pula sampai sini (Dlm loghat utara pekhat)

RSenora : Mari kita tinggal sini (sebok carik rumah)

AF2 : Pas ni kita g melawat2 kat dalam area perumahan (Sebok gak cari rumah)

BBos --> Orang yang kena kutuk sepanjang jalan.. hahaha. Tapi kerana beliau poyo, beliau jua tergelak sama

Aku : Hahahaha... panas ncik!

Ramai-ramai --> Ngintai ke opis dari riverside yang sebenarnya hanya longkang side sambil berjenaka tentang ABos. Teruk tol, harap BBos tengok2kan kitaorang, tapi BBos plak jadi kepala geng ular.. haha

Sepanjang dari opis, sampai balik opis kitaorang still gelakkan BBos dan BBos pon gelakkan kitaorang jugak.

Macam nilah nasib aku pompuan sorang2. Kadang2 seronok juga. Kalau time sarapan, RonSenora la orang yang paling sebok ajak sumer orang turun. Kalau aku kater dah minum, dia akan paksa gak aku turun sarapan skali. Mungkin kecian la tu sebab aku sorang lepas ketiadaan ibu. Ada one day tu, dia g site dekat Sarawak. TA aku pun cuti. Dauz pun cuti. Besoknya aku ingat dorang takder lagi. Time aku balik dari tapau, terserempak plak ngan RonSenora. Besoknya tu dia ajak aku sarapan & kater "hari ni kita minum di bawah aa, teda lagi minum di atas". Prihatin sungguh! Budak2 technician kitaorang yang kena transfer g cawangan lain tu pun, everyday dia akan call ajak minum.

Statement : Issue : Probability : Cause

Statement 1 : Mom is going to Hajj.

Issue : She did not know that her flight is transited at KLIA

Probability : Daughters could apply for leave and see her there

Cause : Her daughter has missed her

Statement 2 : Bbos divided me and AF2 into two teams

Issue : Big smile

Probability : Less projects, less harm

Cause : Work load decreased, skill decreased

Statement 3 : Tonight I have class

Issue : Laziness

Probability : Ponteng kelas

Cause : Pass the exam with no flying colors?

I LOVE YOU MOM

Doter : Mom, I Love You

Mom : I love You too. Pray for me.

Doter : Pray for me too.

Mom: I pray you would get married soon

Doter : Haha..You pray at Makkah la, but I think you better pray that my dad will never be fierce anymore!

Mom : Haha..

Mom I love You so much.

I knew I told U many times but telling you that wont be enough till forever and I still want to tell you how I love you so much.

I know I am the hardest yet the funniest daughter but I love You is not just a words for me.

I love you so much.

Sorry for all those wrong I did.

Sorry for all those words I misused.

Sorry if I ever made you eyes fill with tears

I will miss u for one month..

May you be back from Hajj safe and happier than ever

Life Without Boyfriend

Q : Do you have a boyfriend?

A : Nop

Q : What is your current age

A : 28

Q : Are you gay

A : Daaa.. No!!

Q : How many of your good friends were a girl?

A : Less than 10

Q : How many of your good friends were a boy?

A : Almost every friends

Q : How do you rate your good boy friends?

A : They suck as boyfriend, best at friend.

Q : Do you believe in love?

A : Yes

Q : Do you believe in marriage?

A : Yes

Q : Do you think your dream guy will appear someday?

A : Yes

Q : Do you have anyone you admire secretly at the moment?

A : No. But I fancy one. 

Q : Do you have secret admirer?

A : Maybe

Q:  How do you react towards your secret admirer?

A : Cold

Q : What do you find in a guy?

A : Qualified as man and kissable

Q : How do you rate your taste of boyfriend?

A : I don't. My heart did.

Damages

List of damages I did today? A lot!

I dont want to talk about this coz this might cause me headache.

Enough to say that I am not proud of what I did today.

Sorry my pocket!

I miss my mom.

Her flight will be on this 28th.

I think I should stop, for real.

I dont know what is the point of my doing.

PAST

I never thought I'd.. be in love like this

When I look at you my mind goes on a trip

And you came in.. and knocked me on my face

Feels like in I'm in a race

But I already won first place  

I never thought I'd.. fall for you as hard as I did

You got me thinkin' about our life a house and kids

Every mornin' I look at you and smile

Cause boy you came around and

you knocked me down.. knocked me down  

 PAST_FUTURE = PRESENT

 Sometimes love comes around   (love comes around)

And it knocks you down

Just get back up

When it knocks you down   (knocks you down)

Sometimes love comes around

And it knocks you down

Just get back up

When it knocks you down   (knocks you down)

FUTURE

So I gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad

Oh will you bring a better future than I had in the past

Oh Cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did

I don't wanna fall back on my face again

 I'll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call

 And if it hits better make it worth the fall ...

I love tis song.. I love Ne-Yo!

There is Nothing... I can Say!

Cherry cherry

Boom boom

Gaga

Boy we've had a real good time
And i wish you the best
On your way, eh eh

I didn't mean to hurt you
I never thought we'd fall
Out of place, eh eh

I have something that i love long long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then i met someone
And eh, there's nothing else i can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh

Not that i don't care about you
Just that things got so compliqa’
Eh eh

I met somebody cute and funny
Got each other and that's funny
Eh eh

I have something that i love long long
But my friends keepa' tellin' me
That something's wrong
Then i met someone
And eh, there's nothing else i can say

Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh
I wish he never looked at me that way
Eh eh, eh eh
There's nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh

Idola ku

I had my breakfast with BBos, Dauz and mr W. I was a bit hangen this morning. My negative feelings towards tuuut was undeniably effecting me severely. Ayat power! But, tu pasal ler aku tak bley marah. Asal aku marah, aku sendiri yang sakit hati padahal orang yang aku menyampah tu rilek jer. So, tak adil kan!

Aku jumpa teman2 lama zaman berskolah tadi... wah! rindunyer zaman skolah. Nasib member aku tu nak amik aku kat MV. G makan dekat restoran ayam golek pantai dalam. Balik member lain plak hantar. Aku kalau ikut ati suker gak nak g berjumpa2... tapi da keta pun tadak. Bukan g menyenangkan orang, takut nanti aku g menyusahkan orang plak. So, tunggulah besok keta aku sampai.

AKU RINDU MAK AKU! RINDU GILA!!

How do U sleep?

Lama dah tak dengar that HOW DO YOU SLEEP song.

Since my fren kept repeating the same annoying song,

i paid back and repeat my song over and over again. Hahaha..

Her fevret song kinda annoying ok..

Dahle high pitch, speaker tak sedap..

Pastu song tu pula xsedap, langsung! ;p

MMmmm... How do I Sleep ye?

It's been about a year now

ain't seen or heard from you

I've been missing you crazy

how do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

it still smells just like you

damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep.

I tried my best at moving on 

... have yet to find a girl like you

I see things that I didn't before.. 

... and I'm wishing I had more time with you,

How do you stay awake 

... knowing all I do is think of you

All the things we thought about that never will happen again

... if I could just see you

If I had my way I'll come and get you girl

In your favorite car with the missing top

man around my way where we used to park

and did all those things to steal your heart

Baby all that I hear from my friends

again and again and again

(they come and ask about you)

(they say)

we saw your girl at the game and

damn we gotta say a big mistake by you.

Not only does your body bang

but I miss the conversation too

Tell me that you couldn't sleep

can't think can't eat till I come see you

If I had my way I'll come and get you girl

In your favorite car with the missing top

man around my way where we used to park

and did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now

ain't seen or heard from you

I've been missing you crazy

how do you, how do you sleep

I found the letter you wrote me

it still smells just like you

damn those sweet memories

How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep 

I sleep soundly baby...

Nak cuti!

Tengah train ni menuju ke Bandar Tun Razak, tetiba mamat announcer tu cakap

'NEXT STATION - PWTC'

Mokcik yang duduk depan aku tu tegelak & kater 'mabuk kowt!.. ahahaha. Kelakau. Dalam pada mode aku cerio, tetiba mode bertukaz kepada hangen gara2 Touch & Go x function. Aku nak bagitaw la dekat management dorang ni, Sistem touch & go kalau tak function subuh2 ni, elok la sistem ni ditukar sajork namanya kepada I TOUCH BUT I CANNOT GO!

Bukan pasai tujek pon, sebenaknya aku terasa2 macam malas jek nak pegi kerja tadi. Macam nak EL jek. Smlam bukan tido lewat pun. Dalam kol 8.45 da tido sebab aku xdek mood gara2 apa ntah. Aku siap ber s-esemes ngan mr previous oke.

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤¤

Aku telah mencabar tiga bos lelaki hari ni. Disuruh pegi miting, aku engkar. Bukan takat ingkar, kerek pulak tu. Apalah nak jadi dekat aku ni. Berikut adalah perbualan dengan A bos.

Beliau*saper pegi miting pagi ni?

Aku*tak de ncik.

Beliau*B Bos ko mana. Dia tak suruh pegi?

Aku*tak tau dia pegi mana ntah (sementelaah mengkaver my B bos yang pegi servis keta). Dia ada la suruh pegi.

Beliau*dah tu?

Aku*tak pegi la kot ncik (bernada slow lagi tak bermaya)

Beliau*ha?..

Lalu tertawa tapi sebenarnya ku tahu jua beliau hangen.

Berikut pula perbualan dengan AF2.

AF2*awak tak pergi miting?

Aku*senyappp

AF2*Awak je lah pegi miting.

Aku*ncik, tak pegi kee?

AF2*sy banyak kerja.

Aku*saya laagi banyak kerja!* (hangenn kus kus kuar).

Hahaha.. Suka suki tak? Incik tu saper suh cari pashell. Time orang suh check, dia tido. Dah le aku dah siap2 ulas each item & state macamana aku bule came up with the result. Gla lah, org gomeng tak ramai seskema aku rasanya. Aku siket punya baik la provide dia guide, tapi dibalasnya toba. Keciann deh loe!

Ibu datang jenguk kitaorang... Dia da tak jompa kontraktur mahupun kunsaltan, tapi jompa Datuk2 dah.. Kasut pun da tinggi, mekap pung kaler2..hahaha. Alala Abos aku ni, dia pun gumbira nak borak ngan ibu sampai teramik time poya2 aku ngan ibu. G makan dekat noodle station, depan reject shop. Pastu melancong ke MPH.. huhu... tempat berlibur lagi dikenang.

Petang tu, Bbos plak bertanya

Bbos*pegi tak miting

Aku*tak pegi ncik

Bbos*haha

Sempoi tak sempoi Bbos aku ni. Dia ni jenis worang yang kita nak marah pon tak sampai ati.. kadang2 lurus, kekadang 2 plak.. Ops! hahaha...

Pelattt

"Perhatiannn kepada seamua penumpangg"..

Inilah suara minah pelat yang aku dok dengar hari-hari. Orang biasanya kalau dalam train bersms ker, rilek ker or kalling2 kengkawan ker tapi aku plak tulis diari. Walaupon pon aku ni bukan i-phone, but it's my-phone ok! Tulis diary ni banyak membuang masa sebenarnya. Untuk tidak membazirkan masa, so aku pun menulis diari ni sambil2 tunggu train. Wise choice!

Selain diari, aku memang selalu habiskan masa dengan my-phone aku ni melayari wiki, tak pun map dan mengunjungi facebook. Aku boleh komen status member2 tanpa terpapar di skrin mengatakan aku menggunakan tepon.. Tapi nak update status sendiri tak buleh & mesti guna mobile mode. Yelah.. Kalau facebook tak restrict, buat apa lah ada facebook mobile kannn. Kira ok la my-phone ni sebab memberi kepuasan skrin dan kamera yang maksima.

Aku rasa macam makcik ari ni sebab pakai tudung mokcik.. Hahaha. Aku pegi kerja pakai sandal jek. Kalao orang tengok, sure tak caya aku keje gomen dan tittle atas cop aku adalah pen. Pengarah. Geli i! Hahaha.. Kitaorang selalu persenda tittle 2. Apsal le tak guna inginiur jek. Aku pung pelik, dan malu. Ahahaha..

¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ ¤¤¤¤¤¤¤ ¤¤¤¤¤ ¤¤¤¤¤

Apsal ada ramai budak2 tak cukop umor ni a? Cuti skola ka apa ka?

Orang2 yang tunggu train ni ntah apa2 ntah. Time orang buat pengumuman, dorang memekak..dah tu time train datang baru kelam kabut nak tanya train ni berhenti dekat mana. Ada yang sampai keluar balik dari train pun ada..padanla muka. Rasanya pengumuman tu dibuat dalam BM dan BI. Kalo Chinese ker, India ker, mak 'arab ker yang tak paham tak pe la. Bukan nak dengar, tapi ada pula spesis yang siap komplen bising jek orang yang nak buat announcement ni. Train ni train shuttle Ipoh-Kajang dan berhenti dekat limited station jek. Ramai la juga yang salah naik train esp. yang tak biasa. Aku dapat balik awal pun sebab ader train ni lah.. ari2 buleh duduk.. tak la aku nipis jadik sardin.

Ari tu aku tengok berita kat tv 3 kot, last week kalau tak silap. Baby dalam stroller terlepas dari tangan mak dia then meluncur and jatuh ke landasan train. Train plak tak sempat brek. Terkejutnya aku. Tapi kuasa tuhan, sapa yang sangka baby tu selamat. Stroller tu memang hancur lah, maybe baby tu jatuh betul2 dekat tengah landasan sebab tu dia selamat.

Tadi aku borak2 dengan my Boss. Hari ini dalam sejarah aku membantu beliau mempunch kad. Muhuha.. Terkezut i menerima rekwest meminta bantuan dari beliau. Dia nak pegi melawat orang naik haji malam ni, so aku pun terbukalah cerita pasal mak aku pon nak pegi haji juga. Belihau tanya la, parents aku pegi berdua ke. Aku kater tak, mak aku jek. Tiba2 terbukak cerita pasal suami isteri ni. Belihau pon citer la, dulu dia tak bagi wife dia pegi haji sekali sebab parents dorang tak der orang nak jaga, lagi pun parents dia uzur. Pastu wife dia masam muka la..haha.. adalah sorang ustazah ni nasihatkan wife dia. Ustazah tu kater la, si asben tu kan larang atas sebab yang baik. Apa nak risau, c wife pun dapat pahala besar aper sebab tak ingkar. Tu yang boss aku kater, susah jadi wife nih sebab asben veto. Dia agree la bila aku kater, itu kalau c asben tu baik..bak nya yang tak elok... mudah nor ler dapat dosa.

Aku paling takut tu jek. Kalo ex aku dulu, dia tak paham. Dia kater, kalo aku buat something atas dasar takut berdosa, susah lah macam tu. Mmmm.. aku no komen la. Sebenarnya bukan dosa direct dengan Allah tu yang aku takut, tapi aku takut aku as isteri menyinggung ati asben. Dosa isteri dengan asben sebenarnya bukan direct dengan Allah, tapi berdosa pada asben tu membuatkan kita berdosa pada Allah. Aku sendiri pun tak sempurna, jadi kalau aku merintih serta merungut dalam hati... tak ker hati aku tu kotor dan membayangkan bahawa aku tu sebenarnya tak ikhlas?

Masing2 ada ego, ada kemahuan sendiri. Aku takut kemahuan aku melebihi batas penerimaan si suami sehingga aku melukakan hatinya. Kegagalan dalam berkomunikasi dan membuatkan si suami paham akan apa yang aku lakukan, tidakkah bermakna aku sudah mengguris hatinya? Bukanlah neraka yang aku tak takutkan, tapi aku lebih takut incik seband terluka hatinya. 

Ya! Aku adalah org yang bfikiran mcm nih. Orang kata kalau tak cuba, kita tak tahu. Hello! Kahwin bukan sesuatu untuk dicuba. Korang rasa korang ble khawin tu sebab apa? Sbb tuhan izinkan ok! Same goes to ilmu2 hitam. Ingat benda-benda tu berkesan atas si anu yang hendak disakiti sebab ilmu tu power ker? Janganlah cetek fikiran, semua tu berlaku atas keizinan tuhan. Mana ada perkara dalam dunia ni samada baik atau buruk berlaku tanpa keizinan tuhan. Kenapa tuhan izinkan perkara tak elok tu berlaku adalah atas ketetapan dan kudratnya, ujian pada kita para hambanya. Uishh...cukuplah ceramah agama mokcik nih.

Meeting tak yah pegi tapi kena menghadap B boss sepagi untuk buat kelulusan. Tak ker sama jek macam pegi miting?  AF2 yang pegi miting ni plak buat state-style... tak reti nak balik2 opis. Macamler kitaorang ni tak biasa pegi miting tu sampai tak tahu miting start and abis kol berapa.. ish! ish!

Tengahari pegi shopping baju tuk kat rumah jek. Seratus gak abis. Tapi memang puas ati.. Muhuhaha.. Baju pertama yang aku beli sejak 3 or 4 bulan kot. Aku ingat nak pegi melancong. Pas adik aku kawen, pas aku buat kelulusan sumer equipment yang related.. aku da ble pegi melancong. Tak kira la kalau pegi sorang pon, kenapa lah? Aku haruss pegi ke Bandung.. Londong... China.. Mmm...Tengoklah. DSLR dah ader, pasport dah ader...duit jek lagi. Aku da ada ilmu sikit bab2 teknikal nih, tak lah susah dah pasni nak buat kelulusan, nak buat approval & check the system. So, tak ler beban sangat kapla aku macam sekarang nih. Ospital or ospital!!

Train girl

I am inside the train.. And so dangg sleepy. I overheard this couples talking about language. The girl complained that she could not understand her friend dialects and it was very difficult. Mm.. Languages are unique. For Malaysian who said they cannot understand dialect like Kelantanese, Terangganu, Negeri Sembilan etc were like 2000 late! Hello, dont just simply say you could not understand them at all. Just say, it was hard or difficult to understand. Where is your one Malaysia spirit people?

Hmm.. I am so dang dang dang sleepy. Can i not go to work, please? I slept with the door open because i worried about ventilation thing.. Haha. I am a bit paranoid now days. I questioned almost like, everything! When i entered a building, i started to think about where is the fire safety route, did i sit under return or supply duct, what were all those equipments, what type of each mechanical system they were using for the building etc. See? I never bother about all that before.

******************************************

A tiring day it is. This uncle in front of me aa.. Veli old but still eat2 m&m and make me jeles. Aiyaaa. I should get one after i reach home. I went no where today but i spent half day in a meeting. Tomorrow i also have to attend meeting at Shah Alam, and the day after at Cheras. Thursday not yet included in my program. My B Bos gave me green light to excuse myself tomorrow. Yeay! I have lots to do yar.. Let AF2Senora go alone rather than sleeping2 at the office. Ops. Iklan. Ada budak comey tumpang bertanya kat aku. Alolo.. Comey botu budak nih. Buleh aku bubuh dalam akuarium buat anak ikan. Haa.. yang pak arab ni duk jeling2 aku, pehalll! Aku taw la aku kuit.. Hahaha

Citer pasal AF2. Ada ke patut ari 2 dia tido dalam bilik meeting. Lama plak tu. Poyo incik tu. Dia ada kata hari tu, duduk dekat opis kitaorang ni terasa cepat jek masa berlalu. Haa.. Taw xpe. Takde nyer la perasan time tu berlalu... esp aku.. dah kater balik kol 4.30 kannn

Aku nak citer pasal senior aku plak. Dia ni boleh kata la hari2, every morning dia akan panggil nama aku or nama yang dinamakan beliau kepada aku yaktu Matahari. Aku pegi beli dvd cetak ompak dulu. Nantilah aku sambung.

******************************************

Sambung citer senior aku, RonSenora. Ari ni dia tiba2 berangin ala2 AF1Senora dan incik Romeo-must-die. Ok, kat opis selain ada  bos A, B. Aku ada signiur AF1, Ron, AF2, B dan R... Dauz dan ZA, kakak I dan adik S. Kenapa aku guna nama samarang? Ahahah.. suker ati aku la kann.

Sumer ader 12 worang. Datang keje or balik keje... RonSenora ni sure akan tegur punyalah sebab aku duduk seblah cubicle dia. Tapi tadi dia kata aku lawa ari ni. Cerita aku ni bukanlah berkaitan dengan betapa comel dan lawanya aku..Buekk!! Bukan juga seperti apa2 yang anda pikirkan.. hahaha. Kalo dia yang ngusik cenggitu, aku raser cam pelek la. Lainlah cam AF1... yang tu memang dasssarrr.

Bos A aku ari tu, tak der angin, tak der ribut, ader ker dia suh aku cepat2 lah khawin. Dan, aku juga pernah memperanjatkan (Amaran : Kesalahan Tatabahasa ok!) orang-orang tuha pasal debat bab kawen ni. Tak lah berdebat ponn, budak degill macam aku memang tak kalah punya, tambah2 ngan pokcik2.. haha.. Kalo mokcik2 aku surrender.. dorang lagi terror dari aku. Amikk korang. Aku dahlah sorang pompuan.. Janki (jantang+laki  orang) ni kadang2 bergurau lebih2. Aku adu gangguan seksuali pendengarann karangg...haaa... yang duk suruh aku kawen tuh,korang nak kawen ngan aku ker aper ker? 

Kalau terkeluar lawak2 yang menyakitkan pendengaran aku yang sememangnya sensitif dengan perbualan berunsur biru nih, apa yang aku boleh buat cuma pekakkan telinga jek la. Buat macam tak dengar cerita dorang. Kalau aku bagi reaksi, even sikit pon... lama2 jadi bukit pla. Dulu pon masa kat LA, kalau ada geng2 kepala kuning & biru nih.. aku tak respond langsung. Jangan kan nak bertegur sapa, tengok muka pon aku malass. Aku anggap dorang macam kuman yang aku tak nampak jek.. eww! penyakit.

Cerita Rumah Tumpangan

SunDay...

Xing Qi Ri or Xing Qi Tian kalau dalam mandarin. Aku tak study lagi untuk exam awal bulan depan. Abis lah.

Hari ni kepala sakit dari pagi. Nak kuar amik fresh air pun rasa malas. Kalaulah bilik aku ni besar, dah lama aku dance ala2 ballerina. Sapa kata aku tak reti?! Memangla aku tak reti pungg.. Haha. Menari adalah antara aktivi kegemaran aku.. Gemar menonton je ok ;p Aku kan idup dua alam. Chop! Bukan dua alam yang menyentuh aspek seksualiti ok. Hahaha...

Rumah adalah tempat aku berkarya... melepaskan tekanan yang dulu2 tak der

tapi sekarang kadang2 pandai datang. Definisi rumah bagi aku?

- Hotel/ Rumah Tumpangan

- Tempat melepaskan aura negatif.

- Pusat karaoke

- Tempat jadik model

- Tempat jamming

- Gym

- Panggung wayang

- Disko

- Dance studio

- Tempat jadik interior designer

- Tempat jadi tukang masak.

  Tapi aku bersara sebab aku tak suka dapur rumah aku yang kotor.  Ewe!

- Tempat jadik janitor dan cleaner

Rules duduk rumah yang paling penting adalah "Dalam rumah mesti pakai lebih cantik dari baju kuar rumah"  Itu mesti! Kat luar biar bersepah & compang camping takper, tapi dalam rumah mesti pakai baju chantek!

10 of TOP BAD

Aku? Yang bad? Ada banyakk kot...

1. Aku tak penyabar orangnya. Bagi aku yg ada dalam hidup cuma Ya atau Tidak, leave or take it. Lain2 hal, aku fail nak consider. Orang lembab- yang tak ble buat decision penting (yang tak penting tak per.. buekkk!) - yang ragu2 dan tak tahu apa yang dia mahu dalam hidup - tak tahu nak hormat masa & hormat orang - yang malas nak manfus adalah golongan yang bule buat darah aku tinggi, tapi bukan darah tinggi.
2. Walaupun aku bukan pemburu, aku jenis yang agak terburu-buru orangnya. Tapi nak menyesal atas apa yang dah jadi, tak terjadilah dekat aku. Ego or telampau "pandaiii" sangat,aku dah tak dapat nak beza.
3. Aku nampak gagah you, tapi aku sangat shenshitif. Tahap fragile aku tahap gaban esp dengan orang yang aku sayang. Takper, sekarang dah takder. Tapi between Gaban ngan superman,aku tak taww saper yang lagi gagah.
4. Aku sangat macho kononnya, tapi kehidupan dibelakang tabir menyembunyikan hakikat bahawasanya aku sangat manja. Itu mengada2! Tapi dah tak boleh nak buat apa. Bukan salah aku rasanya? Daaa?
5. Aku sangat boros. Keborosan terhadap handbag, kasut or baju or kosmetik or makanan bukan dalam list berproblem tapi kalau kater pasal cd, dvd, buku nota kecik yang kuit2, buku language, atlas, ensiklopedia... aku akun kalah awal2. Gadget problem pun aku ada.
6. Aku kurang bereaksi terhadap persekitaran. Aku lembab. Kena sindir pun aku akan ambil masa range dari beberapa minit ke beberapa hari or boleh mencapai lebih lagi dari sekadar hari or bulan or tahun sehinggalah ke tahap tak perasannn langsungg!
7. Aku kurang mampu menghadapi teguran. Aku akan rasa down tapi malangnya tahap recovery aku sangat memberangsangkan.. macam watak Claire dalam citer heroes tu, tak reti2 nak mati. In case on the spot aku tak ble digest.. besok tu lah baru aku insaf. Yang harunya tuh, time kena tegur aku tetap rasa aku betul...besok aku insaf la pula. Aku pun tak paham lah!
8. Aku rasa tuhan dah bagi aku kelebihan, tapi aku pemalasss tahap dewa. Aku tak berusaha dalam hidup. Aku cuba, tapi tak berusaha which aku pun tak paham apa maksud kata2 aku nih.
9. Aku paling tak tahan rejection dari spesis yang mulut tak berkata tapi dari perbuatan dah dapat dibaca. Kalau tanak aku fikir bukan2 or terbalik dari maksud sebenar, bagitau je. Kalau time diberitahu aku tak dapat digest on the spot, paling2 maxium beberapa ari aku sure neutral balik. As long aku diberitahu. Even pahit ker, aku komplen ker, aku sedih ker hatta merembeskan air mata darah ker...still tak jadi hal. Life goes on.
10. Aku tak reti nak bagitau aku marah or kecewa dengan cara yang lebih efisien. Daaa?? Kalau orang yang aku tak rapat.. aku buat bodo je. Kalau yang aku rapat, aku buat bodo juga. Lepas di digest, aku ok dah. Kalau dengan cinta hatiku, aku tak boleh nak buat bodo pula tapi nak tengok aku luah cara berdepan, aku memang tak pandai tahap gaban. Nasib ada sms, kalau tak, jenuh la tangan aku menulis surat. Cuma yang aku pasti, marah tahap gaban or dewa whatevah, aku tak pula guna ayat2 yang rude mencarut. Selamat lah ngkorang sebab aku bukan golongan sesumpah.

Extra bad?

mmm... aku banyak cakap kott! kalau aku senyap & kurang bereaksi, orang ingat aku marah @ tak suka. I keliru you! Kasi lah aku rest kejap.

Lagi?

Aku fail bab menipu, tolong jangan minta tolong aku. Sah-sah akan kantoi. Aku kena berguru lagi.

Ada lagi...

Mmm.. aku tak suka bertanya, apa lagi nak meminta yakni membuat request. Biasanya aku mudah nak paham or imagine, so tak payah tanya. Aku suka berusaha sendiri, kalau tak der jalan lain sesangat baru aku tanya or minta orang tolong.

Kesimpulan?

Aku agak pelik. Fragile. Logik. Bendul. Serius. Dan apa2 lah. Whatevah!

Tukar tajuk

..........................................................

Ok, enough! I am currently thinking about my B Boss. Is he still in a meeting at this time? Oh!No..  i loved my B Boss so much dowh.. hahaha.. Here goes the story. I went to see my B Boss and purposely ask him so many questions. First, i tell you about my office hierarchy. I am the junior and lowest of my grade, in between my A Boss and I.. I have B Boss and C Boss. So, I have three bosses in my team. Doomed, rite?

Ok, I went to see B Boss regarding design matter. Bla bla bla... B Boss "Kena call Mr P ni" He dialed someone. B Boss"Mr P, where r u? Bla bla bla.. We need to discuss this.. bla bla.. After 3 lah..bla bla" Btw, Mr P was our consultant.Then, this is what happened -

4.15 pm : Me"Alaaa... incik dah datangggg!!!! Incik Datang"saya baru dapat report awak last month nih, awak prepare dulu la apa yang patut, nanti saya datang balik. Me"aahh... yelah... Incik Datang is one of my future B boss candidate from our main branch.
4.20 pm : Copied. Everything ready.
4.23 pm : Waiting. Encik datang tak datang2
4.25 pm : I saw Mr P koncho..oh! No
4.28 pm : Shutdown komputer. Angkat bag. Pusing ikut pintu lain ke tempat punch kad..
4.30 pm : Tappp... dah punch, terus blahh..haha

I am also thinking about my DSLR dekat dalam gobok tu.. I couldn't even remember when was the last time i used it. I went to MPH.. spent RM 120 for books. Just books...Last week over hundreds, week before..over hundreds.. week before.. before..before.. tu belum cd.. RM60 each week.. oh No! No new shirt, no new handbag, no new shoes for 4 months but still pokaiii'ed! I cant believe it!

WED NES DAY

The rain is pouring. The sound of it definitely soothing this heart of mine. If only there were beds inside the train.. Through the rain, the sound of those noisy aunties still can be heard clearly. Wind is blowing. My eyes feels like closing.

I am gonna go to a meeting at cheras this morning but the transportation thing..haiya..
****************************
Kelas malam nih... malasnya nak mandi. Tadi aku ngan ibu calling2... dia sedey tadak kawan pegi sarapan...lunch & jalang2 cari pasal... huuuuuu... aku pun sama aper! Sekarang ni aku main redah jek ngan orang.. Tadi budak-budak ni kenakan aku... mentang-mentang aku pompuan sorang.. jahat dorang nih!

Meeting habis awal. Aku ngan senor sesat plak tuh... hahaha... balik aku tumpang keta projek plak... redah jek.. Dahlah budak2 tu kenakan aku depan incik yang chair the meeting... memanglah muka aku ni melekat kat kotak ingatan dia.. hampeh! hampeh! Daus lah ni kejamm... Besok dorang sumer takde.. Tinggal team aku je dalam opis. Oh! Bosannya. Kot2 idola aku join miting esok, ok jg. Senang gak hati aku tengok senyuman dia. Dia ni memang calon suami pilihan para wanita ni. Apa? Ingat pompuan je ke ada contoh calon wife misali!

******************
Dah balik kelas. Apa yang aku dah buat ni? Oh! No. Something yang out dari kebiasaan. Well, aku ni kan jenis statik & x welcome changes. Payah aku ni! Hahaha.. Ada mamat dekat kelas aku ni, sebok nak kenen aku ngan member dia. Nasib je baru kenal, kalau kawan lama..dah lama aku bgtau suruh dia jangan buang karan menyibuk. Ye! Sebab aku taw niat dia baik le aku diam je. Walaupon aku tak lemah lembut orangnya, aku bukan jenis yang rude ok! Ye lah, kannn.. Aku xcakap kasar2 ngan orang aper, apa lagi mencarut2 nih.. Membebel marah2 pun aku tak, paling2 kalau telampau sakit hati sangat, mulalah banjir mata aku nih. Itu tahap sakit hati lah tu. Kalau tak puas ati pon,aku xde la buat2 muka tapi aku tunjuk muka tak bereaksi yang pastinya. Mari buat bodo,pekak dan bisu! Nak kata aku jenis yg wild ker, miang2 keledek ker.. Aku rasa tak.. Tapi nak kata aku baik lagi alim gituew memang aku tak kata lah..kannn.. Muhuhaha..

Mmm...

I walked as fast as i could to reach the lrt station. When a seconds can cause you great delay, then only you learn why you should respect time and punctuality. I took 40 minutes to get myself ready for work and 20 minutes to spend on the road at LA. Now, it turned the other way around even though my house is less than 10 km from office.

My brother asked me to go with him to Klang this morning. Since last week, I only have chances to spent 2 or 3 hours at office every day. Looking at my current condition, it seems this could be permanent for as long as i am here! You know in gomen, they have this unit which coordinate and arrange meetings. Meeting meeting and more meetings for the sake of project coordination. They were called construction management team. It might sound easy, but talk to the empunya body especially when they were required to travel a lot.

As for us, besides attending meetings, we have to deal with technical parts. The drawings, approval of site materials and work methods, site inspection, supervision, claim evaluation, installation quality etc. Headache came without invitation when the contractor start submitting documentations for approval. Is the brand ok? what about the technical specification? will it be enough to cater daily usage and telly with the design? are the installation method they were proposing is ok? bla bla bla

We are no doctors but we provided them places to work and equipment to use. Not many of mechanical engineers or students out there are familiar with some of the services there. The requirements are quite strict. Well! Talk to those life savers.. Dr House? But I loved McDreamy from Grey's Anatomy... ah! so handsome.
*******************************

I am home. Ok! My interesting conversation for today.

AF2 : "***!"
Aku : saiya (dengan nada poyo+ muka kerek ngan orang tua) muhuhaha.
AF2 : nampak cerah hari ni, pakai apa eak
Aku : (poyos) mungkin terlebih pakai krim muka kot!(nada lembut tanpa reaksi)
AF2 : haha.. (terus berlalu).

Aku menghabiskan petang di Bandar Botanic hari ni.. what a nice place. Tengahari tak turun lunch pun. Unbelievable! Apa tidaknya, pagi aku dah curi tulang melepak bekfas. Tapi kitaorang lepak2 sambil discuss (sikit ok!) hahaha.. So, aku cover waktu yang aku curi tu time lunch la. Pukul 2 dah kena bertolak ke Klang tadi. Dalam kol 5 sampai ofis balik& terus amik teksi balik rumah.

Plan malam ni? Mmm... nak study sikit sambil-sambil layan movie. Tadi jumpa mamat yang serupa my ex tu lagi. Hari ni dekat tempat makan..hahaha... Dan incik lift tu pun hari ni jumpa dekat tempat makan juga. So, aku ada story bertajuk incik lift, pelanduk ndan idola. Semua jantan story je,kan? bukanlah aku miang2 keladi tapi dah aku sorang jek pompuan, nak buat macamana. Pegi kiri ,jantan... kanan jantan, atas jantan... bawah pun jantan... Mana-mana angle pun dorang! Satu-satu kawan pompuan yang aku ada dah kena transfer.  Jantan pun jantan lah, dah nasib. Tapi, tulah... lagi ramai kawan lelaki, bukan lagi senang nak dapat jodoh tapi lagi senang nak rasa.. ei! elok la aku sorang-sorang dari ada bf cam si tuutt..

Dah maghrib, nak p solat.. tutup komputer & jalan-jalan cari pasal dekat dalam bilik

Sleepy monday

I am so sleepy. Feel like i wanna go home and sleep. I slept at 10 but still feel this way? Mmm.. I made new friend last night.. It happened to be my friendly night maybe. Huhuhu..

The sound of woman high heels kinda annoying yah early in the morning ni. So loud till one could hear it from the other train station back there. There are so many empty spaces in the train but this indon couples in front of me aa awal-awal pagi buat-buat aksi  macam train ni bapak dorang punya. 

Stop! maybe i am the only person wearing a mask here. Well.. To avoid bad and iyuckk smell from those tak mandi pagi people, those yang dah mandi but still smelly, those yang bawak penyakit, those.. those.. Those.. Wallah! So many ah? Wait.. I saw a friend, the mask friend.. Hahaha

*********

I went to cheras for site evaluation. There goes my day. Tomorrow,Klang.. Wednesday Cheras.. Thursday Sungai Buloh.. What a! While rushing to punch card machine, my boss who was already there with our lady technician said..wah! rajin bebenor bawak balik kerja? Well.. Both ni together with i akan bergather2 balik jam 4.30. What to say.. I am so selamba. Wait till i hear my personal year end evaluation result.. confirm potong markah la! Hope my boss will give me extra mercy marks for allowing him to punch his card first.. Haha

On their way out.. They laughed and said something, but i could not hear clearly. I heard my technician said .."her thinking might not reach there" and laughed. My technician asked, my boss wondered why I did not keep those stuff inside my bag.. dengan tulus dan ikhlas i answered him "tak sempat ncik" then they laughed again, louder! I asked my technician why.. She said my boss kater i did not keep those things inside my bag sebab nak menunjuk dekat dia lah tuh! Whatttt!! Gosh! My boss ni memang! memang lahhh!! Aku ni dahlah jenis bendul kadang-kadang. Dulu bos lama aku pun sama, aku tak dapat nak beza antara betul atau yang perli... hahaha... punya bendul lah! Dah aku tak buat macam tu, manalah aku perasan kalau orang buat dekat aku.

Hampeh! Tapi my boss ni memang macam ni.. sumer orang pun kena. Jahat dia nih! hahaha... ada ker patut. Telampauuu! Tu belum kes terjumpa encik romeo must die tuh dalam lift. Asyik-asyik jumpa dia dalam lift. And...pagi tadi pula terjumpa mamat cute yang resembled my ex tuh dekat tangga.Mamat ni pula, balik-balik jumpa dekat tangga. Koman-koman dalam meeting ker... kedai makan ker..kannn...hahah

Speaking about that romeo. Masuk-masuk lift dengan muka cuak sebab handphone plus duit sket + kredit card aku dah tercicir entah dekat mana,so tak perasan yang encik tu dekat depan aku sebab hati sakit, jiwa plak kacau... dia suitt! tanya aku balik dari site mana. Bla bla bla soal jawab... dia tiba-tiba bagi nasihat pasal safety shoe. Romeo*...lain kali, pakai kasut biasa jer,sampai site baru tukar. Minta kontraktor provide satu untuk ko. Aku*tak nak lah, kasut dorang tak lawa. Romeo*macam kasut ko tu lawa sangat lah*  Kitaorang*hahahahaha! Aku*terukkk lah incik nih, suka-suki je. Aku*(dalam hati) ko memang hampeh incik! hahaha

Aku telah meng"cross boss aku hari ni. Nasib ko lah!

I am watching save the last dance 2, for the second time. The mixing of ballet and hip hop really turn me on! Movies like step up 1 and save the last dance 2 are the best of their kind. I also loved stomp the yard. You got served and make it happen kinda ok. I dont like save the last dance 1 coz i dont get it. I am also not fond of step up 2 and turn to the centre of the earth coz i dont like the girls.. Hahaha.. Channing Tatum and his lovely heroin still the best dancer besides mr Columbus Short and Izabella miko.

I have a case

From inside this room of mine, one could never see the sun brightly shinning, or the sound of the rain pouring on the roof and not even the wave of earthquake. I can sleep 24 hours because it is too dark in here. The only opening was the door and window that facing closed corridor. The other day during the light wave of earthquake, I was here, inside my room but I never realize it until people told me the next day! They said it was normal to feel the wave at this area. The wave occurred around 6 pm and it also can be felt at my office.

Today, my sun day. I spent it watching movies and reading a contract document. What a life! I went shopping yesterday. Guess what I bought? Of course dvds! Dont tell me to count how many collections I have coz you might say I am a movie freak.

My friend told me she is getting married with the boyfriend of hers. Not that I dont like the guy but I think she is making the biggest mistake in her life marrying him. He finally said he wanted to get married after a long dragging and torturing year. She is just about to finally able to accept someone new, who is accepting her the way she is but it is obvious she still loved him. In the case there were no third party involves, I think he deserve a second chance but this romeo must die guy? Hmmmm... His mother was not fond of my friend because she is a single mother, with two sons. So, he decided to be obedient to his mom and keep her at the same time,which the plan... he will marry his mother's choice and my friend.What was that call? Honeying baby!

I am not against that because it is her who will bear all the consequences. If she want it to be that way...then she can go for it. No questions ask. She is a beautiful girl but I think she has lower self confidence, which is good sometimes. Too much of it will make  her end up like me..hoho! No! But this friend of mine, no matter what happened, she kept coming back to this guy and forgave him. If that was what they called true love, then I rest my case and rather be alone than to end up like that.

Old time story. Old!

Remember those kecoh aunties i talked about? They are sitting next to me. They are conversing in mandarin but i can understand a bit. One of them said that maybe they were a bit noisy. Good! You understand better maa.

But, the noisy team inside the train still bising as always. Those two aa.. Haiyaa..

*******************************************
 I am currently watching my favorite movies... Cheer leading of course! Sports-kids-dance-wars-high school movies are in  my team and I hate horror-heavy love story-American pie type. For this weekend, I was destined to work from home and burn my day of rest. Nothing much I can say.. the more I say or share, it will come back to haunt me. People said, share it so that your burden will disappear.. If I were sad, I will become more sad - If I hated someone- I will hate them even more - If I were depressed - I will be more and more... more of negative auras to develop in my vein. This is what I get when I share it with people. Weird rite?

 So, I'm gonna talk about this romeo must die at my office..ahaha. Remember that lift guy I told ya. We were having jamuan hari raya today. He sat next to this Chinese girl bla bla bla... As of today, we were all approved of him as the real romeo. People even said, when you see this guy alone without chicks around, that sure is weird.. hahaha.. But his approaching skills is good for those typical girl type. He even get her number yar, and he did that in front of bosses and of course not-bosses like us la... It was like watching a sketsa you know and he played his role perfectly. Hahaha... This guy was loud and easy going, colleagues and even bosses kinda liked him. He did not nail the look but his profile was perfect. He got the figure and only a few steps away of being on top level at his job. Talk that to his two wives ok! Well....

Seriously, I think those tricks are cheap. Talk that to me whom fail to appreciate sweet talk and all kind of kindness out of nowhere what so ever. But, who cares rite? Especially guy, not as long as they can get the girl for whatever reason they have on their mind. And those girls were not any good either, that made them suitable for each other. Fair and square. That is why it is hard for me to have a boyfriend. For just-a-guy, maybe I am too 'clever'.  All those silly conversations and sweet talk made me like wanna vomit. Those type who love to show their caring and romantic side while the fact, they were not even my boyfriend yet is really annoying. I love matured and cool guy. But too cool till they become too cold like my previous relationship won't do any good. And I like to be lead, not to lead them. If I ever have to be the leader in a relationship, it would make me the boyfriend or the husband hello!

It's true that guys did not favor girls who overdo them. They have their ego of course. That is good to have an ego because muka tembok tak tahu malu are the worst kind of guy di muka bumi ni, but, please don't have too much of it till it upgrades you to stupidity level guys! You could never imagine how far women can accept bad and dark sides of you. Some women can go lower like accepting the serial killers as a boyfriend, worst case - raper! Take charge and lead, don't ever let the girl overrules because you might lose your 'hotness' and desirable level in their eyes one day. Then, there come the problems....

Mumble mumble

I am at the station at the moment. Hearing this two noisy aunties makes me like wanna tell them to saddappp ur mouth! Not that i mind their whatsoever.. Can they just talk at a nice pitch. They talked so loud as if they were the only two human beings here. What a!

Rite. At the next station, they will complete their noisy team. This woman in front of me, hold on to the train pole like she wanna take it home. Hello! Look around mokcik. There were so many people holding on to it, they dont want to touch your big body. Move away!

Why am I like this? Oh no! This is not good.. muhuhaha....

**********************************************

I am at home now. This morning, I went to a meeting at Cheras. Comparing this project to mine, this one is advancing and ahead of target. You can see the mechanical development and all the documentation is progressing. We were asked in the meeting why were there so many unsettle things for our part. Yah! What do you expect. Submitting all the documents inside a file and compiled altogether almost 100 items..small items.. then queue la and wait for your turn coz we also have many things to look at.

Enjoying my evening with a cup of tea and keropok lekor while waiting for ibu to arrive... I have a class tonight.I missed it last week. Exam will be on the first week of September.

Alive But Dead

I will be going to Shah Alam today. This project has been started long ago with slowest pace ever. What the! Last nite, i bought new mattress. Not really a mattress actually. It can be folded into three. I am just preparing for my visitor.. well, since my sister is studying here... I went to JUSCO during lunch time. I felt like i didn't wanna leave the place yar..

If yesterday I blogged from inside the train, now I am blogging from its station. All those familiar faces and noisy aunties... what a routine!

 ******************************************

Home finally... what a tiring day. I reached office at 3.40 pm.My meeting ended at 2 pm, went lunch and it  took almost 30++ minutes to reach office depending on the traffic. I was a bit energetic today since I went there with my boss so I can hide behind him... muhuhaha...

And... the guy..with a warmth smile that touch my heart... aww... sat next to me *somewhere*. He smiled at me... oh! No. I felt like...nothing.Whatt???!!! Hahaha.  I think I am gonna call him my idol. What's not to adore about handsome and successful young man? I never bother to know about his status because it doesn't concerned me. He is young, smart, handsome, charming, well-mannered and what do you expect? of course I wanna be like him, except that I am a girl, so? Romantic feeling ah??? oh! Nop. My time has passed already.. I'll pass it to younger generation.. huahauhau.. but... It is unavoidable that he is sooo adorable ;p

I joined this one networking website, kinda like facebook except it was a bit annoying because *strangers* kept  message and add you as their friend out of nowhere. You can even pick who your matches are (konon lar)because the website kept advertising on them. I think I am like one stupid person to involve myself in such silly website. I have no interest at all, but I think it is funny. My house mate kept  promoting me to join it without knowing I've been invited by my friend and already signed up long ago. And, the fact that I only realize it last week after changing Spam setting on my mail.

But, I did not delete my account and make it accessible to everyone just to see how far people can go. I laughed at every message I read.. why did peoples get themselves into this stage? Strange!

I am alone and a loner but I ain't lonely. This is not just me making a big talk here but who to blame coz it is my nature. Talk about love?? I have given so much of my one very small heart to one person who didn't understand the meaning of love and, have no idea about love at all, and I, have nothing left for other. But, as what I always remind myself... fate was written differently. To love and to hate so much is a big No for us as human. Opt to be moderate and flexible in everything because life outcome is not ours to decide..  we are only the planner, to be exact... dreamer. But I, I stopped dreaming and asking but refuse to refuse anything that has been written in my fate.. so, am I alive but already dead actually? .. Hah?? what the!

Here... one funny message from one funny person. This one make me feel like going to toilet & berak.. muhuhaha.

"bla bla bla... you are exactly the kind of girl i need to be my close one. I see something so special in you. Can you be my friend,a close friend? bla bla bla... happy if you accept me to be your close friend and the sky will be our limit..i promise to be sincere,honest,loving and caring to you if you accept me.. bla bla bla"

Commuter blogger

It wasn't just me but my dreams also getting weirder now days. I dream about a set-up marriage last sleep. What the!! 

Blogging from inside the commuter as early as 6.42 in the morning? Hmm.. Today is Monday. As usual, station and the train itself congest with people. So many outsiders..that is for sure, and those two kecoh Chinese aunt. Can they just save it for later? So noisy early in the morning!

My plan for today - JUSCO. I am going to buy and buy and buy. I should buy a big trunk to place all my stuffs. I am a mad buyer, it occurred sometimes.

This week is my meeting week, starting from tomorrow. I think I didn't accomplish anything since the first day here. What the! And I lost my motivation. For the second time.

Cabut

Today is my not-feeling-so-well day... arrived at office with a dizzy head and felt like I wanna throw up, so I took a nap until 7.55 am. I joined my seniors for breakfast. Today is the beginning of my being-all-alone day. I went to work together with ibu today. Sure it is weird, but it was more weirder to her I guess. Nervous about her first day at work, sleeping at unfamiliar place last night (my house... daaa) while worrying about a plane to catch.. what's more to say.

I ordered coffee, they gave a black one. My TA said it was not a good idea to have coffee so I ordered hot chocolate which is MILO of course, and nasi lemak. Dont say anything,please! On my way down to our eating place, I met the guy from buka puasa day. My look-alike ex bf I mentioned before. Owh! I think he advanced his cuteness today ;p

My branch held a majlis for Hari Raya celebration today which I did not attend. Yeah... I am not interested in such event,especially when i am without girl-companion. I am not good at making friends, and I dont seems to improvise I guess. My technician, which is around my mother's age once advised me about finding jodoh. She said, how am I going to find my jodoh if I dont go out looking for them and avoid joining the crowd. Ibu and ayah also shared the same conversation with me the other day which I think is annoying to hear.

Why is everybody telling me to find a husband? Hello, spare me! It is really annoying, really really annoying. People really are funny! I think, I am more happier than some of them. "You should find one" or "you should have babies" or "I pity you that you are still alone". Well, I am the one who should pity them actually.

People told me that I am gonna be alone if I don't get married and have children. There will be nobody to take care of me. I don't deny the "alone" thing but I think that just proved how short their thinking skill is. People worried too much about too many things and tend to forget how short this life is. God arranged the best for each of us, the fate is written differently and it is only God who allowed things to happen in one's life.

When comes to love, I did not agree with the thinking of owning a child yourself is different from adopting or whatever. The love you have towards your parents is not just love, it is also your thank to God and both of them for having you in this world but, the love towards a child is a responsibility and a thank to your creator for granting such wonderful things to happen in your life. Love is without boundary , you can give them freely. It doesn't matter if the people will love you back because love is without price. "Hanya doa anak yang soleh yang tinggal pabila seseorang hamba itu meninggalkan dunia ini" but people simply build their own limitation to this. God will hear our sincere prayers, no matter to who we meant it for. What anak yang soleh? The fact that they rarely exist now days. We should be thankful for what we have instead of worrying about meaningless things. As said before, fate was written differently. We can try every best we could to get or have what we want in this short journey we called life but only God owned the power to permit or forbid it from happening. Sic!

W.E.I.R.D

Last night i dream about being in Paris... what a weird dream. And, what a weird day today. I am not feeling not-well, nor that I am tired.. not a little bit. It just...I dont want to go to my Mandarin class tonight. I dont want to do anything, anything at all.

30 for 80

For the price of RM80... Blue Ray Edition... I get this

1. Spectacular
2. American High School
3. Keeping it real
4. The confession of a Hollywood starlet
5. Aeon Flux
6. Dead Or Alive
7. Charlie's Angels
8. Charlie's Angels : Full Throttle
9. Resident Evil
10. Resident Evil : Apocalypse
11. Resident Evil : Extinction
12. Kill Bill Vol 1
13. Kill Bill Vol 2
14. Ultraviolet
15. Yes Man
16. Bruce Almighty
17. Eternal Sunshine
18. The Grinch
19. The Mask
20. Ace Ventura JR
21. Ace Ventura : When Nature Calls
22. Ace Ventura : Pet Detective
23. Marley & Me
24. Beverly Hills Chihuahua
25. Underdog
26. Space Buddies
27. Cats & Dogs
28. Garfield
29. Garfield : A tail of two kitties
30. Kung Fu Panda

Yeah! Who cares if they were a little old. That is why they were called collection. Oh! I am draining out my own pocket. Plus, I also bought the first season of Hannah Montana which is out of expectancy ok! What a RM 40 waste on such dvd.. call it original but still a waste!

I never bought pirate one during my days at LA because? No one sell it there la, what else! For four or five vcds (yes! you did not hear it wrong.. it is vcd, not dvd).. I will have to spare 100++ every month. For a low quality picture that is far from better if they were being watched from this 32" tv... oh No! What a waste! a waste! a waste!

But here... oh! Yes! What a heaven. Pirated blue ray ok! No need to mention about the quality because, memang berkualiti. Who needs to go to Cinema when you can gegar your pintu bilik with a boom boom pow sound system. Ok! Not really boom boom pow la.. sorry ;p

Mickey Mouse?

What a good day...

Aku sampai office awal macam biasa pagi nih. Malasnya menengok opis aku nih... resign kanggg!

P sarapan ngan ibu & ayah dekat McD. Pasni dah tak bley dah... huhu. Bos panggil meeting.. lama juga meeting kitaorang. Dekat jam 11 setengah kot baru habis. Pastu melantak hamper yang ada dekat opis nih. Tak banyak hamper pun sebab pengarah kitaorang tak beraper gemar haktiviti2 hamper2an nih... cayalah puan!

Tengahari pegi makan magi ngan ibu... past tu p perabih duit dekat MPH. Kitaorang sangat kaya, kannnn!!! Ni kes tak sedar diri lah ni... dekat seratus gak shopping buku jek.

Petang tu, senior aku bising,kater aku kejam sebab dia kena p site yang bapak jauh dekat Kapit tu gara2 aku.. haha... aku tak pernah pon pegi visit site yang tuh. Bukan takat tak pegi visit, malah berjaya menolak kepada inchik bos untuk pegi. Bos aku kater, ble nampak buaya tu time naik bot. Eeee!! Lagi la aku serammm. Nasib juga ada rombakan dalam kabinet... eh! unit ;p kalau tak... merasalah aku berkawan ngan buaya... eeeeeee... Tapi aku sangat suka sebab tak payah jaga projek tu... yeeeayyyy!!!

Petang, aku shopping sungguh2 plak dekat area umah. Tak paham aku... kat mv tu cakap jek kedai apa, tapi kedai kat area umah ni juga tempat sopping pevret aku. Bukan takat tu, siap p beli dvd plak. Ni lagi satu yang aku cukop menyampah... beli! beli! beli! kalau aku cop duit takpe lah.

Makcik aku datang amik kueh kiriman my nenek... dorang ajak p beraya... malas tah ku ingau. Baju nak pakai esok pun tak iron lagi... oh! No... Pakai jek lah baju mickey mouse yang diberi kekasih lama ku ini ke opis, takbley ker? jeans aku belambak dalam almari tuh... sayang kalau mereka menjadi makanan lipas. Oh! No

Sed sad

Sedih. Itulah perasaan dan perkataan yang ada dalam aku. Dah tua2 ni, lebih2 pula. Dalam pukul 7 lebih kitaorang sampai airport. Aku yang drive. As usual la, aku memang menyampah kalau drive malam. Mata dah la rabun, silau lagi. Aku betul2 dah tua rupanya... muhuhaha... tapi aku tetap comel! So what?

Dalam pukul 12 juga kot keluar dari airport. Nasib ader orang amik, kalau tak... tidur la kitaorang dekat airport. Sampai rumah dalam pukul 1 lebih kot.

Pagi ni.. aku bersungguh2 bersarapan sambil meleleh air mata. Sedih... tak tahu lah apa kenanya. Dari semalam lagi aku duk tahan2... aku rasa balik KL mcm balik g neraka plak... hahaha. Belum pun aku sampai KL semalam, aku dah mula rasa letih. Aku betul2 rasa penat.

Mari mengemas

Hari ni tak pegi mana... aku bersungguh2 kemas bilik. This is the only ruang yang aku ada dalam rumah ni yang aku boleh buat ikut suka suki aku. Kalau ruang lain, jenuh la nak berurusan dengan big boss. My sis yang dah nak khawin tu pon, fening nak pk macamana nak buat pelupusan barang2 dalam bilik dia.

Nasib baik bilik aku tak banyak barang. Dan, bilik aku juga adalah satu2nya ruang yang my dad tak kan usik or bagi budak2 ni usik esp yang kecik tu. See... power of the sulung maa.. My sis yang kecik tu, ada ka patut.. my mom tanya.. kamurang x terbau apa2 bau busuk ka dalam bilik tu.. then dia bukak la story. My sis punya ikan peliharaan hari tu melompat keluar dari bekas dia.. si kecik tu duk cari2 tapi tak jumpa sampai busuk ikan tu. Nasib aku tak dek, kalau aku ada... silap2 bukan ikan, si kecik tu yang terkeluar dari bekas.. hahaha...

Yang kecik tu pun dah nak masuk form one next year.. my mom next month nak g naik haji.. tinggallah dia dengan my dad. Luckily juga my 3rd sis masuk poly intake next year.. at least, ada jugalah tukang masak my dad & yang kecik tu.

KiKi

Hari ni malas nak menyambut hari raya... opppsss... bukan bah! hari ni hari jalan2 cari pasal.. aku nak kena pegi servis keta la pulak. Kalau ikut hati, malas nak pegi tapi kalau x pegi nanti tak valid pulak warranty. Siapalah yang buat rules hampeh ni.

Jalan2 cari pasal sampai rumah my dad. My sis ni nak amik barang2 dia. Lalu depan OneBorneo, tapi tak sempat nak singgah sebab my sis yang lagi sorang nak pegi tengok barang2 khawen dia pulak. My sis dah nak kawen, akaq jugak yang single. Jenuh juga menjawab soklan2 direct tak bertapis berbunyi "kenapa ko putus tunang? dah ada pengganti baru? siapa yang selingkuh? dia dah kawen dah ker sekarang?"

Bila kena tanya siapa yang selingkuh tu aku yang paling aku tak tahan. Dah ler guna ayat selingkuh,macam aper jek.. hehe.. tak dek saper la yang selingkuh, apa jenis soklan daa! Tapi life memang macam ni lah... mula2 pasal study... upsr, pmr, spm, stpm dpt berapa? siapa masuk U mana, amik apa... then.. kerja apa.. pastu plak... khawin. Saper dah kawen, saper plak belum.. next, anak2.. dah berapa orang.. advance lagi, cerai... saper bercerai dulu... saper yang live happily ever after. Semuanya predictable.

Raya Tiga

Hari ni dah raya ketiga... kejap jek kan.. Pagi2 lagi dah sibuk memasak rendang ayam. My crime partner kata nak datang beraya. Dah ready2 kan kelupis semua... mak bising, apsal tak rendang sekali dua ekor ayam tuh.. gara2 malas nak potong ayam...tu yang masak sekor jek. Boleh plak.. haha... Tak perlah... budak2 ni kata nak masak rendang daging pulak.

Sibuk2 dekat dapur... sedar2 rumah dah penuh dengan family seblah ayah. Hari ni memang turun diorang pula serang umah kitaorang. Kelam kabut juga dibuatnya. Tambah2 pulak ramai budak2. Aku terkenang anak abang sedara aku yang nakal giler ni, raya last 2 year kot. Budak ni memang hyper. Time tu pegi beraya umah nenek dia, which is my dad's brother. Dia gigit my sis & buat macam2 lagi lah... last2 meraung sebab at the end dia plak kena gigit. Yang mengigit tu pulak, bukan calang2... budak besar tu... yaktu, aku... muhuhaha... aku tak pernah jentik pon adik2 aku (except yang 2nd ;p).. kira budak tu memang bertuah ler...

Gembiranya jadi budak2 kan... bila dah tua2 nih baru ler tersedar.

Aku kuarkan keyboard.. last2 yang bersungguh2 main keyboard tu ialah my dad. See... Casio nak lawan ngan Yamaha kannn... terus dia lupa dekat keyboard dia. Syytt... tapi yang pasti bapak aku main sumbang...hahaha... ampunnn pakkk!!

Sibuk amat sampai crime partner datang ponn tak terlayan. Nak stori2, my sedaras kat tepi2 tu terrrer bab pasang telinga. Tu belum part budak2 kecik giler kuaser & tak mo share. Ader yang sampai menjerit2. Aku memang menyampah kalau budak suka menjerit2 nih. Aku pon pernah kecik aper, adik2 aku tu... kitaorang tak meroyan pon & jerit2 tak tentu hala. Kalau anak aku sok, ko jeritlah.... cuba! Yess! Memang betul aku belum ada anak, tapi nak tunduk pada anak, aku rasa bukan stail aku. Parents rules, bukan anak2... tapi bukan ler dengan cara gila kuasa. Cukup lah sekadar guna psikologi. There are so many ways to approach & tackle budak2 nih... kalau tak reti, p kedai buku la beli buku.

Kalau kitaorang dulu, tak payah guna tangan... cukup sekadar pandangan jek dah cukup untuk buat kitaorang paham yang my dad tak suka what we did. Tapi budak2 yang aku jumpa nowdays, makin budak tu mengada2, makin di layan. Pas marah, di pujuk... manalah budak tu tak naik kepala sebab tahu mesti pas kena marah ni, sure akan kena pujuk punya. Budak2 kena ajar bertanggungjawab atas sikap & perbuatan dorang since kecik2 lagi. Tahan2lah sikit hati tu...

2nd Day..

Hari ni turn beraya dekat rumah family sebelah ayah pula. Semalam dah serang 3 rumah... tu pun dah letih gila... tah aper2 tah... dah tua2 ni kan.

Tadi pegi rumah abang my dad yang 2nd then baru pegi rumah abg dia yang first. Rasanya pegi rumah dorang ni memang every year... tu pun boleh sesat... this year drive separately. My dad & mom ... anak2 plak 1 keta lain. Teringat zaman kecil2... bersesak2 lah dalam van my dad my sardin. Last year, my dad still manage to paksa kitaorang naik satu van sampai one of my sis kena duduk dekat kerusi plastik dekat bonet. Teringat lagi muka masam budak2 nih.. hahaha... Tahun ni, since keta aku pon ader dekat kampung & my dad plak dengan kereta barunya kannn... so... tak lah kitaorang naik van lagi... hehehe

My dad ni bolehlah dikategorikan jenis yang suka ikut kepala dia jek. Sometimes dia terlupa yang dia ader 5 orang anak gadis yang dah besar2.. & ada seorang gadis lagi yang dah mememani dia selama 30 tahun ni. Kadang2 dia buat ikut suka dia jek. Tak dinafikan, ada juga masanya hati tersentuh namun sebagai anak, baik @ buruk ibu bapa kita... janganlah sekali2 menyakiti hati mereka. Dua orang ni tak akan dapat kita tukar ganti macam berganti suami mahu pun isteri. Terimalah mereka seadanya...

Sambung cerita raya... before balik rumah, budak2 ni ajak g jalan2 cari pasal dekat pekan. Time nak balik dah, mom call bagitau dekat rumah dah penuh dah. Sampai2 rumah, gitar2 ngan keyboard semua dah ready dekat tangan abang2 sedara aku. Penyanyi pun dah dilantik... haha... sungguh2 dorang berkonsert... sumbang mambang tak payah cerita lah. Kalau anak2 abang sulung my dad ni, memang jenis tak de segan punya.. semua yang mulut bising. Lain pula ngan anak2 abang my dad yang 2nd, semua lemah lembut macam their dad.

My dad 4 beradik, & ada sorang jek pompuan. Semua adik beradik dia yang lain each ada sorang jek anak pompuan, except for my dad yang anak beliau (;p) semua pompuan. Same goes to my mother, 8 beradik cuma dia as yang sulung & yang bongsu tu jek pompuan.. yang lain lelaki.. tapi yang peliknya, my mom + my dad = anak pompuan semuanya.